My Imaginative World

You didn't realize how much he affected you until you felt him touch you for the first time. And to say you were turned on was a complete understatement. You wanted him. And it was very obvious that he wanted you to.

So, when it was time for bed and the lights had shut out signalling that it was time for bed. You didn't expect to suddenly feel Caleb's hand on your hip bone. The open skin immediately got goosebumps as you felt him gently circle his fingers.

"Caleb, what are you doing?" you whispered. Not wanting the others to hear you. He didn't answer you, instead you felt his hand grip your hip and pull you close to him. His breath suddenly on your neck and you had to hold back a gasp.

"Shhhh, don't let them hear you baby." he told you, whispering in the same voice to not alert the others.

You held back a gasp of shock as you felt his warm, wet lips on the crevice of your neck. Your hand automatically grabs onto the one that was holding onto you.

"Caleb..." you whispered breathlessly. His lips continue to attack your neck, leaving soft kisses. Your eyes close in pleasure. It wasn't until you felt the sneaky swipe of his tongue swipe across the open skin that you finally let the moan escape your mouth. Caleb immediately used his free hand to cover your mouth.

"What did I say." he whispered directly in your ear. You did your best to not make another noise because if you did, then you guys were sure to get caught.

"Stay quiet baby, or I'll stop....do you want me to stop?" he asked you. You shook your head, your mouth still covered by his hand.

"Good girl." he praised softly. He continued his soft attack on your neck. You could feel your panties dampen by the second. The hand that was on your hip started to make its way down.

His fingers tortuously trailing down your skin until he got to the front edge of your panties. Your breath caught in your throat as you felt him tug on the waistband.

"You're going to have to be real quiet, do you understand me?" he asked you. You were too afraid to say something out of fear of being too loud. Caleb didn't like that, so in response, he nipped at your neck.

"Can you be quiet for me baby?" he asked again, wanting an answer from you. His hand was still covering your mouth, so you nodded in response.

"That's my good girl." he told you. His hand is now dipping into your panties.

Your heart was racing, your body was not getting warmer by the minute, and you definitely knew that you were very wet down there. Your eyes widened when you felt the pad of his finger gently come in contact with your clit. Your body couldn't help but stiffen, and Caleb couldn't help but notice how soaked you actually were.

"Fucking hell, baby." he said to you as his finger continued to softly rub your clit. Your eyes couldn't help but roll back in pleasure and your ass arched back into him. You could feel how hard he was as you pressed against him.

As he continued to tease you, he got back to kissing every inch of exposed skin. Your neck, shoulder, collar bone, and cheek were all touched by his sinful, addicting lips. Your hands held onto both of his arms. You needed something to anchor you at that moment.

"You're so fucking ready for me." he teased you. His finger is now sliding down to tease your folds. Your legs couldn't help but clamp down on his hand in response.

"Open your fucking legs." he commanded in your ear. You looked up at him, pleading with him to stop teasing with your eyes since you couldn't speak from the pleasure he was giving you.

He pushed your legs back wide open, and this time, he didn't waste a second to gently push a finger into you. You gasped against his hand. Thankful that it was there to block the sound from being escaped into the room.

The feeling of his finger pushing in and out of you gently had your breathing starting to falter. He was making you feel so good and this was just the beginning.

"Look at me." he suddenly said after he continued to finger you for about a minute or two. You turn your head as best as you can to make eye contact with him. Caleb could see the heavy lust in your eyes, but he could also see the intense desire. The desire to have him ravish you right then and there. But now was sadly not the time for that.

He removed his hand from your mouth, trusting that you would not make a noise that would get you guys caught. And just as he added a second finger, he could see your mouth widened and he leaned in to kiss you. Your gasp is cut off quickly.

The feeling of him continuously pumping his fingers in and out of you was a feeling you were becoming quickly addicted to. The way your walls would allow him to penetrate you, the hot and heavy feeling of pleasure deep within your stomach building by the second.

