Imagines I’ve Written

"God, I'm actually invested"

Real Life--

"And I wake up in the middle of the night," i strummed the chord progression, adding space for the unwritten lyrics, "'cause youre not here."

The time on my phone read 2:43 am and the recording ran below; I should be asleep, but the memory of him kept me awake.

The cool night brushed past my cheeks. It was a typical warm night in Canada, even warmer inside the bar. My friends and I found a table on the back patio, tucked under thick greenery and fairlights that glimmered like the stars above. As the night ticked by, our table got quieter and quieter as everyone slowly left; somone had a flight to catch, a partner waiting on them, an early morning audition, ect., ect. until I was left alone. It wouldve made sense to turn in and get some sleep, but I couldnt tear myself away from the scenery.

My glasses was half empty when a voice cut through my thoughts, "anyone sitting here?"

I looked up to see a guy who seemed to fit the tall, dark, and handsome stereotype with perfectly styles black hair and a soft smile, "its all yours."

"I'm Hudson," he reached a hand out and I took it happily. I liked the sparkle in his eye.

I sign and end the recording, it helped put some more pieces into place but I was still missing a bridge, still not accepting all of the thougths swirling in my head. In my head...

It's my first night back in NYC since my canadian aventure, but it all feels different. The traffic noise and bright lights seem quiter, brighter. I picture my own trip home, and suddenly a soft smile from the bar creeps in...

I scribble down the lyrics quickly while softly singing them to the tune I worked out, "in my head / you're in the car and / you get to my door." The jump start was all I needed; suddenly memories washed over me. I pictured our quick banter across that quiet bar table, him walking me back to the hotel, the exchaging of numbers, and every dark haired guy I hoped was him for the rest of our trip. On that random page in my journal, a whole song took shape and I scribbled "Risk" is messy letters on the top.

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Real Life--

Hudson sat across from me, surrounded by dark red brick and illuminated by the sunlight from the front windows. What nether of us notice is we've been sitting across from one another for almost 3 hours without a care. This is nice, he is nice. And genuine. And funny. And interesting. And cute. And-

"Whatcha thinking about," he asks. We lock eyes and I feel a warmth was over me, bringing an honest answer out.

"Does this count as a good first date?"

Without hesitation he says, "yeah it does."

"Why?" Ismile.

"Because I forgot I was trying to impress you." We hold eachothers gave from across the table, not rushing to do or say anything. Just being present as Y/N and Hudson.

"Privacy sign on the door / And on my page and on the whole world"

Real Life--

Somewhere deep inside Taylor Swift's home I curled into a vintage couch, It was a chilly nights after smaller charity event. Big names have floated in and out of the room all nights, checking in, bringing drinks, taking a break from the booming speakers; but myself, Jack Antonoff, and Pheobe Bridgers took permanent residency in the quiet.

"I'm telling you, that albums a breakup record," Pheobe argued. I tear my eyes away from the friged pillow I zoned out on, realizing I had no clue what album they were even arguing over. That seemed to be my theme for tonight: desperatly try and act like my normal self while pathetically drowning in love. Husdon and I haven't been in the same city in far too long and it started to weight on me. It was riddiculous, I'm a musician who goes on tours and private writing trips, its never bothered me to be away from a partner before. Until now. And I'm terrified.

"It's all branding," jack responded. All the albums spoken about tonight flipped throughout my head, "Y/N back me up." Shit.

"I think..." I paused no album had been notably a break up record, "people hear what they need to."

"Such a songwriter answer," jack scoffed but smiled. He saw both sides of the bussiness, sometimes I'd argue thats a curse.

Pheobe studied me, "you're somewhere else."

"Am I that obvious?"

"Only to the people who know you," thank God for Pheobe Bridgers. I opened my mouth with an attempt to explain, but my phone interuppted. Thrown on the coffee table, the ringer cut through the quiet and a photo of Hudson illuminated the screen. I felt my mouth curl into an involuntary smile.

Jack and Pheobe shared a look before he started, "don't tell me thats him."

I was already standing, pulling the jacket tighter over my shoulders, "I'll be right back." I didn't hear their chuckled as I made a beeline for the grand glass doors at the back of the room. Outside, the still air felt suffocating.

That was until a soft, "Hey rockstar," cut through it.

"Hey babe! What's up?"

"Press is done! I'm offically free!!"

I giggle at the pure excitment and relief in his voice, "freedom looks good on you."

"So do you," oh! Someones bold tonight.

A laugh bubbled from my chest; a real laugh, not the rehersed ones I've been giving all night, "I miss you."

"Yea, me too," we settle into a comfortable silence. I hear the barely there music from inside, some people laughing around the front of the house, and Hudson's slow breathing. God he's so close, but so far. All of the sudden, the door next to me opens and Jack and Margret Qualey wave goodbye as they exit. In the few seconds it took the door to close, a loud laugh rang through the night, "where are you?"

"After party at Taylor's," I answer with a sigh.

"Taylor as in Swift?! I don't know if I'll ever get used to your friends literally being stars," we both giggle, "you having fun?"

"Not really."

"You wanna come here?"

In a moment of bravery I answer "yes."

Silence fills the call, "you're serious."

"I can be on a flight tonight," I pause, worried I went too far.

"I can be at the airport to pick you up," I smile to hard my cheeks hurt.

The rest of the night turns into a blur of goodbyes, Detla bookings, and getting shot a knowing look from Pheobe behind the group of people who now surround her.

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Real Life--

"You're a bear?" I question holding up a small stuffed bear, wearing a custome made Shane Hollander jersey. It was sicking out of a half open bag he left sitting by the door.

"It was a gift from a fan," he smiles, "the show has picked up quite a following."

I turned the bear in my hands, "they're very talented." He nodded to my statment and went back to setting up the couch for our watch night. I took the time to walk into the makeshift office he had set up in his apartment. Lots of the space was taken up by a place for self tapes, but I noticed he had a couple of shelfs with various decor pieces: photos from his prevous works, old scripts, and a fake plant. My eyes stopped when I came across a pristine baseball cap with my signature stiched across the front. It is one of my favorite merch pieces I've ever sold and he owned it. I tuck the Hollander bear right next to it.

"You ready?" Hudson calls from the other room. I give the scene one last smile before heading back to the living room.

~~

"Falling asleep on me are we?" Hudson softly chuckled. We'd finished the newest episode of Heated Rivarly and some new movie, my eyes were getting heavier and the walk to his room seemed impossible.

"Yup," I joke, snuggling closer to his chest, "night bear."

I felt him stir below me, so I lifted my head. He was staring down at me with sparkling eyes and a tired smile, "did you just call me bear?"

"Maybe."

"It that a thing now?"

"If you want it to be," I offered suddenly getting shy. I tried to lay my head back down and avoid his gaze, but Hudson gently turned my face back to his and sat up.

"Yes," he smiled, "I want it to be." Then he kissed me in a way that rivaled whatever him and Connor had come up with.

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"I hate to look at your face and know that we're feeling different"

Real Life--

It's too hot in my bedroom, too still. I'm lying on my back, listening to Hudson scroll through TikTok; I open my own app and hope for the distraction. It's been a solid 30 minutes of opening and closing numerous apps to fight off the ugly, black insecurity swirling in my head.

Turns out, that was a futile effort. Two videos in and I see an edit of Hudson and Sophie Nelisse; clip after clip of them looking like the picture perfect couple. Classy, elegent, polished. I can't be mad, we both agreed to keep this private so its no surprise fans would shamelesly pair him with female costars. Yet, I blurt out, "people really like you with her."

"Who?" Hudson asks, rolling onto his side so he is closer to me. A small part of me felt better, he's right here with you. I turned my screen towards him and let the edit play. Hudson frowns, "oh... that's not..."

"I know," I cut in quickly, "I promise I know."

I stare ahead, praying for him to come closer. I should've planned that better, hell plan that at all. I should've just asked him to move closer, should've just scrolled passed the edit and the others shipping him with Connor. I should look at him now rather than staring ahead. I choose wrong and do nothing.

Hudson keeps his gaze locked onto the side of my face for a few long moments. I can tell he's unsure whether to lean into me further or give me some space. He chooses wrong and does nothing.

~~

It is suffocatingly dim in this bathroom. I look at the deep yellow lights around me and feel a yearning for the loudness outside of these doors. I'm currently dressed head to toe in the most put together gown I've ever seen. Gracie Abrams insisted I come to the Golden Globes with her and Paul, so she wouldn't be "out of place and alone." The couple managed to find someone Paul was friendly enough with to get them to bring me in as a date, poor guy I should really remember his name.

Hudson is here too, in an elegent white top, matching blazer, and black pants. He fit in so well and looked like he always belonged. Me? I was a mess. Not literally, I can see that clearly. Look back at me in the mirror now is my face, with perfect eyeliner and a face that was airbrushed on. I missed my smudged look. My dress was perfect too, a white satin like material with small black detailing. I matched Hudson enough to make us both giddy.

I start to cry when the door swings open, "Hey- are you ok?"

I whip my head to see Gracie, picture perfect and fitting in perfect all night. I wish I could hate her, "you are perfect."

"What?" She questions. She's now made her way over to me and is gently cradling my head, careful not to mess up the ballerina bun styled there.

"You are just so perfect, in here, out there, hell everywhere. I'll be lucky if I can ever pretend to feel normal."

"Aww baby," she coos, "you are perfect out there. You fit into the scene like a glove."

"Maybe," I contemplate, "but I feel like a poorly made puppet who jokes too loud."

"Maybe we've gotten some looks, but I promise the tables around us just have a stick up their ass," she jokes. I can't help but giggle.

"I guess."

"Don't guess, know!" She exclaimed turning to walk into a stall, "take a minute, because when we're done we're showing all those stuck up actors how musicans do award shows!"

I laugh and agree, but deep down the feeling never goes away. I'm loud, I don't do stuffy award shows, and I definitely don't look like I belong.

~~

The bright sun is slightly dimmed as it shined through the tinted windows. I was dropping Hudson off at the airport; he landed a brand new role but would be relocating to Japan for an extended time. I was beyond proud of him, but that dark, cruel feeling inside spread.

"I hate that I feel like this," I sigh, "I'm happy for you, promise. But I just feel..."

"Like what?"

"Like I'm competing with something I can't see," I admit. People always describe getting something off your chest as a relief, but I feel like crying, "your job. Your life. My job. My fans. Expectations."

My voice cracks as I pull into a parking spot. Hudson unbuckles and leans over to hold me. Its awkward and honestly makes me feel worse. I stop struggling and go quiet for a moment, "And?"

"And the version of me that doesn't exist."

"You're not competing," he whispers into my hair. I know he means it.

"I know, that's the worst part," I yank out the bun I carefully styled. It looked like those classy actress papparazzi photos, but who am I kidding. We sit there while I calm down. Neither of us know how to fix this, so we sit until its time for him to go, then we walk inside hand in hand.

