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I had to move home, focus on myself and learn to be independent again. I have to find love for myself and my life and he has to go be a mini little artist and gig with his band, explore his life paths and find his own way. Despite the want for things to work and to hold him once again, feel his kiss before being sent off alone, I had to it let go. A little for him, so he’d be free to do what he needs but... mostly for me. So I can become who I need to be for me. Work through my guards and anxiety and social blocks and figure out my wants and needs and what to do with my life. Truth is, it wasn’t the right time and this isn’t the right guy for my current self.

I guess this is how it will be now,

I do not fully understand and I do not think I shall, because you left so suddenly... yet so slow I could not wrap my mind around what was going on.

My emotions were still attached to you, calling out your name at such random moments, however I dare not speak your syllables.

You came to me, asked what I wanted and I never lied, I hated all and you continue on knowing we would reach this moment where you would run... you kept yourself composed throughout wreckage you caused inside me,

Now that you are gone I wish I could hate you, I wish I could make you feel this feeling you’ve made me endure, but truth is in some weird way, you made me see myself in a new wonderful light.

Because of you, I now know I am capable of feeling more than emptiness,

Because of you, I now know that I hold true qualities that someone will appreciate, but for now, I will.

I will give myself the care, love and affection I would have showered you in.

Thank you for our time together, thank you for the moments we shared, thank you for reminding me that I am a wonderful soul that has so much growth to do.

Thank you for leaving.