As you continued to kiss him, his tongue licked your lip. A silent permission to explore your mouth which you gladly accepted. Your tongues playing a dirty game as you both refuse to break the kiss.

It wasn't until he hit a specific spot within your walls that you froze. Caleb could sense the shift in your body language. He pulled away and noticed the fast pace of your chest moving up and down, your face flushed, the feeling of your thighs tensing, and your eyes looking at him with so much pleasure.

"What baby?" he smirked as he increased the pace. His fingers are now moving faster within you to keep touching that spot that you could feel pulsing within you.

"Is that the spot baby? You want me to keep going?" he asked you teasingly. He leaned his head down, signalling you to speak to him this time.

"Please keep going Caleb." you begged him. Your arms wrapped around his neck, one hand gripping the back of his hair due to the increased pleasure that was starting to build quickly from each thrust he continued with his fingers.

"I want to feel you cum on my fingers baby." he told you, his movements only get faster causing your breaths to become irregular.

"Can you do that for me baby?" he asked as he watched your eyes roll back in pleasure. An image he would forever embed in his mind.

"Y-yes, I can do that." you whispered as you felt that spot within you caused the build up in your stomach to get bigger. You were so close. You could feel yourself getting ready to cum and so could Caleb.

You took it upon yourself to pull his neck down so that his lips would meet yours again. Not wanting your moans to be heard. Just as his fingers kept hitting that spot within you over and over, you felt the tightness in your stomach about to snap and your thighs were beginning to uncontrollably shake. Caleb knew what that meant.

He pulled away from you for a quick second.

"Cum for me baby." he told you. You didn't have to be told again as the coil in your stomach released and you came on his fingers. His mouth immediately latches back onto yours to mask the moans and whimpers.

He could feel your walls tightening and clamping down on his fingers. And this only made Caleb wonder. If he could get you to cum like this with just his fingers, then what else could he do with more than that?

When he felt your walls loosen their grip, he carefully slid his fingers out from between your legs. You watch in a daze as he brings his hand up and puts both fingers in his mouth. Tasting you.

"You taste so good baby." he praised once he was done licking his fingers clean. Your body is still coming down from the high as you watch in fascination.

"That's my girl." he said as he pulled you closer to him, your head placed on his chest as he held a tight grip on you. He didn't want you to go anywhere. And you didn't want to go anywhere either. You both were right where you wanted to be.

You had noticed him since the beginning. When he walked in, he caught your eye immediately. Someone you definitely wanted to get to know and explore. And when it was your turn to kiss him, it only solidified your answer.

And while you did your best to get to know him more, you just couldn't seem to get away from everyone else without being interrupted. Like now for example, he had been the one to pull you for a chat first. You were more than happy to say yes. He had taken you to sit at "All the feels" and sat you down right next to him to where you were nearly touching him.

"Thank you for letting me pull you for a chat." he said, his handsome smile on display.

"Thank you for pulling me in the first place." you smiled back, happy to finally speak to him. Your body relaxes into the pillows.

"I would like to get to know you better, so, start from the beginning, what do you do for a living, your favorite hobby, anything and everything." he asked, his arm coming to place itself behind you on the edge of the couch.

"I'm a middle school teacher, I teach English, and I haven't left since so, it is something I am very proud to continue on throughout my career." you started off saying, your body becoming more relaxed as you spoke to him.

"I have two dogs, a pitbull and a shih tzu, very different and a random pair to have, but it honestly works cause my pitbull is a big wuss, while my shih tzu thinks he's the boss." you both laughed.

"As for hobbies, I would say mainly reading in my spare time, spending as much time as I can with friends and family when I have the opportunity to do so, and exploring new places I've never been to before." you finished. You watched as he took in every word you spoke, that same smile still plastered on his face. It gave you hope.

"Tell me about yourself, I want to know whatever I can about you." you told him, leaning in closer so that you could hear everything clearly.

"Well," he started and adjusted himself so he was more comfortable.

"I'm an elevator mechanic, and I don't have any animals-" suddenly he was cut off by another voice.