~~

The venue smells like beer, sweat, and dust. I can already feel it sinking into my clothes, I love it. It's a much smaller venue than I expected DJO to still be playing at, but I can't say I'm mad. I scan the room, Finneas and I are standing in a makshift VIP section DJO's team hooked us up with, and take notice of all his fans packed into the small space.

The lights dimming breaks up my train of thought, all praises I have for his fans are replaced with the opening chords of "Awake." It hits like a pulse deep in my chest. This is home; a dark room, loud music, sweaty fans, and no expectations to feel anything other than electrified. "Basic Being Basic," "Gap Tooth Smile," "Fly," and many more songs blur by. I try in vain to keep up with all of the loyal DJO fans, but they make it impossible. By the time he starts "End of Beggining," my shoulders are loose and my head is waving wildly in the air.

"Another version of me, I was in it / I wave goodbye to the end of beginning," DJO sings out.

You don't feel like this in his world.

Woah.

I feel the pit in my stomach open up, I didnt mean to let that thought slip in. It's not cruel, or dramatic, but I don't want it. But then again, when I imagine Hudson's award shows, and fancy quiet dinners I can't help but agree.

Around me the song crescendos and all I can focus on is, "you take the man out of the city, not the city out the man."

Our break up won't be panic, it'll be relief.

That scares me even more.

~~

The night passed in a blur, and I know it's my own selfishness that drove me to end up here, in some NYC resturant, with Joe Keery. Part of me is desperatly trying to see how he handles the two worlds, but some deep part of me wants to live in the loudness he just created on stage.

"You survived," Joe comments.

"Barely, you were so loud."

"I try," he looks down before continuing, "you disappear into shows like that."

"Only place I can get my brain to shut up."

"You belong in rooms like that, by the way. Rooms where it's too loud to pretend to be anyone but yourself."

I look down and start playing with my ring, "no one pretends at concerts."

"What?"

"No one pretends at concerts," I say louder, "no one has energy. Musicans are too lost in their craft to worry about a front that doesn't fit, and the fans they're too into the show they're waited months for to waste a second with an act."

"You have a tour soon, right? It seems like its time to get back in the saddle," Joe says, moving around th booth to get closer to me.

"Be careful, you'll give me ideas," I whisper to him.

"I'm very good at that."

I notice how much closer he's gotten to me and clear my throat, "this isn't weird, right?"

"Nah, its just dinner," he sits back into the booth, "unless you want it to be something else.

I can feel the storm inside me rumbling, my "old" life that feels like it happened 10 years ago is rushing back quickly, "I don't know what I want yet."

"Then we won't name it," he barely locks his eyes with mine, "it's so stuffy in here. Wanna leave?" A small smile breaks out on my face.

We split the check and walk out together. My head is spinning while we explore the city that never sleeps.

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Real Life--

The strings of Finneas's guitar sing as he tunes the instrument; I decided his current song needed an acoustic guitar in the background. He doesn't even look up when he says, "You've been staring at the wall for a while."

"I like the wall," I reply, too deep in my own mind to come up with something better.

"You hate the wall. Always say the color is to sterile for a studio."

I sign and lean back into my chair, "I think I'm ruining something good."

The plucking stops and I see his head raise, "ok. Start there."

"I love him, with my whole heart. But lately, it feels like I'm always catching up," I rub my face with my hands, "I'm desperatly trying to catch up to his life, his world. I can't even fathom introducing him into mine when I'm such an outsider in his."

Finneas nods and ponders my words for a moment. Eventually he says, "That's not nothing, but..."

"I know," I finish, "I hate that I'm insecure. I hate comparing myself to the headlines and the fans and the versions of him that aren't real. And I hate that I can't click with his world; with the audtions, and filming, and press. It's so far from me."

"You're allowed to feel weird about dating someone in a different career. And you're allowed to be thrown off about dating someone the internet thinks that they own," he speaks slowly.

"I don't wanna be the reason things get heavy."

"You are not a burden for having feelings and insecurites; but Hudson needs to know. Always playing catchup is not love, its endurance."

"I don't want to lose him," I confess, barely above a whisper.

"And you won't, but you need to be honest. Y/N, you deserve so much and forcing all this inside prevents that. I've known you as long as you've been in this industry and I've seen you shrink yourself to fit into other's lives more comfortably. Let this be the relationship that fixes that, be yourself now."

~~

The phone rings exactly three times before I hear the line connect.

"Hey! You caught me between things," Hudson chips.

"Yeah," I looked at my watch, it's noon in Japan right now. "I figured."

There's a long pause, then, "What's going on?"

"I don't belong in your world," I say with an exhale. Theres a stretch of silence where Hudson is trying to process my words, "Everything around you is so finished, so polished. Every story is already decided."

"That's the job," he says confused, "but you don't need to be like me."

"Hud, I'm loud, I'm messy," I struggle to hold back a sob, "I show up to places with chipped nail polish and lyrics written on stolen napkins."

"That's what I love about you and Y/N I'm not asking for you to change."

"I know," I snap. I take a deep breath before continuing," but someone will. I see the rooms you exist in and I'm too much. Too loud, too unfiltered..."

There's an immposisble stretch of silence. I hear shuffling on the other end of the line and then a door quietly click close. Below me, late night NYC traffic continues its noisy musical, "I wish you'd told me."

"I didn't want to sound ungrateful."

"For what?"

"For not feeling like your love is enough."

Hudson lets a shakey breath slip, "so what are you saying? Are you breaking up with me?"

"I have no choice."

"What about us?"

The words get stuck in my throat and my tears freely fall now. Come on L/N, "I love you. We love each other. That doesn't fix incompatible lives. I need to get back to me."

"I need you," he chokes through sobs. I don't move to say anything, I don't even know what to say. Hudson starts again, "so this is it?"

"For now at least," I offer.

"Goodbye."

"Bye."

~~

It's been hours since our phone call ended. Half an hour ago I got a text from Hudson, just a small "you still have your drawer." It broke my heart to see him still care, still want me. It broke my heart even more to know I still cared too.

As the night ticked by into early morning, a page of my notebook filled up:

"...And dow the road, you will love me until you resent me... what if I'm not worth the time and breat I know you're saving... I hate to look at your face and know that we're feeling different... and part of me wants you back, but I know it won't work like that..."

It's all a mess that kind of resembles a song, if you really squint. I fill in a few in betweens, but it all feels empty without a bridge. I sigh and lean against the side of my bed. Around the room, I can see him. His shirt draped over my chair, a chunk of my closet filled with clothes that aren't mine, and what hurts the most are 2 pairs of matching sneakers. His larger ones propped up against mine. I think back to Hudson's place, I'm pretty sure I left even more. Hundreds of more ways to trace back to me. My guitar and my heart grow into one, and suddenly I've bleed out:

"I'll open up / I'm thinking everything you wish I wasn't / The call was tough / But you're better off, I'm being honest / So you won't stop / Holding out for me when I don't want it?/ Just brush me off / Cause I'm your ghost right now, your house is haunted"

Off to the side of thr page I scribble, "u know it won't work", before crawling into bed and crying until the sun rises.

"I was thinking I could fly to your hotel tonight"

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The hotel lobby is all polished stone and glass, it all feels too clean, too relfective. All of the sudden, my worn converse and wrinkled clothes feel out of place. A ding from room catched my attention and out of the elevator walks Hudson, his hair has grown out and he looks broader.

He looks up and we hold eachother's gaze, and just like our first date we became just Y/N and Hudson. I almost chuckle at the absudity of it all, he made me feel less out of place with just a look.

"Hey," he whispers stepping forward. Hudson stops abruptly, not assuming acess and that restrait almost breaks me, "you're really here."

"I am," the lobby around us hums. Mummurs of English, Japanese, and other languages float around us, the instramental music plays from the speakers, and luggages wheels scrap against the floor.

"You ready to," Hudson gestures back to the elevator, I nod and allow him to lead me to his room. When we get there, he holds the door open for me, just like he always did.

And in just a few minutes, its over. Our first moment is over and I don't feel fireworks but a calm sense of hope.

~~

Several hours and a delicous dinner later, Hudson and I are walking along the glowing streets of Kyoto, it was the perfect night. We were able to catch up, filling the space between us with stories about tour and his project.

"As much as I hoped, part of me thought I'd never see you like this again," he confesses.

"I didn't either, but I finally stopped running."

"From me?"

"From me," i take a deep breath in, "I didn't immedatly click with your world. So instead, I decided I needed to change myself, and when that didn't work I let my insecruties get the better of me and bailed. Hudson, I'm so sorry."

"You never had to do that," that understnading hurts worse than if he'd just yell at me.

"I messed up after we broke up."

Hudson chuckles, "I know. You're not subtle."

My cheeks warmed up and I looked down in embarrassment, "I thought what I wanted was unpolished, but I really just wanted something that I didn't need to try for."

"And now?"

"I want something real. Something hard. Something that involves you."

Hudson instictivly reaches for my hand but stops halfway. My hand shoots out to grab his, "I'll meet you wherever you are."

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Time Skip— Y/N is back in Minnesota

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thegirls_podcast on today’s episode we’re excited to feature Y/N L/N, defensemen of our very own Minnesota Frost! She talked PWHL v NHL, funny childhood memories, and what’s it’s like to be married to another professional defensemen:

“I wouldn’t trade my life or my marriage for anything despite its challenges… the biggest one is adjusting to my trade last season. Even after settling down [in Minnesota] and playing more games than I can count I still don’t feel at home. The franchise, the fans, and my teammates have made me feel so welcomed and loved, this city is amazing, I couldn’t ask for more. But when I go back to my apartment I can’t help but feel displaced because I know my home is in Vancouver, my home is Quinn.”

Click the link in our bio or search The Girls Podcast on your streaming service to listen to the whole episode!

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Time Skip- December 12, 2025

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Canucks Thank you, Quinn, for the leadership, heart, and unforgettable moments.

From the first shift to the captain's "C," you left an indelible mark on the Vancouver Canucks and our fans.

Wishing you nothing but success in Minnesota.

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user3 ummmm hello

User4 I’m not prepared to be a Minnesota fan

User5 soooo what abt my Hughes bow tickets?!?!

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Intsgram—

yn_lnhughes

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yn_lnhughes SANTA CAN SKIP THIS HOUSE IVE ALREADY GOTTEN MY BIGGEST WISH!!! Quinn I’m so so proud of all you’ve accomplished with the Canucks and I know you will be greatly missed, but I am even more excited to welcome you home! I love you 🤍

P.S. I’ve already cleared out half of the closet for you

tagged: _quinnhughes, brittybrittybangbang

_quinnhughes I can’t wait for this new adventure by your side 🤍

yn_lnhughes it’ll be the best one yet!

brittybrittybangbang honored to have been with you for the news!

