WITH NO NAME.

the aesthetic of my remake will be sweatcore, which @genrcsavvy and I created

okay so, I’m going to move to a new blog and follow you cats from there! if you get followed by a new person that’s me

okay boys I’m remaking this blog and starting anew. single muses we’re fun for ten seconds but those ten seconds are over

also boys i am feeling genuinely okay tonight, i’m still a LITTLE shaky and tentative but i think i’m doing a lot better. i am now on 50 mg of fluvoxamine and so far, knock on wood, i’m not experiencing any emotional side effects. only nausea and a little fatigue. i’m still a little off only bc like. it’s hard for me to get comfortable being comfortable if that makes any sense? i just assume that if i get too comfortable and happy, something horrible will happen. but i am trying my best to remind myself that i do not need to bully myself over things that i am traumatized by. it’s really hard, but i am trying.

crazy how vel/la lov/ell signed an exclusivity contract with me to be ONLY my fc

one time i ate 3 CBD gummy bears and threw up for like three hours that night

okay i have taken my first dose. i am Scared but a shower made me feel better

so i’m starting a new medication today. i am very scared bc of past experiences but also, i have to try it. do any of you cats have experience with fluvoxamine for OCD?

when i was a youth (like a youth youth) i was scared to poop bc i thought it hurt so i wouldn’t, then i would get constipated which would in turn make it actually painful so i would be proved correct which meant that i would continue to not poop. like i have gone to the hospital multiple times for enemas for this issue. one time it got so bad that i was in severe, horrible pain and had to get an x-ray and had to stay home from school for TWO DAYS and drink a milk jug full of miralax. anyway, how are you guys doing

i may be an abolitionist but if you name your kid “ryler” you deserve prison time