"I am so sorry to interrupt, but Y/n, is it okay if I steal Caleb for a chat please." Kenzie asked.

You had tried to hide the disappointment in your face. While you wanted to say no on the spot, you didn't want to come off as rude and disrespectful. You looked at Caleb and gave him a small smile, not the bright and full of life one that you gave him earlier. You nodded your head at Kenzie.

"Sure...go ahead." you told her softly and walked away. She smiled at you in appreciation as you walked past her. You could feel Caleb's eyes on you, but you didn't want to look back because then it would only make you feel worse.

At the night of the recoupling, you were taken aback when Ariana announced that America wanted to pair Kenzie up with Caleb. It had hurt because while you could understand that this was America's decision, it started to make you doubt if Caleb would ever be interested in you.

Because after that night, he was one hundred percent dedicated to Kenzie. He had made her breakfast, had conversed with her almost everyday and was almost always by her side. It was painful to watch. You were paired up with Corbin and while he was handsome, you knew this was something that would not work. Especially since he was still caught up on Kenzie.

You watched them from a distance, both sitting on one of the couches together by the pool. Both looking at each other and touching each other. The ache in your heart only got deeper as you continued to watch them. Suddenly, Caleb looked up and his eyes suddenly met yours.

Your eyes widened, not realizing that you were caught staring. You tried to play it off and gave him a small smile in which he returned with the famous one that had you fall for him in the first place. You turned away after a couple seconds, not wanting to look anymore. You got up from your seat and walked away to head towards the dressing room, needing some space away from everyone. Only you didn't realize that someone was watching you the whole time until you were no longer in sight.

Then it was a recoupling night, only the objective was you'd get coupled based on who wrote who a love letter. You wanted to write to Caleb. You honestly did, but you know he had put all his eggs in one basket and was going to write to Kenzie. So, you did what you thought would make sense and you wrote to Corbin.

Only to be shocked and to find out that while Caleb wrote to Kenzie, Kenzie did not write him back. She had written her letter to Corbin. You couldn't believe your eyes. The pain in Caleb's eyes was so prevalent that he couldn't even try to hide it. In the end Caleb and you were coupled up, but it didn't feel like a victory. Not at all.

"I'm very sorry.." you whispered to him. It was after everyone had left and it was just you and him sitting on the couch.

"It's okay..I should've known better considering she would always mention how she would pull him for chats." he said while looking down at his boots.

"You don't deserve that though when you've been completely honest with her about how you felt." you told him, being careful with your words as you didn't want him to sense your distaste. He looked up you, and you could see the pain in his eyes. If only you could be the reason that he smiled.

"I'm sorry about you and Corbin." you shrugged it off, not feeling bothered in the slightest.

"I'm not.." you told him. "I just didn't like him that way, I knew he was still into Kenzie, and plus I like someone else."

"Who?" he asked. Shit. You didn't mean to say that comment. Not at all.

"What?" you asked, playing dumb while suddenly taking an interest in your hands.

"You said you liked someone else...who is it?" he asked, curious to know who. You paused, you could either say it now or not say it all. You took a deep breath.

"Um...it's-"

"I hate that I keep being the one to interrupt, but Y/n is it okay if I pull Caleb for a chat." Kenzie asked. Again.

You let out a frustrated sigh, maybe it just wasn't meant to be spoken into the universe. Maybe this was a sign that the universe was telling you that you and Caleb just aren't meant to be.

"He's all yours." you finally said. You looked at Caleb one last time, giving him a smile that almost reciprocated itself as a goodbye. A goodbye for now? Or a goodbye forever? You didn't know, but you walked and kept walking, the tears streaming down your face.

Then Casa came around. You hated Casa, you wanted nothing to do with Casa, and the way the boys suddenly disappeared was only adding to the cherry on top. But then the heart rate challenge was suddenly live streamed. And you were all pissed.