Yn_lnhughes get a linemate who will freak out with you!! Also we need to get together and have a double date soon!!

brittybrittybangbang yes!!

Ellenhughes my heart is to happy!!

jackhughes the green is better but I still think you look best in red

yn_lnhughes in your dreams

user1 best wife ever

user2 Y/N has been PRAYING for this day

user3 I know Y/N is happy to finally wear all her Wild merch in public

yn_lnhughes trust I am! I’ve accumulated so much lol

user3 SHE RESPONDED

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Time Skip-- Quinn arrives in Minnesota

_quinnhughes posted a story!

caption: Reunited 🤍 | 🎵 I'll Be Home For Christmas by Bing Crosby

replies:

Yn_lnhughes

Home. With me. Forever.

I love you babe, I’m glad fate brought us back together

Me too baby

_quinnhughes

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_quinnhughes cheers to a new home!

tagged: minnesotawild

minnestoawild glad to have you Quinn 😁

jackhughes get em sniper!!

lhughes_06 gonna be great!

yn_lnhughes love you the most!!

user1 ughhhhh he looks amazing in green

yn_lnhughes ikr 😝

user2 LMAO

user3 Wild is on the up I can feel it!!

user4 welp hey Minnesota fans! I’m new here!

user5 welcome!!

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yn_lnhughes posted a story!

caption: does anyone know if the new guy is single or not??

replies:

_quinnhughes

Unfortunately he’s head over heels for this amazing girl

Oh? Darn.

Yeah

I’ve heard there no competition either- she’s far to funny, sweet, pretty, and damn good at hockey

ynln posted two stories!

caption: (1) sending bear off :( have a great shoot 🇯🇵 (2)a little night out

replies:

mayahawke

hope you enjoy the show 😉

so far so good !!

user1

bf reveal when??

user2

omg thats DJO!! I saw you there!!

djotime

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djotime just played a venue so small I could hear people breathing

tagged: no one

adamruzek hitting all kinds of stops of djour

djotime you know it!!

charlieheaton looking good man!

djotime 🙏🙏🙏

user1 dream come true

user2 ugh how can one man looks so fine

user3 he needs to be studied

user4 he was EXTRA slutty tn too 👀

user5 special someone in the crowd maybe...

user6 did anyone else notice Y/N L/N was there tn...

user7 no shot

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yn_spotted

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yn_spotted tonight Y/N has been spotted at DJO's (also knowns as Joe Keery) concert and at dinner with the musican after

tagged: ynln, djotime

user1 oh!

user2 very intimate dinner there...

user3 dont be dramatic she has a bf

user4 maybe she has one but she sure doesnt look like she does

user3 heaven forbid she wants to support/make friends with another artist y'all are so dramatic 🙄

user5 im starting a rumor

user6 yk how we were all obbessed with him and Sabrina a couple weeks ago?? Scratch that

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ynln

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ynln always an adventure in the city that I love!

tagged: no one

finneas thank you for the invite to the show! Hope you didnt have too mcuh fun after...

ynln 🤫

user7 hello??

margretqualey can't wait to see you!!

ynln very soon my love 💋

gracieabrams stunning as always!!

ynln 🤭🤭🤭

user1 soooo thats not Y/N's jacket in the second pic

user2 you're insane

user3 no they're into something- she's never owned/worn a leather jacket that oversized before

user1 also it looks vaguely familair to the one Joe was wearing in his concert post and then was not seen with later on-- soooo are we thinking that pic was from the same night and not the days following??

user4 if so then he most likely took that photo and she is cheesing hard... does this mean bear is out??

user6 peep joe in the likes aswell

user5 Y/N is in the studio once again!!!

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djotime posted a story!

caption: none

replies:

ynln

🧐

gatenmatarazzo

mate...

user1

soooo Y/N huh???

user2

are these lyrics???

user3

ugh please bring back messy love ballads

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Time Skip-- a couple weeks

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Instagram--

ynln

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ynln do i really have to chart the constellations in his eyes?

tagged: no one

jackantonoff I smell more studio time...

ynln sending out the Jack signal (pls respond)

finneas let me get in on this one too

ynln deal

user5 with these three this record is going to be laced with crack

user1 whos eyes?? Bear?? Joe?? Y/N WE NEED ANSWERS

user2 bffr she doesnt owe you anything

user3 well if shes going to post it all then she cant be surpised when ppl ask

user4 i know those are lyrics and i needed the song like yesterday

user6 ugh shes so gorgeous

user7 right?? you are a special type of hot to look stunning in straight and curly hair

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djotime posted a story!

caption: "crawlin back to you" <3

replies:

ynln

stealing my lyrics are we now??

call it muse privileged

plus you can't say no to me

whatever you say Keery

user1

ummmm more lyrics? But in quotes so are those Y/N lyrics??

user2

think I wouldnt notice that thats Y/N?? I'm on to you Joe, i know bass

yn_spotted

liked by user5, user39, user92, and 289,390 others

yn_spotted what is going on in the House of Commons?!?! Y/N covered "Figure You Out" by DJO at her fan soundcheck experance while the man himself was in the audience! At the same show she debuted unreleased songs titled "High Infidelity" and "Do I Wanna Know"

tagged: ynln, djotime

user1 oh lordy its happening

user2 i wanted this but at what cost

user3 anyone else feeling pretty bad for bear right about now...

user4 nah these two are much hotter and more entertaining

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Instagram--

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ynln tour how I'll miss you!!

tagged: no one

phoebebridgers 🤍🤍🤍

finneas come back the studio misses you!!

ynln good bc I've got ideas on a couple of those tracks you played me

gracieabrams brunch soon??

ynln yes ma'am

user1 sooo thats Joe right??

user2 it has to be after all the other clues

user3 its thr still not tagging eachother for me

user4 they're so toxic and I'm addicted

user7 they're gettting bolder with their pics at least

user5 best tour of my life!!!

user6 and Y/N serves looks time and time again!!

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djotime

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djotime alexa play somebody else by the 1975

tagged: no one

gatenmatarazzo 👀

mayahawk 👀

user1 spill rn guys

charlieheaton room with a view??

djotime you could say that

user1 def Y/N?

user2 def Y/N.

user3 y'all please listen to the lyrics of somebody else and freak out with me

user4 oh he's jealous

user5 maybe this is the push they need to make it offical??

user6 maybe but i think they both doomed this from the beggining...

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Time Skip-- two months later

yn_spotted

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yn_spotted after their messy arugment last week, our favorite situationship is back! I'm pretty hopefull it will stick this time and maybe we'll even see them attatch a label!

tagged: ynln, djotime

user1 and not even half an hour after this was posted new papp photos released of them fighting again and on the phone crying to someone

user2 we can never have nice things can we??

user3 can we please bring back the bear era of soft posts, happy Y/N, and sappy love songs

user4 girl gtfo with that boring ass energy

user5 lmao i love how the fandom is so divided on this issue

user6 no fr like half wants stable Y/N back and the other half wants to watch her burn every bridge ever

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finneas

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finneas chilled, started a band, and produced for my fav girl!

tagged: wearethefavors, ynln

wearethefavors 💛

ynln you're the best Finn!!!

finneas i know i know 🙄

billieelish Y/N my love!!

ynln mwah 💋

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yn_spotted

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yn_spotted Y/N has been spotted in Japan! After these months could she be reuniting with her mystery man bear?

tagged: ynln

user1 ummm what

user2 im actually so lost on her plot rn

user3 whoever is writing her romance story please stay tf away from mine

user4 bear if you're there please take her back the kids all miss you

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ynln

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ynln do you got plans tn 🧸

tagged: hudsonwilliams

hudsonwilliams glad to be back baby 🤍

ynln glad to be taken back 🤍

jackatanoff all is right in the world?

ynln all is right 🙂‍↕️

user1 BEAR IS HUDSON FREAKING WILLIAMS?!?!?!

user2 LIKE THE STAR OF HEATED RIVALRY?? Y/N why have you kept him hidden for so long??

user3 my bisexual ass has been simping over thier relationship without realizing it for months

user4 goodbye messy Y/N

user5 it was fun to while you lasted

user6 what i wouldnt pay to be a fly on the wall...

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Time Skip-- a couple of weeks

ynln

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ynln UNSTARTED / UNFINISHED out Friday!

tagged: no one

hudsonwilliams i love you 🤍

ynln i love you too 🤍

finneas wonderful work!

gracieabrams i can't wait to hear it!!

pheobebridgers you're amazing!

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djotime

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djotime out now!

tagged: no one

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Sex The 1975

Figure You Out DJO

Do I Wanna Know? Arctic Monkeys

High Infidelity Taylor Swift

Motion Sickness Pheobe Bridgers

Lost in Japan Shawn Mendez

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Instagram—

ynln

liked by Sabrinacarpenter, djotime, user91, and 828,929 others

ynln Happy 1st "Year of Motion"

tagged: no one

Sabrinacarpenter I’m so so proud of you!! Yellow is SO your color bbg

Ynln goodbye 😭 I love you too sab!!!

Taylorswift all the hype is so deserved— glitter pen albums for the win!!

Ynln thank you tay 🫶

harrystyles record went platinum in my house!!

Ynln it better have 😒

user1 lmao not him coming out of hiding to celebrate Y/N

user2 well it’s his child ofc he did!!

user3 Sabrina being a Taylor child and Y/N being a Harry child is so iconic to me

user4 literally the only album ever

user5 no fr it RUINED my Spotify wrapped this year

user6 I’m so sad for this era to be over but also so ready to see what’s next

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sabrinacarpenter

liked by ynln, conangrey, user93, and 891,928 others

sabrinacarpenter I am so so proud of my bestie! A year ago you dropped a killer album that has not stopped growing! I love you so much 💛💛💛

tagged: ynln

Ynln thank you bestie!! I owe all my best ideas to you!!

Sabrinacarpenter always too humble!

Conangray you’re a star @/ynln

Taylorswift 💛💛💛

user1 ugh bff goals!!

user2 if it’s not what Y/N and Sabrina have then I don’t want it!!

user3 anyone else find it adorable that Sabrina matched the album aesthetic??

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sabrinacarpenter posted a story!

caption: @/ynln

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Ynln

Let her cook ‼️

Let. Her. Cook.

user1

Omg new Y/N era?!?!

User2

Screaming crying throwing up

User3

Who’s releasing a new song???

ynln posted a story!

caption: @/sabrinacarpenter

Replies:

User1

Oh so you’re def teasing something

User2

Y/N WHAT DO YOU KNOW

Sabrina_updates

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Sabrina_updates Sabrina seen holding hands with Barry Keoghan

tagged: no one

user1 a hot new bombshell has entered the villa??

user2 “hot” bffr

user3 ok short king and queen

user4 the way he looks at her is kinda sweet!

user5 anyone else think this is gonna last

user6 my bets are on no

user7 I wanna know what bestie Y/N thinks!!

