I'm Swallowed In Sea

“I’ve spent so much time in my head and in my heart that I forgot to live in my body.”

Sometimes I need to hear you tell me you love me. Sometimes I need you to look me in the eyes, grab my hands, and tell me that you really, truly love me. I need to know that you aren’t going anywhere. I need to feel your love. Life is complicated. I know it’s hard to balance everything, but sometimes I need you too. Problems arise. People betray you, and work drains you. But I love you, and nights like these, I need you to love me a little harder, please.

I am tired of being ashamed of my body. I feel like my arms are as thick as tree trunks, and when I look at my stomach, I see unwanted rolling hills. I am so exhausted, constantly pinching and pulling at my body. Fat shouldn’t be the characterizing factor of a human being. Kindness should be. I want to be someone with a good heart. Intelligence should be. I want to inspire people with my thirst for knowledge. Love should be. Because what is life without love? Nothing. So if I am fat but I’m kind, intelligent, and loving, is that really so bad? There is so much more to humans than their physicality. Remember that being a good person is so much more important than forcing your body to conform to societal standards. Beauty is internal. And you are so beautiful.