You watched the way Caleb interacted with those girls. Touching them, kissing them, letting them touch him. It was unbearable to look at. So much that you had to walk away.

"Y/n, do not let this break you." Melanie came up to you, immediately pulling you close to her in comfort.

"I can't take this shit anymore Melanie. I hate this. I can never be the one that is picked. I always get picked then fucked over." you told her while holding in your tears.

"I know babe, but you can't let this get the best of you. If you and Caleb are meant to be then it will happen." she told you. But you shook your head.

"Everytime I have tried to speak to him, I get interrupted. Every time I try to connect with him, challenges always happen. I had yet to even kiss him outside of a challenge. He's not going to think about me while he's in there Melanie and that's just how it is." you told her.

*Movie Night*

It was movie night. You were honestly not looking forward to it.

The night the boys had gotten back from Casa, was a day you never wanted to experience again. You had chosen to couple up with Gal for the sake of playing it safe. Because deep down you knew that Caleb was going to walk in with someone else. And you were right. Cause he walked in with a girl named Jaiden.

And since that night, you have had to endure the sigh of both them being together. Here and there you and Caleb would catch sight of each other and smile. And sometimes he would try and pull you for a chat, but you would find an excuse to walk away and act like someone else was looking for you.

Now here you guys were, watching certain scenes that were filmed throughout your time here at the villa and at casa. Secrets and lies being exposed, heated arguments between certain people, and lots and lots of tension in the air that made it hard to even breathe.

"Boys turn to flip." Corbin got up and grabbed the card that was labeled 'boys' on one side and 'girls' on the other side. You all watched as he threw it up in the air, it flipped in a circle two times then landed on the side of the girls. There were only four options left to pick.

"We pick seven." Kayda said for the girls. The countdown appears and you all waited in anticipation for what was to appear.

Suddenly you see yourself appear. Your face scrunches up in confusion.

'What the hell did I do?'

Then it showed Caleb. It was the first time he had pulled you for a chat.

'Fuck.'

-Scene 1-

"I'm an elevator mechanic, and I don't have many animals-" suddenly he was cut off by another voice.

"I am so sorry to interrupt, but Y/n, is it okay if I steal Caleb for a chat please." Kenzie asked.

The screen stays on you, you're walking away to the dressing room. You couldn't believe the producers had done this. They were officially messy as fuck.

You walk in to see Trinity and Melanie standing there, getting their pajamas on.

"Are you okay babe?" They asked simultaneously.

You shook your head, giving them a defeated look. Your eyes looking down at your feet to hide the disappointment. They immediately come to your side.

"Kenzie pulled Caleb for a chat while I was having a conversation with him.." you told them still looking down.

"I remember that day." you heard one of the boys whisper. Who it was, you weren't;t sure. But you didn't care.

"It was mid-conversation and as much as I wanted to say no, I didn't want to be rude and disrespectful. So I let her pull him. But I feel so stupid now for doing that. Cause he's going to like Kenzie, I already know it." you confirmed sadly, already accepting the fact that Caleb was not interested in you.

"But babe you don't know that." Trinity said. You shook your head, trying to keep your emotions in check.

"It's obvious Trinity. I mean, America literally brought him in for her. What was I thinking that he would like me." you told them sadly. The heartbreak in your face only getting more deeper by the second.

All the girls could do was hug you.

-End of Scene 1-

You stared in shock at the screen. Unable to process that this was actually being shown to everyone here and even for America to see.

Then another scene popped up. It was the night of the recoupling of the letters.

-Scene 2-

It showed you and Caleb being interrupted again by Kenzie. Only after that, the camera followed you as you walk all the way to the dock.

"I'm such a fucking idiot." you said to yourself. Your hands coming up to grab at your hair in frustration. The tears finally falling.

You could feel him staring straight at you. But you didn't dare to look at him.

"Why, why the fuck do I have to like him." you whispered to yourself angrily. Not wanting anyone to hear you. The tears continued to stream past your cheeks.

"Oh my God..." you heard Melanie whisper, her hands automatically grabbing yours to comfort you. The camera is still on you.