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twitter reacts to dating rumors— Y/N quite saying she knew him from dunkrik and is a fan, he seems nice- Yn seems off

sabrinacarpenter

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sabrinacarpenter "Expresso" out this Friday ☕️

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Ynln I’m so ready for the world to hear this one!!

Sabrinacarpenter my fav producer ever!! I couldn’t have done it without you

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ynln

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ynln "I'm working late cause I'm a singer" 5.17.24

tagged: sabrinacarpenter

Sabrinacarpenter 🤫🤫🤫

Ynln 🤐🤐🤐

User1 WHAT DOES THIS MEAN?????

djotime I found them! I found two pretty best friends

Ynln stawppp 😝

Haleywilliams I smell a hit!!

user1 I’m soooooo sat

user2 based on the caption I know the lyrics are gonna be so fun!!

user3 I need a friend who supports me as much as loud and as much as Y/N and Sabrina!!

user4 so am I crazy or is that last photo gfs coded

user5 bffr Sabrina has a bf

User6 no no I’m following @/user4 something is brewing

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sabrinacarpenter

liked by ynln, Taylorswift, conangray, and 819,828 others

sabrinacarpenter since y'all treated "Expresso" so well I've got another present, "Please, Please, Please" single + mv out now!!!

tagged keoghan92, ynln

Sabrinacarpenter she’s a singer, she’s a producer, she’s a director, ladies and gentlemen @/ynln

Taylorswift giving me a run for my money!!

Ynln you guys make me blush

keoghan92 ❤️

Sabrinacarpenter ❤️

user1 ahhh this is iconic

user2 oh to drop the song of the summer and have a rumored (now confirmed) bf play the main character in the mv

user3 Sabrina the Queen you are!!

user6 having Barry Star in the mv that’s about him is iconic

user4 I hope this doesn’t age poorly

user5 me too

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yn_updates

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yn_updates Y/n and Sabrina were spotted on a vacation together!!

tagged: ynln, Sabrinacarpenter

user1 ahhh gorgeous

user2 annual bestie trip annual bestie trip annual bestie trip

user3 they are GLOWING!!!

user4 I’m sorry but this is so gay

user5 they’ve done this for years dude

user4 and I fear it’s been so gay for years

User6 I refuse to believe not one of Y/N’s yearning songs haven’t been about Sabrina

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tmz

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tmz Y/n L/n seen crying after her and best friend, Sabrina Carpenter, were seen having a serious conversation at dinner! Click link in our brio to read more

tagged no one

user1 this is so invasive to photograph much less post too!!

user2 right? It’s disgusting and she’s a real person

user3 oh no!! I hope everything is alright

user4 right?? They’d fought sure but NEVER this bad

user5 rumor has it Sabrina even left their trip early

user6 please out iconic duo not be over

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Time Skip- a few weeks

yn_updates

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yn_updates Y/n was seen on a date!

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user1 ummm hello??

user2 not Y/N casually pulling Sebastian Stan??

user3 i thought she was a lesbian?

user4 she’s queer!!

user5 Y/N has spoken briefly about not being straight but not putting a label on it! She’s also learned having a strong preference for girls but who wouldn’t go on a date with Sebastian Stan

user6 so no more Sab-Y/N ships— they’re really over

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ynln

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ynln I like to slam doors closed

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ynln

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ynln 2.3.25

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harrystyles I cannot wait to listen to the full thing! This one is special

Taylorswift living for the aesthetics

djotime already pre-ordered!

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Time Skip— a couple of weeks

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ynln

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ynln we'll never go out of style ;)

tagged: no one

djotime I need answers RIGHT NOW

harrystyles agreed Y/N pick up the phone

user4 never thoughts I’d see these two interact but leave it to Y/N’s soft launch to make even the craziest things happen

user1 drop the song now.

user2 lmao the way we all know those are lyrics

user3 WHO???

user4 I must knowwwwwwww

user5 we had our sapphic sad era and I’m so ready for our sapphic love era

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Mentioned songs:

Espresso by Sabrina Carpenter

Please, Please Please by Sabrina Carpenter

Good Luck, Babe! by Chappel Roan

I Love You, I'm Sorry by Gracie Abrams

Red Wine Supernova by Chappel Roan

Super Graphic Ultra Modern Girl by Chappel Roan

Down Bad by Taylor Swift

Slim Pickins by Sabrina Carpenter

2025, Nolan's first full year

Long Beach

Instagram--

ynln Location: Long Beach, California

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ynln I'm gonna miss this :( but I've had a blast meeting all you racing fans, cheering on @/arrowmclaren, and loving you Nol 🤍

time to get back to doing my job ig 🙄

tagged: arrowmclaren, nolansiegel, elbaoward

arrowmclaren we're going to miss you!! Write some new jams for our pre-race playlist 🔥🎧🏎️

ynln on it admin 😉💖

nolansiegel we're gonna pretend this dress didn't distract me mid-tyre change...

patriciooward Nolan getting spicy on main 👀

ynln you're mother follows me please behave

nolansiegel says the girl who wrote "Dress"

ynln -oop

nolansiegel cause we just hit pause for second 😕

ynln sure Nol 🫶

elbaoward I'm gonna miss you girlie!! Live your best life in NYC and come back to the paddock soon!! ❤️‍🔥💋

ynln hurting back asap!! Love you elbie ☺️😘

user5 their friendship is everything to me

user1 body so tea I almost threw my phone into the harbor

user2 holy arm

user3 YN woke up today and decided to flex her man

user4 she knows he's fine, she knows we know he's fine, she's keeping us fed 😌

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IRL, Y/N's POV--

Light chatter and the clinking of silverware surrounded our table like a blanket. Nolan took me out to a fancy and intimate dinner before I headed home to New York City. I've never felt more safe or loved; Nolan's brown eyes were warm and comforting in the candle light, and his hair sat perfectly tousled.

"Will you ever learn to twirl spaghetti properly," I chuckle as he struggles. Between his laughter, I watch him barely pick up his own pasta.

"Listen, I get paid to drive not eat," he joke back.

"You'll make us laughing stocks next time I tour in Italy," from my joke, the impeding dread thats followed us settles over the table; unspoken words and hidden feelings thickened the air between us. I sensed it and Nolan did too.

Through the quiet, Nolan reached out and held my hand on top of the table. His rough hand covered mine and he rubbed this thumb softly across the back of my hand. He broke the silence, "you're assuming I'll still have you by my side."

"Yeah" I sigh out, "this is the first time we've really breathed in weeks." Nolan slowly nods, he knows exactly what I mean; these past weeks have been wonderful, but not perfect. Both of our careers were getting to big for us. It started small, I caught him googling recording studios near his home, I offered he spend off season in NYC; little things, asking the other to give up a piece of their normalcy, both stressed that without the other one near everything would come crumbling down. The stress of our growing careers pushed us into arguments. We both had an unspoken agreement to move on and push that conversation down. We still haven't spoken, even though I got the call from my manager to return to NYC to work on future albums, tours, ect. I leave in a few hours and we are finally coming to terms with it, "I don’t want to be what you have to choose instead of your career, and I don’t want you to be what I have to choose for mine."

"You've never held me back, not once," he smiles still rubbing my hand. Slowly, I turn it palm up and hold his back, "I’ve been telling myself we just needed more time, just a few more races. But I think we’re both just trying not to lose each other while we chase everything else."

"We can't keep holding on to a version of us that we don't have time for," I say. Nolans eyes snap down from mine. Neither of us are surprised I said it. Even as he weighs the words, Nolan doesn't look shocked. My statement sits heavily between us, accompanied by all the FaceTime calls, last minute trips, and every other energy draining solution to long distance. The constant give and take worn us thin, "if we'd met three years earlier..."

"We'd be unstoppable," he says, looking back up at me. Three years ago, the time before IndyCar and my breakthrough album.

"There would probably be an apartment with a dog in London..."

"And you'd steal my hoodies..."

"Which you would pretend to hate me for doing," we both laugh weakly.

"I'm always going to root for you," Nolan says honestly. My throat tightens at the sincerity of his words.

"Same," I answer from the heart,"from a distance now."

...

The rest of the night ticked by in a surreal bubble. We were mourning each other while laying in the same bed. My head rested on Nolan's chest, his warmth radiating through my body. It was dark in the room, but we both knew the other was awake. Nolan turns towards me slightly and his hand comes up to brush my cheek, "you're not going to forget me right?"

"Never," I said with my voice cracking, "you were my favorite chapter."

He leans down and kisses me on the head, through the quiet I barely heard his response, "you were my whole book." Neither of us slept, we stayed tangle with one another, holding on as we fell apart until my alarm went off and the plane swept me back to the big city, alone.

Time Skip-- Detroit GP

Instagram--

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nolansiegel thats my very first podium finish! Thank you so much to everyone who helped me and cheered me on!

tagged: arrowclaren

arrowmclaren 🏆🤩

patricioowrd congrats Nolan!!

alexanderrossi first of many 👏👏👏

user1 yay Nolan!! So proud!!

user2 where's YN??

user3 thats what I'm saying... she's been radio silent all day

user4 she's always the first to celebrate and comment on Nolan's wins!

user5 im worried, Nolan gets his first podium and we get no YN like, comment, or post???

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IRL, Nolan's POV--

Champagne soaked my hair and dripped into my race suit as I was whisked around post-podium. It was my first podium ever, and everyone wanted a comment. The social media officer at McLaren guided him to the Fox interviewer before stepping out of frame, "Nolan, P3, and your first IndyCar podium. Incredible drive, what does this mean to you?"

I tried, i really did. I was able to manage a small smile, but my answer still came off as way to composed, "It means a lot. The team’s been working hard all season, and this is a reward for that. Everyone in the garage deserves it."

"Walk us through that final stint, how did you stay so calm and bring this thing home?" The interviewer was thrown off by my tone and was desperately fighting to bring the energy up. Part of me felt bad, they didn't ask for my mood, but the greater part of me was too numb to care. I imagined this moment many times before, but I always imagined it with her. She isn't here to celebrate with, she isn't going to call later, and there is no text from her waiting on my phone.

"I just stayed in the car, listened to my spotter, and focused on keeping a consistent lap time," I shrug, "that final stint was not the time to make any risky moves."

"You've had a different energy all weekend, very business first, play later. Has that new mentality helped you push to P3 today?" I paused, for much too long, "Nolan?"

"Yeah sorry," I chuckle weakly, "just focusing on racing."

"Ok! Finally, what do you have to say to the fans who have supported you all the way to this moment?"

"Thanks for sticking with me. Hope they stick around. There’s more to come," I nod before walking away. I needed to be alone, all these eyes, they were too much.

What I will later find out, but be too tired to care, is my pathetic interview was aired live on Fox Sports, and send off a panic amongst fans. All wondering if I'm ok, and missing YN's presence in the paddock.

