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shigadabi week day 2: lies

this time it isn’t a joke

@ebumimasaru This is super late, but finally. The fanart I said I would make for your fic, “Guilt” (if you guys haven’t read it already, DROP WHAT YOU ARE DOING, go read it and all of their fics)!!!! 

Really bless you and your fics. And here, as an apology for being this late, I made a sketch-y art of the kiss in Feathers, too!!:

Here’s an alternative tho- Instead of the end game being Hawks loosing it, it’s the sun itself.

Endeavor, the new top hero, the man that worked all his life around becoming the very best, finally loose his mind.

I mean, if you follow the manga (if you don’t, get outta here), you know that Enji has finally realized that changes must be done for him to finally be a man he and others could call as a good person. He’s bad at it and i’m pretty sure he don’t know how, but he’s sincerely trying to be a better person-

Not just for his carrier, but for his family.

Than we’ve got McLovin, the fiery chicken, the good boy- Hawks. The boy is cheecky, he’s got a mind of his own and all that good shit.

With how things are going, it’s easy to assume that him and Endeavor are going to work together once again in the near future. Not only that, but these two has a great chimie going on when it comes to teaming up and, maybe, going as far as to call them… friends? (Hmm… that’s sound so wrong but at the same time nah??)

Here’s why this take a toll = Endeavor doesn’t look like someone who treats others as equal as him both in his hero work and his personal life. In fact, i’m pretty sure he’s got a bullhead.

So, for him (take in the fact he’s changing) to take a liking for this peculiar boy is quite something. Only time will tell us how deep this new partnership runs between them.

With that said, i can finally say why Endeavor is the perfect candidate to go nuts.

1. The dude has so much presure on his shoulders with his new duty as the number 1 hero.

2. Your family still don’t trust you around them (aka. Even when coming home, it gotta be pretty tense around even with how forgiving fuyumi is being)

3. Possibility of finding out that your partner is working with the other team, but not knowing he’s actually a double agent.

4. my favorite. Touya Todoroki Dabi

5. And finally, his own struggles with himself on being good enough.

Put all of those struggles on the shoulders of an impulsive man who’s trying to hold it in. Something is bound to break.

The arc introduces the two remaining members of the family we knew existed but didn’t know by name (Touya and Natsuo) and goes to great lengths to keep sustained mentions/appearances for all of them, so I prefer to think of it as “hasn’t forgotten about his family” rather than “hasn’t forgotten about Touya”. Touya is included in Endeavor’s family, after all.  

I also don’t know about “most importantly Touya”, as we don’t actually know what the Todoroki family thinks happened to him. For all we know, Endeavor could have never laid a hand on him upon him, knowing his body was weak. Assuming Touya = Dabi, nothing tells us Endeavor is directly responsible for his scars either. We don’t know whether he was kicked out, disowned, ran away, faked his death, etc, etc. We don’t know whether they think there is anything left to be done for him. 

You brought up in your reply that there are four flowers, two open and two closed, but that’s actually wrong: 

There are six flowers, as many as there are members of his family. “He hasn’t left us behind” is all of them, not just Touya. If you wanted to analyze them as a symbol, you could even go and say there are two flowers at the top (the parents), and four at the bottom (their children); out of the ones at the top one is in full bloom (Rei), and out of those in the bottom one has started to (maybe Fuyumi). The rest could be relationships that have not yet bloomed towards forgiveness. 

It’s not really just “one” person in his family, as prioritizing a single one of them would actually work negatively toward Endeavor’s goal of them being together again. Neglect is a form of abuse too. Taking for granted those who want to give him a chance - Rei and Fuyumi - could make him lose them. It has to be all of them or none. 

Of course, if you want to think of each flower as a family member, Touya is conspicuously absent, but the arc makes that exceedingly clear. 

Furthermore, though, there is a very clear framing device used to tell the flowers are filling in for Endeavor: 

A blooming bouquet right on top of a blooming wound. 

Oh, honey, do I ever have headcanons for Good!Dad!Enji. 

Sit down and buckle up because I have loads of them. Like so many, Wolfy, so many.

1- In a relationship where Enji actually respects and loves his wife, Rei, he understands that his ice maiden wife is much better at using, conveying and displaying emotions then he is. She’s calmer and easy going and really, that’s one of the things he loves about her so he leaves all the deeply emotional conversations up to her.

“Daddy’s going away for a while. There are people that need help and Daddy’s going to help them, but he’s not going to be here for a while.”

“Regardless if you know this classmate of yours who wants to invite you to go to the mall with them- by yourself- we don’t know him. You are our precious child and we won’t entrust just anyone with your safety.”

“A relationship is built on mutual love, trust and communication. While we understand that you are older, you are still not old enough to be dating. Unless we know who this person is and approve of him.”