"You're gonna be okay...you'll be okay." you whispered to yourself. Your hands grip the edge of the dock tightly.

You reached down into your pocket and pull out a piece of paper.

Only its not a paper, its a letter, and the camera zooms in on the name that is written. The letter that you wrote to Caleb. Only you never gave it to him.

"Holy shit.." you heard the boys gasp. They all stared at the screen in shock, they had no idea you felt this way for Caleb. And all Caleb could do was watch as well.

You look at it hard for a few seconds then suddenly start ripping it up. Your cries turning into sobs as you watch the pieces fall down past the dock. When you have no more paper in your hands, you sink down to the floor, sobbing into your hands.

-End of Scene 2-

"I'm so fucking sorry Y/n." you heard Kenzie whisper to you. She didn't realize how much you had truly liked him. But you didn't respond. Too shocked and frozen to even make a move.

"Did you know about this Caleb?" you heard Zach ask him. You didn't look over at him. You wouldn't. Not when you were put in a very vulnerable position.

"No I didn't..." was all you heard him say.

-Scene 3-

It was you, Melanie and Trinity sitting on the couch outside. You looked like a wreck. Your eyes had no emotion, and the dark circles from a lack of sleep were not hidden.

The grip you had on Melanie's hand tightened significantly. You couldn't believe they were showing this scene.

"You've got to be fucking kidding me." Melanie muttered under her breath.

"Are you okay, my love?" Melanie asked you softly, careful to use her words wisely. You slowly shook your head, your eyes catching sight of him and Jaiden.

You quickly look away and turn back to face both girls. All you could do was shake your head no. If you spoke you would only start crying again.

"I don't know if I should be here any longer guys..." you told them softly. "I think its time for me to go home."

"No absolutely not." both girls protested as they both moved to sit on either side of you and pull you in for a hug.

"You're not going home Y/n. You can't go home, its not time yet." they told you. But all you could do was deny what they were saying.

"What's the damn point." You finally spat out.

"There's no fucking reason why I should still be here. Gal wants to go explore other girls which is fine by me. But I can't stay here and continue to watch the guy I like to connect with someone that he clearly wants to be with. I can't keep watching that everyday. My heart can't take it anymore." you finally broke and admitted.

"I can't continue to be here when I clearly have no connection, and that the one person I want clearly doesn't want me." you cried out angrily.

"This is fucking hard to watch.." you heard Carl whisper aloud.

"I just want to go home.." You continued to cry into their arms. "I don't want to be here when I'm clearly not wanted." you said brokenly. All the girls could do was comfort you in that moment.

-End of Scene 3-

Your mouth was dry. Your body was stiff. You couldn't believe what the screen had just shown you. This was supposed to be exposing other couples who had drama and secrets to expose. Why the fuck did they show this. Was it to make a fool out of you? To be a laughing stock for America.

"Y/n....are you okay?" Dylan asked from the other side. Everyone could see how uncomfortable and exposed you felt. You looked around the room, your mouth opening but no sound coming out.

Then your eyes suddenly meet Caleb's. He was staring right at you. Trying to decipher what your body language was trying to say. Then your eyes landed on Jaiden who was staring right at you. A blank expression on your face. You felt so exposed. You couldn't take the embarrassment you felt in that moment.

So, you got up and walked away.

Ignoring the calls of your name from several people. You didn't once look back. You refused.

*Later that night*

You had changed into your pajamas immediately but made your way back to the dock. It was the only place that you could somewhat feel alone and get some peace.

The others were still downstairs, still in the same clothes. But you didn't pay them any attention.

Your face was buried into your hands as you continued to cry. You hated that you just got exposed. You hated how those scenes made you look in what you thought, as an embarrassment. You wouldn't be surprised if Caleb wanted absolutely nothing to do with you at this point. Friendship or not.

It only made you cry harder at the thought. Maybe now, this was the time to really go home. To not have to deal with anymore embarrassment. You didn't hear the footsteps that approached you as you were too engulfed in your own thoughts.