Instagram--

ynln

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ynln praying this one never ends 🤍

tagged: sza

sza I love you girl!!

taylorswift she's home!! 🌇

sarahjessicaparker lunch date?? I need to catch up with my city daughter 💋

ynln sending you my schedule rn!!

user1 8th street? As in the street Electric Lady Studios is on??

user2 mother is cooking!!!

user3 maybe this is why she didn't celebrate Nolan...?

user4 maybe, im sure they've been talking privately

user5 I found two pretty bestfriends

user6 ok aesthetic!!

user7 the third photo? So true bestie

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ynln posted 2 stories!

captions: (1) 📍Electric Lady Studios (2) 🎵 20 Something by SZA

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taylorswift

lovely session today! Sending all the love 💖

than you Taylor! You are the best!!

user1

👩‍🍳🎤

user2

two weeks ago I would've been so excited, but with the silence between you and Nolan I'm a bit nervous

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ynln

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ynln my new single "Two People" is out now!!

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taylorswift ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

pheobebridgers beautiful piece, sending love bby!!

tatemcrea you are so inspiring 🫶

user1 ummm ouch????

user2 I knew before I listened to the song that I wouldn't survive, what YN wrote in this post alone killed me

user3 "Don't know what to say, two people can change / don't think we're above, might happen to us" did this ho just shoot me???

user4 "I've loved you so hard for a time" wydm its over YN? It's not over? You literally still love him? Right?

user6 "hate how we touched just to push things aside" YN NOLAN EXPLAIN RIGHT NOW!!!

user5 this song is causing the internet crash out of a century

user7 guys... Nolan has unfollowed YN...

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Time Skip-- Road America GP

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Indycar a moment for some familiar faces on the grid today!! Thank you all for joining us for qualifying today!!

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IRL, Y/N POV--

A laugh I knew all to well rang through the paddock, it was quickly followed by Pato's cheery voice, “thank you McLaren fans for all your support! We cannot wait to race for you tomorrow!” My head snapped up from my phone so quickly I thought I may get whiplash. I knew this was a bad idea. My management team jumped at the opportunity to be a celebrity guest with IndyCar, alongside a fellow songwriter. I was assured everything would be ok and I wouldn’t run into Nolan, or any of the papaya boys. For a while I thought I was fine; apart from an awkward run in with enlarged photo of him courtesy of McLaren Hospitality, I had survived all my duties and was free to go back to the hotel and wallow in my sorrows. Well, until now.

A couple yards ahead of me stood Christian, Pato, and Nolan, all still dressed in their race gear making a video with the social media manager. Great, fantastic, perfect. I took a deep breath, and made a beeline for the furthest wall to avoid the group and blend in with the few clusters of people hanging around. Just as I got to the edge of enemy territory, I hear my name called from behind me. He called my name. The one who’d become a stranger whose laugh I could recognize anywhere.

“YN,” he says once more, when he’s caught up. I’m frozen in my spot and everything else slows down. I stare into those eyes I’ve called, no call, home. He looked back like I was a precious piece of treasure, like he’s struck gold. Against what my brain was screaming at me, I smiled. He have a nervous smile back and I could practically see him shaking, “you’re here?”

“Some publicity nightmare,” I roll my eyes, trying to ease the tension.

“Been there,” the comments before going silent again, just looking at me. I can see it, his mind racing, him internally wrestling his words, and his first clenching the air like he wants to grab on before I disappear.

“Hey,” I say softly fighting the urge to grab his hand, “I’m here, and I don’t plan on running away. What’s on your mind?”

He visibly relaxes before looking around at all the people still lingering on this side of pit lane, “come with me?”

“Always,” he takes ahold of my hand and walks me between two pit boxes. We settle on the wall, sitting too close to be proper exes. Before he can say anything, I reach out and give him a gentle hug. He reciprocates it, and we both melt into one another. Like we exhaled at the same time, “that’s the first time I’ve been able to breathe since I left.”

We break apart, but stay connected by our hands. Nolan begins to fiddle with my fingers, a habit he picked up within 2 weeks of dating, “I’ve thought about calling every time something big happened: podium, new sponsor, new lap time, hearing your songs on the radio. Hell I wanted to text you when I finally got new dress pants. But I kept telling myself I wouldn’t be the noise in your new quiet.”

“Nol, you were never the noise. I’m sick of pretending what I have now isn’t louder than what I had when I was with you. I miss you more than anything, when something good or bad happens. I don’t know how to miss you without wanting to come back.”

“What if we did come back,” he proposes, anxiety not letting him look me in the eye. I stare at him processing, I’ve imagined this conversation a thousand times the past couple of months; everytime I shut it down. I let my friends tell me it’s done, I told myself it’s done, I wrote a song to say goodbye. But here he is, holding me, saying those golden words. In my silence, Nolan assumed rejection, “but I understand. Constantly displaced and moving back and forth sucks. It tore us apart, and I don’t want to hurt you ever again.”

He rips himself away from me, like if he stayed for a second longer, he’d get burned. I quickly stand up and grab his hands once more, “I want to come back, just different.”

“Different?”

“Different. We aren’t the same people who fell in love all the time ago, hell I wrote a whole song about how we changed. But Nolan, just because we’re not those people anymore doesn’t mean we’re not still us. The truth is I never stopped loving you. Not when we ended it, not when I stopped messaging, not when I unfollowed you, not ever.”

“I didn’t either,” he looks up from the ground and makes eye contact again. I can see him search for regret in my eyes, any sigh I’m lying to him. When he finds none, he starts slowly, “let’s come back, and let’s be real. No more disappearing into one another. “

“No disappearing,” I repeat, “just showing up.” He smiles down at me, before wrapping me up in a hug that says everything, our own binding contract.

“This maybe too soon, you can say no but Pato planned an exclusive dinner for us and some of the WAGS tonight. They’ve all missed you, almost as much as me,” he proposes.

“Oh I don’t want to intrude, it’s already 4 I’m not going to make them find an extra seat.”

“Yeah about that,” he looks at me sheepishly and scratches the back of his head, “you’ve had a seat at every table these past few months. It became the purse seat, but only because you weren’t there.”

I smile, “then, count me in.”

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Is that YN and Nolan I see giggling in the back??

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Pato you just broke YNNolan twitter…

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To: Nols 👀

Hey! I just landed in NYC

Good, thank you telling me!

I can't wait to see you again, this weekend has felt like a fairytale

I agree Nol!!

I have a meeting with my manager on Thursday, I'm gonna see if race weekends are still open

Good, ive miss you being in my pit box

I always feel better when you are there

Anyways, it's late and you're prob exhausted from traveling. Good night gorgeous 🤍

Good night Nolan 🤍

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IRL, Y/N POV--

Cars and conversations from the street below floated up into my apartment through the open window, making me smile. It was a hot summers day in the city, but my A/C unit made it all bearable. My ringtone broke me away from my book, and I looked down to see Nol 👀 lighting up the screen. I smile before flopping on my bed, "well hello there pretty boy!"

"Nice hat..." he teased, "it looks familiar but I can't seem to put my finger on it."

"Ok now, I've missed wearing it! I don't know what Mclaren did when they made this hat, but it was nothing short of magical! It's my favorite hat ever!" I explain rolling on my back.

"Your favorite hate ever?"

"Duh! It fits like a dream, simple yet fun, very flattering, and of course represents someone very special to me..."

"A very special someone, mh??" he replied with a playful tone lacing his voice.

"Yup!" I exclaim popping the 'p', "a very, very special someone, who I'm missing very much."

I hear Nolan chuckle on the other end of the line, "thats something I wanted to ask about, the team gave us next week off before we continue to prepare for the next race! Now, I know you're super busy in NYC but how would you feel if I got a hotel and we just hung out a bit?"

"Wait are you serious?" I shot up, "Nolan I would love for you to come to NYC!! And don't worry about a hotel, you can crash at my place if thats ok with you!"

"If you're ok with it, I'd love to stay at yours! Thank you! I have to go in a second, last minute engineering meeting but I'll text you details once I book the flight, ok?"

"Ok! I can't wait! I've missed you a lot Nol."

"I've missed you a lot too, sweet girl. Talk to you soon, bye!"

"Bye-bye!" I sit there for several minutes after I hung up the phone, smiling to myself and making a mental checklist of the chores needed to be done before Nolan flys in.

Time Skip-- Nolan in NYC

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you are my favorite couple ever!

Aww stop!! I could say the same about you and Brett!!!

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you are an icon

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too cute!!

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are those not the glasses YN posted in earlier???

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not even to ruin the soft launch, but I need to see her full fit asap

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nolansiegel 10/10 pizza

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arrowmclaren enjoying off week?

nolansigel you bet!

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nolansigel bomb tasting too

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user1 PATO WHAT DO YOU KNOW!!!!

Sophia.seigel traveling man!!

nolansiegel ✈️🥸

user1 soooo thats def YN right?

user2 im almost certain that is

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Time Skip-- some race

Twitter--

IRL, Nolan POV--

The media tent was in full swing by the time I made my way to the brunette reporter. She worked for a smaller company that focused on sports journalism. I smiled and stepped closer so we could hear one another over the noise of the tent. "Welcome Nolan! How are you doing today?" She asked. I always love the new reporters, they are always so chipper and happy.

"I'm doing great! How are you?" I reply.

"I'm lovely! Today's quali pace was incredible and you ended up in P4! How are you feeling about that?"

"I'm super excited about that! The team for the number 6 car has been non stop this past season, and I'm honored to get to drive for them. It's super special to qualify so high, I have some special company," I try and fail to hide the blush creeping onto my cheeks, "I love to give her a show."

"Thats amazing Nolan," the reporter says genuinely, "best wishes with the race tomorrow!"

"Thank you!" I head off to complete the rest of my media obligations, completing interview after interview that are all far cries from my earlier Fox Sports report.

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YNNolan!!!

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YNNolan twitter is thriving for another day!

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thank you Elba for keeping us fed!

Time Skip-- A Few Days

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ynln "Hits Different" is yours!! Enjoy a breakup song for a couple who's together again!!

