Adventures in Awkward

Wish I had more time to work on this, but I wanted to get in, at least, one art piece representing pridemonth🌈 before June is over.

I love these two so much.

Happy Pride! ✨️🏳️‍🌈

I’ve grown up in an age that told me that denying yourself was good. Oh, you want cake? Here, have this chalk-dust square of not-cake - fewer calories, don’t you know! You want to lay on the sofa and read? Don’t you think you ought to clean the entire house first? Then perhaps you’ll deserve ten minutes. Make sure it’s approved book though - no reading purely for pleasure!

And most importantly - you must work hard to maintain yourself and your life in a certain way or no one will love you!

You know, the sort of thing S1 Gabriel said.

And then there’s Aziraphale who loves food and books and peace and his comfy clothes and his music and he is deeply loved by his demon who wants him to love all that. Aziraphale just wants a soft, sweet, delicious life - not a soldier or a leader, to just be him.

And Crowley loved that about him.

I just think that was very important about S1 Aziraphale (and not something that made much of after that) and it felt like I was being given permission to enjoy my life and I would still be able to be loved and to achieve things, even if I’d rather eat cake.

I think S2 and S3 forgot that about Aziraphale but I think that soft hedonism is a hugely important part of his character

Now I’m an adult and people my age have their lives in order and I’m stuck here, confused, because I never planned to be alive and I’m so far behind.

I want to make an addition to this. I made this post a long time ago.

I’m currently back in university, and I’ve made so much progress with my trauma. I’m in a loving relationship.

Things can and will get better. It’s not too late.

I’m getting married. I’m still in that loving relationship.

I’ve been married a little over two years. I just got home from friendships that feel like home and family. My husband and I have our own place. I have a full ass book ready to be published.

- I do not feel well and I am probably going to die

- I am sick and dying