"Why didn't you tell me." your head snapped up, your eyes coming into contact with Caleb's. He was still in his same clothes from earlier. Still handsome as ever.

"What are you doing here?" you asked him, ignoring the fact that you looked like a hot mess. "You need to go be with Jaiden right now." you told him, your eyes looking back down at your knees.

"I'm here though." he told you firmly. You watched from your peripheral as he took a seat next to you. Enough to have some space between you.

"Why didn't you tell me Y/n?" he asked again. "I think I have a right to know." he told you, trying to keep his voice soft enough so that you would still talk to him and not shut down.

"Does it really matter at this point?" you asked him bluntly. Eyes still looking down, not wanting to look at him.

"I think it does." he said to you. "It would help me understand."

"Understand what?" you finally looked up at him. Your voice becoming firm even though tears still formed in your eyes.

"You clearly understand what is going on based on those damn clips. What else do you need to understand about it Caleb." You snapped. You didn't want to continue to still make a fool out of yourself like you already felt.

"I need to understand why you didn't say anything. Why didn't you tell me or couldn't." he begged softly, trying to get the answers he needed,

"When could I have told you Caleb?" You asked him, your voice still holding some embarrassment.

"Everytime we talked, we would get interrupted. Everytime I was about to tell you, we would get interrupted. Then Casa came and you walked out with Jaiden. I was not going to humiliate myself anymore than I already have. I'd rather go through the pain of not getting to have you than be rejected by you." you told him. Your voice cracked here and there.

"If you would have told me-" he said.

"If I would have told you what?" you cut him off.

"What would have happened?" you asked him rudely. Standing up from your seat and now standing in front of him.

"What would you have done Caleb? What would that have changed?" you demanded from him. He suddenly stood up and for a second you forgot how tall he was and had to take a step back because he was very close to you now.

Suddenly it became clear that he was standing directly in front of you. Very, very close to you. To the point where his chest was practically touching yours. He stares down at you, eyes stuck on you and not budging to the point where it was making you nervous. He slowly leaned his head down.

"It would have changed everything Y/n." he told you firmly. Your face changes to one of confusion.

"I don't understand." you told him taking a step back, but before you could move, his hand had reached out to grab a hold of your wrist. Gently holding you in place, but still giving you the option to move away if you wanted.

"You telling me how you felt would have changed everything because then I wouldn't have brought Jaiden. I would've come back to you." he stated. His voice not showing hesitation.

"Don't." you told him. Your heart not being able to take what you thought was a facade.

"Don't say what you don't mean Caleb." you told him. The tears falling as you try to ignore the inconsistent beat of your heart.

"I am saying what I mean." he told you. Pulling you closer to him so that your body was actually touching his now. You couldn't breathe. Your senses are becoming overstimulated.

"I wanted to come back to you. I wanted to be with you before we even had to go to Casa. But you never showed any sign Y/n." he started off. You get ready to respond but he beat you to it.

"Please shut up and let me finish." he told you. Your mouth closes on the spot.

"Everytime we got interrupted, I would try and come back to find you. But you were either somewhere else or talking to someone else. There was not a time where I didn't try to pull you. And when I would try and find a way to talk to you, you would walk the other way. I thought you wanted nothing to do with me." he explained. His face showing the same vulnerability you felt this whole time since the start of movie night.

"So I gave you your space, and then when I saw the post card. The picture of you smiling at Gal, the way you would smile at me when we first started talking. I thought there was no way in hell you were going to want to couple up with me again. So, I did what I could and what I thought was the right thing to do so I wouldn't be single. I brought Jaiden. But that doesn't mean that I have once thought of you Y/n. I think of you every damn day." he finished explaining.

You were shocked. The words were processed in your brain but were taking their time to sink into your system. You didn't know what to think or feel in that moment. But you were so overstimulated that it was hard to even form a coherent thought.