My muse, my other half, my Nol- I love you 🤍

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taylorswift on repeat, all day, everyday

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20 Something by SZA

Two People by Gracie Abrams

Hits Different by Taylor Swift

"I find the artifacts, cried over a hat / Cursed the space that I needed" Nolan Siegel x Singer!Reader, SMAU, inspired by "Hits Different" by Taylor Swift

"(No Name Yet)" Louis Foster x Armstrong!Reader, written fic, takes place during the tornado warning in Iowa this year

"I had this dream where everything crashes / And I start to wonder when it'll happen" David Malukas x F1 Driver!Reader, SMAU, part two to my other David fic that was inspired by "Sally, When the Wine Runs Out" by Role Model

"(No Name Yet)" Callum Ilott x Singer!Reader, SMAU and written fic, inspired by Taylor Swift's album "Reputation"

"(No Name Yet)" Ollie Bearman x Piastri!Reader, SMAU, inspired by "Down Under" by Men at Work

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ynln sir, yes sir 🫡

User7 Ariana what are you doing here?!?!

user1 Brittany?? What are you doing here???

user2 if this is a collab, it will be my roman empire

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IKR Filming--

It was a little warm in the small studio, especially because of the heavy lighting and costume velvet surrounding me; however, I could not be more excited. It was summer break, and the first thing I did was get on a flight and explore LA with my dear friend Brittany Broski. I've been a long term fan of hers and somewhere along the way, through a string of comments and shared fans, we began an online friendship. She invited me to be on her show, Royal Court, and I jumped at the chance. That brought me here, inside the studio, sun kissed by the California sun, and decked out in a crown and cloak. I smiled at Brittany as she spoke, "Welcome to Royal Court! The show where pop culture royalty compete for a spot on my trusted council. Today I am joined by most feared jouster, please welcome Lady YN LN!"

The room filled with gently applause as I strutted onto set! I used my arms to make the cloak flow in the "wind." This earned a laugh and bigger applause from Brittany. Before taking a seat, I dramatically bowed to her, "your highness! Its an honor to be in your presents."

"My liege! How was your journey?" she jokes.

"Dragons these days, they just seem to be getting smaller and smaller! But the carriage ride was simple lovely!"

"Ahhh yes, I'll make a note to beef them up in the realm," we laugh amongst each other and I reach over to grab her hand. She held it back in a smaller welcome before shuffling the aged paper in her hands, "Lady YN, are you ready for the trials set before you today?"

"I want to say yes, but with you I never know!"

"Watch your tongue madame, or I'll have you thrown in the dungeon!" She sends me a pointed look before chucking and continuing on, "Without further ado, let the trials begin!"

Brittany clapped twice and I braced myself, first the main lights went off and then two direct spot lights flashed on. Despite knowing this was going to happen, I was still caught by surprise. Her team chuckled at my slow blinks and shocked expression, "and here I thought my new tan would look good."

"Yea the lights wash us out a bit."

"Mmh, you just couldn't let anyone look better than you! I'm on to you Brit," I muse. The team behind the cameras laugh at my accusation, before Brittany carries the show onward.

"Ms. LN, we're starting this trial off with a very serious question. Please prepare yourself."

"Yes ma'am, hit me."

"How do you not pee in the suit? Like genuinely, I need logistics." I immediately leaned forward laughing, and I heard Brittany lose it next to me. As soon as I composed my self, I made eye contact with Brittany and we both lost it again.

After catching our breaths I begin my answer, "I know for some drivers who do pee in their suits, this is a hard thing to do, but for me I keep it in mostly with the overwhelming need to preserve my dignity. I am also not a stranger to last minute bathroom break."

"I feel like I would pee in the car."

"I have no doubt in my mind that you would. I personally can't imagine looking my team in the face and being like 'great race today, also there's a puddle of my piss that needs cleaning from the seat.'"

"No yea, that makes sense."

"Would that stop you?"

"Probably not," she looks down at her papers, "these next few are about guys in the dating sense, so buckle up and forget about your husband for a minute. Can you do that for me, ma’am?”

I laugh at her antics before nodding seriously, “I think I can manage.”

She nods back, “firstly, do you get the ick when a guy doesn't know how to drive stick? I feel like if I was paid to drive around 200 mph on a manual steering car, if a man couldn't even do that in a regular car, I couldn't do him."

"Uhhh not really. It’s also a different kind of manual, so that helps them. If they can't drive at all, then I really get the ick, ya know? You're a grown man and can't even travel long distances without someone else's help, what else can't you do wash your ass? No thanks, pass."

Brittany bursted out into a belly laugh before replying, "thats so real."

"Like I don't mind if he's a passenger princess by choice..."

"But he needs to be able to get behind the wheel if the time calls."

"Exactly! But, all that to say I did bag a racing driver so no worries here!"

"That's right! Girl, you married a man who can, not only drive fast, but he looks damn good doing it!"

"Damn right he does!” I giggle before bragging on Pato even more, “he can drive stick, manual, and open wheel!"

Brittany looks away from me to make eye contact with the center camera, "this is what an icon looks like. Take notes. Next up, what's more intense, driving a hairpin turn in the rain, or trying to explain to a man on Hinge what you do for a living?"

"Explaining the job is easy, especially if I named dropped Max or Charles. What's really intense is explaining basic empathy to men on Hinge," I answer, chuckling.

"Thats so true queen, but I can't imagine you, out of all the women out there, fighting with a man to understand empathy."

"Listen," an embarrassed blush creeps onto my face, "there was a time, when a young YN was riding the F1 rookie high. Men from all different countries took me out and when you're with a 10/10 hottie, sometimes you put up with some red flags. But guess what? It all worked out in the end!" I smile at the camera over Brittany's shoulder and flashed the rings on my left hand.

Brittany let out a laugh, "yes ma'am! I LOVE you!! To wrap up my section about men, who's the hottest F1 driver and why is it always the brooding one who never smiles?"

I playfully sigh and look down, "it always comes back to Kimi Räikkönen, doesn't it?"

"Listen there is something about a grumpy man who has a soft spot for me and me only!" We broke out into another laughing section, causing me to grab my stomach, "anyway, you are the paddock queen of side quests."

I begin looking around the studio, this causes Brittany to stop reading her question and her crew to laugh, "I think you're wrong there Brit, I only ever drive and sleep. I have 100% focus all the time. "

"Ahh yes you are so correct, thats my bad. Please forgive me."

"No," I state flatly. We make eye contact once again and begin to laugh.

"So if you were to go on a side quest, like the Met Gala after party with Sir Lewis Hamilton, do you show up hungover to the track or behave?"

"See when my trainer and team see this, I'm gonna wish I said behave; the truth however..."

"You can be real here girl, no worries," Brittany goes to rest a hand on my knee, as if a serious confession was coming.

"Well, if you insist," I joke sitting up straighter, "all I'm gonna say is Max Verstappen won a championship hangover, so who am I to question science."

The crew loses it before Brittany moves on, "10/10 answer. Has anyone ever said something so bad, so offensive in a press conference that you've wanted to run them over with a car?"

I widen my eyes in fake surprise and lean towards Brittany, making sure to whisper into the mic, "how did you find out about May 23, 2022? No one was supposed to know about that!"

"Now that I know, will you have to kill me?" She replies with the same energy, holding back her laughter.

"No, I don't think so," I suddenly lean back and far to casually say, "something about diplomatic immunity."

"Ohhh ok good! I'm relieved," she wipes fake sweat off of her forehead, "are you ready for the final question?"

"Yes my most royal, supreme leader, I am!"

"Which track is the most slay? Like if the circuits were girls, who's the baddest?"

I break out into an amazed smile and begin to think, "that’s such a good question! I think there are too many different types of slay to just pick one. It depends your personal vibe— the old money girl, who wears linen pants and carries a Hermès bag? Monaco. But on the other end of the spectrum is the trendy, influencer it girl in the form of the Miami GP track. She’s the one you want to pick the club. If I had to choose one of the girls to be the most slay in my eyes, it would be Imola. She’s rich, in vibe and history, and she’s hosted so many of “the greats.” She knows how to party, in a classy way. I feel like she always pairs the correct type of wine with her food. I could never."

"Thats such a good take, if we had all day, I'd listen to you go through all the tracks."

"Maybe later when I'm wine and dining you," I send a joking wink, poking fun at our dinner plans later.

"With the wrong wine pairing?" She fires. I make a mock offended expression.

"Ok now," I look away from her and to the crew behind the camera, "is this shit over? Can I go now?"

"No, stay, I'm sorry! If I can be vulnerable with you right now, I don't know how to pair wine with food either."

"It's like an art! Whenever I go out for a meal and Yuki is there, I make sure to sit next to him and let him take charge. If you mess up around him, you will catch the sass of a thousands real housewives, it's insane," we laugh at the mention of his sass, "I think you would enjoy a dinner with Yuki, he makes great conversation and its fascinating to watch him judge a meal."

"I'll have my people call his people," she jokes before placing the aged paper down on the table and looking into the camera, "Lady YN, you passed!!"

Small applause filled the space once again, "You know Brit, it was tough there for a moment, didn't know if id be able to overtake some of those questions."

"Someone has gotta keep you on your toes, these F1 drivers can get lazy. I offer my congratulations on surviving my royal interrogation! I must ask, has all this truth speaking worked up an appetite?"

"truth speaking?" I whisper, giggling, before Brittany motioned to ignore her poor wordage, "I have, madame Broski!! Bring on the grub!"

"Hell yea! Squires," she claps twice and her crew members bring us both silver platters. With another round of claps, they remove the lids. I see an array of food with different tracks pinned on toothpicks and stuck into them. I smile at the presentation and look up for her to continue, "I prepared several delicacies from across your land! Now, I wanna quiz you on what represents what. You have the tracks printed to help you."

"OMG, ok! I can do this! I see mini croissants with the Moza track and, im assume, that is paired with the candies for Imola. I don't know what they are but I'm going to guess espresso?" Brittany nods and I cheer, "I know the flavors of Italy!"

"This is our low budget version of an Italian breakfast!" She laughs.

"Ohh I see!" I chuckle, "it's wonderful! Am I guessing them all, or are we eating in between?"

"Let's eat between, because I have topics to discuss with each one and I dont wanna have to circle back," we all laugh at her honesty.

"Love the honesty, let's do it!" We both grab the croissants and take a bite, "yes I love a stale, supermarket croissant to represent Italy."

Brittany breaks out into a laughing fit, "and the quality isn't gonna go up from here, so buckle up!" I pop a candy in my mouth before nodding for Brittany to continue, "ok so, do you ever eat your feelings in the Parc ferme over the race results or is that just me on the couch?"

We both crack up before I speak, "its so sweet that my results have an effect on your, I'm flattered! I don't normally eat my feelings, at least until a few hours later. That being said, when fans gift me snacks throughout the day, I do have a tendency to break into them in my drivers room." I smile sheepishly at what I just admitted.

"Oh ok, I see how it is," she rolls her eyes playfully before motioning for me to continue my guessing game.

"I'm interested in this," I raise a cheap paper cup filled with bubbly liquid, "it has the Monaco track, and I wanna say its either grape juice or champagne."

"Bottoms up," Brittany raises her own up and we cheers. I take a large swig and start coughing.

"I did not think that was actually alcoholic!" I pull the cup away from my face and look at it, "I'm sure Charles will be glad to see his glamorous home country is represented by a paper cup."

"You were warned about the quality. For this county, I want to ask if you had a cocktail made in your honor, what would it be? And is it lethal?"

"My answer already exists, but it's a French martini. She's pink, she's fun, she's feminine, I love her! It's a martini with black raspberry liqueur and pineapple juice. And, like me, she's as lethal as you make her!" I finish with a laugh and finish the champagne.

