Blue Skies

-4 years since I tried to take my life

-4 years since I lost someone important to me

-4 years since I got diagnosed

-4 years since I started recovery

-3 years since I got my drivers licence

-3 years since I finished school

-2 and a half years since I met the love of my life

I got so caught up with life and how fast it was moving that I forgot about this blog, but the positivity that I posted in the past has inspired me to start adding to this page again.

Since I last posted I found out that I most likely have ADHD and am on the Autistic spectrum- I have also discovered and embraced my gender identity and sexuality thanks to my wonderful partner coming out as a trans woman!

Just goes to show, nothing turns out as you expect. But I'm finishing my second year at uni next month, and it sort of hit me that I want to live. For the first time I'm not 'on the fence' about life; I'm genuinely happy. There are things in the past that still hurt me, I still suffer from my mental illnesses of course, and there are things I stress about and fear like everyone does, but I have so many blessings, many of which I have worked hard to get which gives me such a feeling of fulfillment. I want to keep posting to this blog, through future times, good and bad. I hope it can give some comfort to people who were in the same dark place I was only a few years ago.

Especially in university, you always hear people saying that these are meant to be the best years of your life, that you'll never get a better opportunity to do things. But just hold up, relax, take a breather. Feel free to go at your own pace. Life's different for everyone. Just because someone's teens or twenties were super adventurous, doesnt mean your life has to follow the same pattern.