"I...I can't think right now." you told him honestly. With his body still touching yours, his hand still on your wrist, and his confession that you weren't expecting had you spiraling in your head.

"I'm sorry." was all he could say in that moment. He didn't mean to overwhelm you.

"Why are you now telling me this?" you asked him, your voice barely even above a whisper. But he heard it.

"Should I have not told you at all and let you leave?" he asked you. He had a point. If there was a time, then at least now was the time.

"I don't know." was all you could say. The shock of his confession sinking in.

"What does this mean?" you asked him hesitantly.

"It means we give our connection a shot. We try until we can't anymore. If it works out then it does, if it doesn't, then we can at least say we tried." he told you gently. His grip on your wrist starts to tighten enough to where you couldn't easily escape him.

"But what if we don't work?" you asked him, your compulsive thoughts getting the best of you.

"We will." he stated confidently.

"How do you know though?" you asked him.

"Because I know." he told you.

"But-"

"Y/n would you just please shut up so I can kiss you already." he demanded softly. Your mouth shut again. He wanted to kiss you. And he didn't hold back.

When he leaned down, his lips immediately connected with yours in a soft kiss. A small gasp escaped, not expecting the intense feeling you got from this. His mouth continued to move with yours softly. His hand letting go of your wrist, and reaching down to wrap around your waist.

His free hand grabs your hand and places it on his chest. Grounding you in this moment. Holy shit. You were actually kissing Caleb. Caleb was kissing you. Most importantly, his feelings for you were reciprocated.

Your hand on his chest moved up to reach the nape of his neck. Your other hand on his forearm, squeezing softly. Your mouths continued to move in sync, never pulling apart and never letting each other go.

When you both need air is when he pulls away. His head is leaning down to touch yours. Both of you are slightly out of breath, but your hands stay exactly where they are on each other.

"Stay with me." he told you, his hands squeezing at your waist.

"Don't leave. Stay with me, Y/n." he begged softly, his eyes showing the love and adoration that you had craved to see from the moment you met him. Your eyes stay looking at his, your grip on him tightening each second.

"Okay" you whispered.

Days have passed since your big fight with Caleb. You have not uttered a single word or even glanced at him. You were completely done with him after that night. Since then, you did everything in your power to avoid him.

When you had to be downstairs with the rest of the cast, you stayed on the opposite side. If you saw him in one area, you avoided him like the plague. If he were to try and walk past you, you would go the extra mile to walk around whatever was in sight just to not be in close proximity. You wouldn't even look at him.

And Caleb could see all of that. And he fucking hated it.

He hated the way you avoided him. He hated how you couldn't even stand to look at him or even be somewhat near him. Each time, only breaking his heart at the fact that this was all because of him. One day he couldn't take it and blindsided you when you were sitting on one of the tanning beds near the pool.

"Y/n....I don't want things to be like this between us." His eyes tried to meet yours, but you wouldn't even give him the time of day. Your eyes staring straight forward, face emotionless.

"You made your bed, so hump in it." was all she said coldly. No feeling. It made Caleb's heart ache. He watched as she got up and walked away. He wanted to go after her so bad, but doing that would only make it worse. But one way or another, he was going to prove to you that in the end he wanted to walk out of this villa with you. Not Jaiden, and not anyone else.

*Later that night*

Caleb was trying to rack his brain on what he could do. He was going to do everything in his power to try and get you back. But where should he start? How can he even try if you don't even want to look at him, let alone be in the same room as him?

His head lifted as he heard approaching footsteps coming his way. It was Bryce and Trinity walking hand in hand. They both sat on the same couch next to him.

"How you doing Bro?" Bryce asked him, his hand automatically grabbing a hold of Trinity's. They could see the misery straight up on his face. And while Trinity was one to hold back on the bullshit, a part of her did feel bad Caleb.

"I fucked up so bad.." he whispered, his hands coming up to grasp at his hair in frustration. Caleb felt so empty. And he felt this way because he didn't have you.