"Thats such a solid answer, I think I'll have to try one at dinner tonight but it does sound very you!"

"Thank you! I love them more than life itself," I smile and see Brittany gesture to continue, "I see some seasoned almonds with the Spanish GP track,"

"Yes these are Spicy Marocna Almonds. And on the topic of spicy things, I wanna hear your best F1 hot take."

"Brittany, you are trying to get me canceled," I tried the almonds while I thought over my answer, "these are amazing! My hot take would have to be, if you have only ever raced in superior machinery you can't call yourself a legend. You don't have to have won, but true legend material can at least show some promise in an underperforming car."

"Oh tea, watch your back after that once," Brittany replies, "ok Lady YN, carry on!"

"Okkkk, I see a very tiny cucumber sandwich," I examine the plate, "for Silverstone?"

"You are correct! I'm getting the feeling this challenge should've been made harder. Someones getting fired," she threatens her team behind the camera before focusing back, "as we dive in, what circuit has the best food."

"Ok," I ponder while chewing the sandwich, "before I get into F1, let me tell you the best place to get food at an IndyCar race."

"Ooooh ok, bonus content!”

"Its not often I get to see Pato race in person, but when I do I let myself get lax on my diet, and if my trainer sees this I'm joking..."

"Girl saying that hot take made you so bold, be careful now," Brittany laughs.

"Oh girl I know this will be brought up in a team meeting," I joke back, "but anyway Road America has the best food, hands down and thats from a fan POV. If I had to pick for F1, the actual tracks themselves I dont know, just because I'm always eating team meals; however, food outside of the track I'm picking the Mexico GP. Nothing is better than authentic Mexican food, and I stand by that."

"I see I see, I would love to try it sometime," she responds.

"Girl, remind me and I'll fly you out! Anyway, I feel like my answer perfectly segways us into our final treat, the food for the Mexico GP, which is represented by 100% authentic chips and queso!" I joke looking down at the tortilla chips covered in poorly melted shredded cheese. Both Brittany and I throw our heads back in laugher and I have to wipe tears from my eyes.

"I thought this was a judgment free zone!" Between laughs Brittany finally gets out her question, "have you ever cried over a meal during a race weekend?"

"Funnily enough I have!"

"Ok, love! What was the meal, and as it worth the breakdown?"

"Oh it was 100% worth it, and it was homemade 'tacos de trompo.' I have no clue what that translates to in English, nor will I be learning."

"Y'all mind if a white girl speaks a little Spanish tonight," Brittany jokes, causing us both to have yet another laughing fit, "can we hear the story behind this cry."

"Ok so what triggered it was the food was truly that damn good. But it was a super bad race weekend, we didn't have a great qualifying position and I didn't make it much higher in the race. Pato had come to the race and I was super upset that I didn't perform very well for him," I began to laugh at the absurdity of this story, "and so to try and make me feel better, Pato cooked his favorite meal in the small hotel suite kitchen. I remember feeling so overwhelmed because he loved me and that dish was so goddamn good! I still beg him to make those tacos one a week."

"I imagine you're across the world, just on the phone begging," Brittany laughs out.

"No I swear, I'm prepared to insulate a box and pay for priority shipping."

"Also cooking dinner? That’s very much wifey material of him,” Brittany comments.

“No literally. When Megan said, ‘I don’t cook, I don’t clean, but let me tell you I got this ring.’ She was speaking to me. Ho was in my walls and wrote that about me.” Everyone in the studio breaks out into a laughing fit at my confession, before Brittany continued through broken laughter.

“Well Lady YN, how did you enjoy the royal feast?" Brittany asks in her special accent.

"It was quite delicious, your highness! I think we need to start a food review show," I say.

"You know, I agree."

"We'll start with the F1 calendar, and then go from there!" I chuckle.

"Quitting my job here as we speak so I can focus on those full time!"

"All these people just got fired in real time," I joke pointing to her crew behind the camera who are all struggling to keep in their giggles.

"They'll be fine, you can only go up from here. Next on the royal agenda is creating you a family crest and that way everything you own can belong to me since you're apart of my realm."

"I wouldn't expect anything less," I glance down at the paper with prompts and look back up, "this is where you ask the serious questions right?"

"Yes!" She smiles and looks into the camera filming on my side, "YN LN fan of the show! First question, you've broken into of the most male dominated sports in the world, what part of the journey tested you the most?"

"The hardest part was seeing the guys id drive with get all these offers and opportunities. It’s not easy for everyone, there are some guys I used to drive with who didn’t make it to f1, so I’m not alone in this struggle. It sucked, and sucks, to know that I don't need to be good enough or equal to these guys, I need to be better to really prove myself. "

"Are you sick of running as fast as you can?" She asks, I giggle before replying.

"Wondering if id get there quicker..."

"If I was a man," we sing together.

'Literally my personal anthem," I laugh.

"Next up, was there every a moment where you felt yourself truly become an F1 driver?"

"There was! I feel like the answer I should give is my first F1 win, however it’s not my honest answer. When you asked that the first thing I thought of was a little girl from the Silverstone GP my first year racing. She ran up to me with the sweetest little accent and told me that I inspired her to work extra hard when karting and that she wants to race like me one day. She then gave me this friendship bracelet that I wear everyday," I raised my arm to show off the bracelet made of different shades of pink and purples, "I actually invited her and her mom to watch that race from the garage and then I got a podium so that was super fun. Being her inspiration made it all feel real, not just her but so many people were watching me and looking up to me. You don't get that feeling unless you're doing something important."

"Thats beautiful," Brittany smiles softly, knowing how much the moment means to me, "I don't know if you have a different answer for this, but what's the moment that made all the sacrifices worth it?"

"When I gifted my mom my very first trophy. I have all the others displayed in my home, but that one," I smile and think back to that day, "I was still sticky with sweat and champagne, running around on the winners high, but everything slowed when I saw her, standing alone amongst the chaos. I didn't even think 'I should give her this,' I just felt it, it was like instinct. We were both crying and it made everything we'd given up worth it," I take a moment to glance up at Brittany, she wears a soft smile and her eyes are on the brink of tears from the happy story and the emotions in my voice. I pause my drawing and straighten up my back, "I owe her so much more than a trophy. I may have sacrificed a normal school career and friends, but she gave up so much money, time, and energy. I mean, my mom let her underaged daughter go racing around Europe without her, I don’t know if I’m even strong enough for that. She deserves the world in repayment."

"Awww come here," in the midst of a normally hilarious and chaotic show, Brittany brought out a sweet and tender moment for me. We had small tears clouding our vision when we embraced, "that was amazing, thank you for sharing that."

"Thank you for letting me!" I smiled, attempting to bring the energy back up, "another good answer would be when I married Pato. I mean everything that brought me to racing also brought me to my smoke show of a husband!"

Everyone laughed, "and we're back to unserious!"

"Girl I am being very serious, I don't play about my man!"

Brittany wiped her tears from laughing before beginning again, "moving on, what kind of legacy do you want to leave? Not just on the race track, but for the girls who come after you?"

"A legacy filled with fearlessness and unapologetic energy. I want people, girls, to look at my life and my career and never see a timid, meek girl; I want them to look and be inspired to be loud and get shit done."

"Get. Shit. Done." Brittany pretended to write on her stack of questions, "I love that and, may I add, you are doing a lovely job at leaving. Watching you on my TV and also getting to know you personally, you give that same energy and this is only the start. I can only imagine what your legacy will develop by the time your old."

"Aww I love you Brit," I make eye contact with the camera, "get you friend like Brittany Broski, she always knows what to say."

"Aww stawp it," she fans herself before whispering, "no keep going, keep going. I kid! What is something you wish male F1 fans would stop saying to/about you?"

"Ugh!" I let out a groan of annoyance, "Anything that involves me sleeping with someone. I got every seat in my career through hard work and grit. This pussy is good, but thats only for my husband to know."

"AHHHH!! YES MA'AM!!" Brittany exclaimed at my statement, cracking the whole studio up, "on that absolutely iconic note, Lady YN please present your shield to the realm!"

"Ok! Everyone please be kind, my drawing skills are not the best," I nervously chuckle holding up my paper.

"Oh its good!"

"Thanks Brit," I smile before continuing, "the first prompt was 'my personal royal court,' so I drew my pit crew as knights, with my trainer holding a gauntlet, and my engineer holding my steering wheel as a sword, all in stick figure form of course. Next was my 'weapon of choice', so I drew my steering wheel again. I debated drawing my rear with open, but DRS is too unpredictable to be my first choice, Oscar would agree. Next, was a 'pre-race comfort,' and I drew a note. I keep this note in my phone case and look at it before every race. It's from Danny Ricc, he left it stuck to my car before my ver first F1 race. The drawing version says, 'now go send it, -Daniel.' The real version," I pause while I retrieve the note, "says ' Hey legend, big day. First F1 race — soak it in. You earned that seat, so trust yourself. Block out the noise, keep it clean off the start, and let the rest come to you. You don’t have to prove everything today — just drive like you know you can. Oh, and smile. You're doing something epic. Now go send it. – Daniel.' I miss Danny in the paddock everyday!"

"I would get that tattooed on me," Brittany says amazed while I show her the aged note.

"I've been debating getting one of the lines tatted, don't temp me or else I will. Anyway, the last piece was to illustrate and write my motto. For this prompt I drew a bottle of champagne surrounded by a laurel wreath, and on the champagne I wrote, 'I don't race to prove, I race to reign.' Before now, I didn't have a motto but being here with you, Brittany, I was inspired," I wrap up with a smile.

"Thats amazing! Would you please sign that for me?" I nod and sign right above the crest, "perfect. Now Lady YN, please take a knee so I may knight thee. It is my upmost privilege and honor to knight thee Grandmistress of the Grid, blessed by racing gods and engine gremlins alike!"

"Thank you Queen Broski!" I exclaim as applause fills the studio once again. She has me the Royal Court mug as a parting gift and I thank her.

"Is there anything you'd like to promote to my realm?"

"Yes! Watch me drive in the Formula 1 racing series! We have practice and qualifying runs, and most importantly, we race on Sundays!" I turn to Brittany once again, "It was amazing to be here! Thank you!"

"It was amazing to have you! Squire, please escort the lovely lady out!" With two claps, a crew member extended their arm for me to take. I gently grab ahold and flutter my cape the same way I did on the way in. I watched as Brittany finished the video and called the day a wrap, "does this make anyone else wanna go to Medieval Times?"

"Oh count me in girl," Brittany exclaims as we both laugh.

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User1 DUO👏OF👏THE👏CENTURY👏

User2 ugh YN looks SO good!!

User3 Pato can you fight???

User4 get me someone who matches my freak like YN LN matches Brittany’s 😩😩😩

User5 “forget about your husband for a minute” HAS ME DEAD

user6 it was so funny to see YN relive her dating days!