*Enji’s eyes narrow* *flames rise higher* *temperature increases* 

*Rei turns to smile at her husband* *temperature drops* 

*Enji grumbles*

*room temperature goes back to normal*

(because if Enji talks to his kids about dating and relationships beyond friends and partners, there will be flaming fists and yelling involved- also property damage)

That doesn’t mean that he won’t be sitting right next to her, arms folded across his chest and nodding in complete agreement with what she’s saying (because communication- they have discussed this together). It doesn’t mean that Enji won’t lift his child up and say- very seriously- that he loves them very much, no more, no less then the others and if anyone makes them feel unloved or not good enough or unsafe they need to tell him right now.

They are their own unique person and if they want to be a hero- or not- Enji will always love them and support them. By loudly shouting their name and letting his flames grow bigger so he can be seen very clearly if need be.

2- Enji is socially awkward with people that he cares about. He can put on a face and be polite, commanding and reassuring in a blunt, confident and firm way, but it’s different with people he cares about.

So while any of his children that surprise him with hugs will get their affections returned and a very solemn assurance of his love or pride in them, but Enji will always be the first to say, ‘okay, that’s enough, don’t you have homework to do? Training? You want to go train?’.

3- Enji is absolutely the dad who will show up to every single game, competition, showing, or gathering where any of his children will be doing something. He will stand there, flames on, arms crossed firmly over his chest and anytime his kid(s) does something impressive, the entire audience will hear his shouting/applauding/cheering. That’s not even including the levels of his flames he puts off. Fellow parents have seen him more as Endeavor than as Todoroki Enji.

4- Enji has three phones, one for personal use, work, and the one that he will always pick up, even in a firefight. There was an instance where his oldest son- let’s call him Kodai- got into a fight at school and in a fit of rebellion he gave the principle the Emergency Number and Endeavor showed up with an unconscious and cuffed criminal draped over his shoulder. 

This situation has been repeated with all of his children on several occasions because Endeavor is the No. 2 hero and he is frequently called away on business. He’s busy, especially with his Agency and the amount of territory he patrols.

Of course, this number has been used when one of his children needs to be picked up from somewhere they don’t want their mother to know about. Because Enji sets the rules and while he expects them to be followed, he usually leaves the enforcement up to his wife. 

Unless the punishment is training. And really, the more training his children have the safer they will be.

5- While Enji delights in teaching those of his kids that control fire on any level, he is also amused when he plays- excuse me- trains with the ones with ice powers. Because all it takes is a handful of fire to melt their creations unless they come up with new and clever ways to fight him.

6- Enji has a hobby of wood burning and glass making. It was a tool he used for control and it evolved. Now he makes things in his spare time. His very rare spare time. So over the years, as his kids grow up and his wedding anniversary comes and goes each year, he’ll set time aside to make something for his family. Pendants, charms, beads, vases and the like. 

7- Enji has changed diapers. Lots of times. Only his wife opted for the re-washable cloth diapers instead of the disposable ones. Regardless of this, there were several times Koyuki noticed that the amount of diapers she has changes. Sometimes she has a lot and sometimes there’s less then there should be.

8- When his kids get excited over certain heroes on the television, Endeavor will usually bring his kid(s) to work and by happenstance there’s information that he needs to pass on in person, or questions to be asked, or even patrols to be worked out or a mission to be shared that will require those heroes to come into the Endeavor Agency.

They have to come in person, of course. He’s the No. 2 hero, seriously, who is going to deny an invitation?

9- Enji manages to be both an absent dad and a helicopter parent. He’s away a lot and his go-to method of bonding is training. But if the Emergency Number rings, no matter where Endeavor is, he will either drop what he’s doing or go overboard to finish it right this instant to rush to where his kid(s) is/are.

…

Okay, let’s stop here. Basically Enji is a dork that has a helluva temper and usually expressed his emotions with flames and yelling. Lots of flames. But he loves his children very much.

Hawks: Yes?

Fuyumi, blushing: I meant, would you like one?

Hawks: Oh. Yeah, sure. Sugar?

Fuyumi: Yes?

Hawks, also blushing: I was just asking if you wanted some sugar in your coffee.

Fuyumi, flustered: Oh! Yeah. Sure.

Both: [completely flustered]

Enji, from a distance: Even I'm getting embarrassed from watching these dumbasses.

Before you write this off as another far-fetched Tumblr theory, let me explain. I believe that I have found more evidence of Dabi’s backstory. 

**spoilers of both the manga and the anime below**

December 6th- HAPPY BIRTHDAY FUYUMI!!!

Things were finally quiet for the Todoroki family..

unfinished dabi sketches/ concepts