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"Here is a plea from my heart to you

Nobody knows me as well as you do

You know how hard it is for me to shake the disease

my mendings itch .  there’s nothing to do .

what ceremony of words can patch the havoc ?

stop crying .  open your hand .

it is a terrible thing ,  to be so open .

i am too pure for you or anyone .

it’s easy to blame the dark .

how free it is ,  you have no idea how free .

it must be one or the other of us .

it was a kind of marriage ,  being so close .

nobody sees us .

i couldn’t sleep for a week .

it is comfortable ,  for a change ,  to mean so little.

tell me i’m here .

your room is lousy with flowers .

now i resemble a sort of god .

nobody can tell what i lack .

i suppose it’s pointless to think of you at all .

i can stay awake all night ,  if need be .

this is not what i meant .

i can’t get it out of my mind .

when you kick me out ,  that’s what i’ll remember .

i wasn’t fooled .  i knew you at once .

if the moon smiled ,  she would resemble you .

your clear eye is the one absolutely beautiful thing .

perfection is terrible .

i do not trust the spirit .

one day ,  it won’t come back .

they will wonder if i was important .

oh god ,  i am not like you .

there is no stopping it .

we have come so far ,  it’s over .

tonight will be ,  in every respect ,  like every other night .

that’s how you always talk before we start .

if i didn’t trust you at this ,  i wouldn’t trust myself .

at least i feel less dread of the world beyond ours .

i admit it :  i’m afraid .

don’t be so smart .

i dreamed of doing it ,  and now it’s done .

earth is my haunt .

what manner of business are you on ?

perhaps you’ve late quitted heaven ?

i shall never grow old .

sugar can cure everything .

is there no way out of the mind ?

there are no trees or birds in this world .

this is what i am made of ,  this and terror .

why is it so quiet ,  what are they hiding ?

this is what it is to be complete .

is he wearing pajamas or an evening suit ?

the police love you ,  you confess everything .

is my life so intriguing ?

where are you going that you suck breath like mileage ?

you flicker .  i cannot touch you .

if i could bleed ,  or sleep !  if my mouth could marry a hurt like that !

what did they know that i didn’t ?

you say you can’t stand her .

i’m doped and thick from my last sleeping pill .

you are ill .

you are so exhausted .

i can’t communicate .

we’re here on a visit .

where do you stash your knife ?

what sort of scenery is it ?

you know who you hate .

pure ?  what does it mean ?

i am not subtle .

right now you are dumb ,  and i love your stupidity .

i know why you won’t give it to me .  you’re terrified .

is it impossible for you to let something go and have it whole ?

must you kill what you can ?

there is one thing i want today ,  and only you can give it to me .

it won’t hurt .

do away with it altogether .

are you our sort of person ?

i have always been scared of you .

i didn’t call you .  i didn’t call you at all .

there is nothing between us .

seven hours knocked out of my right mind .

i am myself .  that is not enough .

i dream of someone else entirely .

we should meet in another life .

it was an accident .

you know what lies are for .

dying is an art ,  like everything else .

how far is it now ?

do not accept it .  it’s not genuine .

i am so stupidly happy .

“Okay, it’s official. I’m never having kids.”

“Yeah, the real world sucks, deal with it like the rest of us.”

“Let’s kill the son of a bitch.”

“I may be a pretty shitty boyfriend, but turns out I’m actually a pretty damn good babysitter.”

“I don’t care if anyone believes me!”

“Something is going on here!”

“Yeah, that’s right! You better run!”

“No more secrets, okay?”

“You’re an idiot, [name].”

“Don’t take it so personally, okay? I don’t like most people.“

“You saved me.”

“You shouldn’t like things because people tell you you’re supposed to.”

“Mornings are for coffee and contemplation.”

“YOU BETTER RUN!”

“If anyone asks where I am, I’ve left the country.”

“Friends don’t lie.”

“Sometimes, your total obliviousness just blows my mind.”

“Stop stalking me.”

“I will never, ever let anything bad happen to you ever again.”

“I don’t care if anyone believes me.”

“Nothing is gonna go back to the way that it was. Not really. But it’ll get better. In time.”

“Touch my butt, I don’t care.”

“When do you feel good about anything?”

“There’s more to life than stupid boys, you know.”

“Sometimes, I impress even myself.”

“Ask for forgiveness, not permission.”

“You are gonna slay ‘em dead.”

“I’m stealthy, like a ninja.”

“I always thought stuff like this happened in movies and comic books.”

“We’re just friends.”

“Oh my god oh my god oh my god oh my god.” 

“This is not yours to fix alone. You act like you’re all alone out there in the world, but you’re not. You’re not alone.”

“Being a freak is the best. I’m a freak.”

“You think I actually wanted to come to this? I was just hungry.”

“You’ve always been my favorite.”