User7 no cause her eyes when she was talking about explaining empathy to men… girlie has dating war stories 

User8 this is my official petition to get YN on the Broski Report to share dating stories 

User9 no cause she’s so real bc if I raced with me, I too would make drop Max and Charles on a date

Used10 I’d be to scared they’d leave me! Charles is so pretty to name drop 

User11 LMAO YN SMILING WHEN MENTIONING KIMI DURING THE HOTTEST F1 DRIVER QUESTION!! She’s just like me fr fr

User12 she has 10/10 taste 

User13 Yn ate down with the track girlies question!

Ussr14 right?? Like her observations were a 10/10 

User15 it makes me wanna draw all the tracks as IT girlies

User16 her brining Yuki up when talking about pairing wine with food?? That’s too sweet

User17 no cause imagine her, Brittany, and Yuki all at dinner— that’s a recipe for disaster!

User18 the low quality spread for different race tracks is cracking me up!!

User19 YN tried so hard to hide her laughter 💀

User20 ok now I really need a Brittany and YN food review show! Imagine they go to all the F1 tracks and then the IndyCar tracks!!

User21 anyone else crying over the Pato taco story?? Like he cares about her and can cook??

User22 dream man right there

User23 answering a serious question and turning it into a Taylor Swift karaoke session is very on brand for YN and Brittany 

User24 YN wearing a friendship bracelet from a fan years ago makes me cry!! She’s so sweet and sentimental

User25 no because her saying that was the moment she felt like a driver was actually so nice to hear! It was refreshing for it to not be her actually driving, but rather the impact she has on fans 

User26 at the end of the day, YN really does care for us!!

User27 watching YN talk about her mom and both her and Brittany get emotional killed me!! As a mom myself, it’s super nice to see her genuinely care and appreciate what she did!!

User28 YN drawing her team as stick figures and fantasy characters was so clever!!

User29 right, I know they loved it when they saw the video!!

User30 THE LETTER FROM DANIEL??? 😭😭😭

User31 hits different in 2025

User32 he was always so genuine and kind, it’s nice to see little things like that pop up!

Instagram--

ynln

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ynln I've been knighted!! My episode of Royal Court is out now!!

tagged: brittanybroski, jackinanem, lastmanstanley

Lilymhe oohh so this is why the internet is broken!

Charles_leclerc name dropped on dates? Champagne in a paper cup?? Mon Dieu! YN, je suis blessé YN, I’m hurt

maxverstappen1 all this time I thought we were friends, turns out I’m just a oblivious wing man…

ynln overdramatic! Both of you! 🙄🙄🙄

Oscarpiastri glad to see my twitter beef with DRS is still relevant! 

ynln always my Twitter king 🫶🫶

yukitsunoda0511 a dinner date with you two sounds lovely!! We'll have to plan something soon!!

ynln yesss Yuki!! Please educate us!!

olliebearman mother is mothering

ynln yes Ollie 😌😌😌

patriciooward my love, my angel, my queen 🤍

ynln my king!! I love you 🤍

Pre-Race Weekend

ynrossi

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ynrossi St. Pete 🌞☕️

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nolansiegel 🤍☕️

ynrossi my fav coffee date

user1 she's baaaackkkkkk!!!!

user2 my favorite Rossi I've missed you

ynrossi 💋🫶

user3 oh beach babe

user4 my fav coffee shop!!

ynrossi I was so happy to discover it!! A new St. Pete race weekend staple!!

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Time Skip--Practice + Quali

ynrossi

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ynrossi perks of dating a driver AND being the sister to a driver??? I get paddock passes alllllllll weekend :)

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elbaoward iconic fit #1!!

ynrossi my icon, my diva, my inspiration 😍

alexanderrossi just wonderful 🙄

ynrossi you love me

alexanderrossi debating that right about now

nolansiegel you didn't have any better pictures??

ynrossi I mean I did... but you look so babygirl in that one!!

user1 Yn serving face, Nolan and Alex... serving something

user2 ugh get on top of me please

user3 I love, love, LOVE her!!

user4 ok but like who is she rooting for??

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ynrossi posted 2 stories!

captions: (1) Quali morning ☕️🫶 (2) took the boys out to dinner to celebrate great starting positions all around :)

replies:

nolansiegel

🫶🫶🫶

user1

awww this is so sweet

user2

you're so cute!!

user3

one chance Yn, one chance

Time Skip-- Feature Race Day

ynrossi posted 2 stories!

captions: (1) me rn bc you guys keep insisting on me rooting for only one of my boys (2) unbiased race day fit!!!

replies

alexanderrossi

please dont get alcohol poisoning

get your fans in line then

I will NOT pick between my boys 😤

heard loud and clear

nolansiegel

you're so pretty baby

awwww thanks Nol

I love you!! Best of luck today

Thank you 🫶

user1

we just wanna know!! No way you dont have a preference

user2

fit eats

Time Skip-- Post Feature Race

ynrossi

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ynrossi left my 🤍 in St. Pete!!! A big, BIG congrats to my favorite brother for finishing p10 and to my lovely boyfriend, they were to scared of your talent but you'll show them next weekend!!!

tagged: nolansiegel, alexanderrossi

nolansiegel on the bright side, I loved watching the race by your side!!

ynrossi 🫶🫶🫶

alexanderrossi thank you for the support!! Love you sis

ynrossi love you too!!

patriciooward maybe wear papaya next time... just a thought

ynrossi gtfo

ynln with lundgaardoffical

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ynln I tried on the ring and this strange man followed me home after???

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lundgaardoffical 👰‍♀️🤵‍♂️🤍

elbaoward girl you cannot announce your engagement like this 😭😭

ynln oops 🤷‍♀️

lundgaardoffical i love you 🤍

ynln i love you too 🤍

user1 christian is the ultimate unbothered queen

user2 he’s so used to dealing with Yn’s bs atp 😭

ynln and that’s why i have a ring now!!

charlesleclerc congrats mon ami

maxverstappen1 thoughts and prayers @/lundgaardoffical

alexanderrossi congrats you two!!

user3 most anticipated engagement in the motorsport world and Yn still doesn’t take it seriously 💀

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Time Skip-- 1 month before the wedding

ynln posted a story!

caption: marrying this diva in 1 month!!

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lundgaardoffical

🤍

landonorris

how he still wants to marry you is beyond me

i have charm, norris

patriciooward

diva 💅💅✨✨

that your man girl??

that’s my man 🤭🤭

lundgaardoffical posted a story!

caption: my future 😍😍 t minus 1 month 💍

replies

ynln

ugh i love you sm

i love you too, darling

maxfewtrell

you’re a lucky guy mate

i know, i know

ynln

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ynln details for the win 😉🏆

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lundgaardoffical so proud, darling

ynln 🤭🤭

maxverstappen1 great drive, great push

ynln thank you 😶😶

danielriccardo 👏👏👏

user1 YESSSSS YN WIN

user2 always a good day when redbull wins

user3 and with Yn and Max having seats, we stay fed

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lundgaardoffical

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lundgaardoffical another podium at Long Beach 🏖️🏆

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ynln AHHHHHH YOU ATE DOWN DIVA!!!

lundgaardoffical THANK YOU QUEEN 😊

user3 when will someone match my freak like these two 😔

nolansiegel long beach wasn’t ready 😎😎

josefnewgarden 💪

user1 ahhhhhhh christian!!

user2 the move to Mclaren was the best choice ever

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Time Skip-- a week

ynln

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ynln 👙🌞🤿

tagged: lundgaardoffical

elbaoward stunning 🤩

ynln thank you 🤭

mollyerobb_ wag pool day soon??

ynln oh yes please!!!

user1 ugh they’re both so hot

user2 a bisexual’s dream

user3 oh to be a f1 driver with my hot ass indycar fiancé spending my off week at our pool

ynln it’s pretty great 😉

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lundgaardoffical posted a story!

caption: "hey Yn, its a rare day we're together in person, should we get some wedding to-dos done?" "No I'm gonna go play mermaids"

replies:

ynln

ummm ok expose me then??

also we got stuff done, it was just from the pool

it was the best way to plan tbh

very stress relieving

patriciooward

that’s my kinda girl!! who wants to waste the perfect weather??

trust we did not

Time Skip-- Wedding Week

ynln posted a story!

caption: its wedding week 🥳🥳🥳 @/mollyerobb_

replies:

mollyerobb_

so so exciting 🎉🎉🎉

thank you for being here for so much of this process!!

of course!! time to walk down that isle!!

charlesleclerc

so so excited!! me and alex cannot wait!!

its gonna be great!! I cannot wait to see you both!!

carmenmundt

whoop whoop whoop!!

Party time!!

lundgaardoffical posted a story!

caption: @/ynln starting wedding week off right

replies:

ynln

have a great day, enjoy the coffee!! i love you!!

i love you too 🤍

elbaoward

wifey material 😍😍😍

she is the best!!

davidmalukas

does she take venmo?? i need some daily motivation

maybe this is her new side hustle

ynln posted 2 stories!

captions: (1) @/lundgaardoffical professional driver AND nail tech (2) idk if this mask is doing anything but it feels like a necessary wedding week activity

replies

elbaoward

girl you are brave for letting christian do your wedding nails!!

he was so curious and excited i didn’t want to say no 😭

it wasn’t that bad tho!! just needed some clean up

lundgaardoffical

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lundgaardoffical hey @/ynln we get married tomorrow!!

tagged: ynln

ynln hey!! I'm so excited!!

alexanderrossi perfect pre-wedding activities ⛳️

maxfewtrell delicious 🍕🍕

mollyerobb_ @/ynln you became every mans dream girl with this post alone 🏌️‍♀️

ynln tehehe

user1 they would be the couple to go golfing they day before their wedding

user2 omg yn is so cutie

lundgaardoffical ikr 😍

ynln christian 💀

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Time Skip-- Wedding Day

ynln

caption: slow morning before its off to get ready ☕️👰‍♀️

replies:

lundgaardoffical

I'm so so lucky! thank you for saying yes

christian, I love you so much! Thank you for asking and sticking with me through it all

racing in different places has been so difficult but you've always gone above and beyond to make it work with me and that means the world to me

Twitter--

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yn_lnlundgaard allow me to reintroduce myself 💍

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lundgaardoffical 🤍🤍🤍

elbaoward beautiful bride 🫶

mollyerobb_ so so fun!!

maxverstappen1 party of the year!

charlesleclerc beautiful wedding, killer reception

yukitsunoda0511 10/10 dinner + cake

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lundgaardoffical

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lundgaardoffical ladies and gentlemen, my wife

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yn_lnlundgaard my past, present, and future 🤍

patriciooward what a perfect day!!

davidmalukas best wishes!!

alexanderrossi what an amazing ceramony

felixrosennqvist congrats!!