"I was so fucking stupid, and didn't realize what I had until I brought Jaiden in." he told them, his eyes looking at the ground, ashamed of himself. He doesn't blame anyone but himself. This was all on him.

"I miss her so fucking much..." his voice slightly cracked. hands gripping his hair even tighter. He could feel Bryce place a hand on his shoulder, trying to give him a comforting squeeze. One he felt he didn't deserve.

"I know you thought you were doing what you think was best, but you and everyone in here knows, the moment you and Y/n went to the hideaway that you shouldn't have brought anyone else back after being in Casa. The amount of times you spoke about Y/n and thought about her, should have been the sign you needed man." Bryce was not going to sugar coat it. But he also wasn't going to be a dick. Caleb was beating himself up enough.

"I just don't know how I can prove to her that I regret what I did and that I do want her. She won't even look at me unless its with disgust." he said softly, not wanting to speak normally or else he knew he would break right then and there.

"Prove it then." Trinity answered. "You want to show her how sorry you are and that you want her back, then prove it to her."

"But how? She won't even be within ten feet of me." Caleb questioned.

"Well its not going to be easy Caleb. You did a fucked up thing, that doesn't just go away really fast. She's going to be affected by this for a while. But what you can do is put in the effort to try and prove it to her that you're sorry. She may reject you at first, and may not even give you a second to listen, but if you consistently put in the effort, then eventually, she's going to see it. It's just going to take time." She explained to him.

"I can do that." Caleb affirmed. He will do that. Anything to get you back, he was going to try even if she still rejected him in the end. Because he could not leave the villa without trying to get his girl back.

*The next day*

He started simple to test the waters. He had made you breakfast, but he knew better than to walk in there and give it to you considering what happened last time. So, he had decided to have Bryce take it to you while he went to give Trinity her plate.

When Bryce walked in, he made sure to give Trinity her plate first and a hug and a kiss. Then he walked over to Y/n.

"Here you go Y/n." he said cheerfully, setting the plate down in front of you. You gave him a kind smile and thanked him, "You didn't have to." she responded, grateful for his kind generosity.

"Enjoy." he smiled at her. He gave her a friendly hug and walked out of the room. But not entirely. He stood behind the door, starting between the crack that gave him a perfect view of you.

You ate the food slowly, savoring every bite while having a conversation with the girls.

"What's that Y/n?" Jen asked as she peaked at her plate, her eyes furrowing at what she saw. Y/n looked down and down a folded note that was hidden under the grapes. She picked it up and inspected it carefully. The girls all gathered around her, curious as to what it said.

"Open it!" They all encouraged her.

She opened the note slowly, and then her eyes finally found the written words:

'I know you don't want to see me, but I will give it my all to prove to you that I'm sorry for what I did. I know it will take some time, but I will use all the time that I have left to show you that I made a mistake and regret hurting you.

-C'

You read aloud to the girls. They awed at the words that were written but you weren't falling for it. Now now, and not anytime soon. Bryce watched as you looked at it a second longer and crumbled it up. You threw it in the trashcan, not giving it another thought.

"If he's sorry, he wouldn't have done what he did in the first place." was all you said as you sat back down and continued to get ready.

Bryce walked away from the door and made his way back down to the kitchen. Caleb was sitting on the island, waiting anxiously for his return. The moment he saw him, he got off and walked straight to Bryce.

"Well?" he asked, nervous for the outcome. All Bryce could do was give him a sympathetic look and shook his head no.

"She read it, but she threw it away." Caleb knew that this was going to be extremely difficult. He understood why you threw the note away, but this was not going to stop him even though it hurt that you didn't even acknowledge his attempt to try and communicate with you to make things right.

"I'm not giving up." he stated. Bryce dapped his shoulder, giving him the support he needed at that moment.

"Let's try a different approach..." Bryce suggested. They both went to sit down at 'Say Less' and started to brainstorm ideas on how to get you alone with him.

*Later that night*

Caleb knew he was going to have to be careful on how he did this. He knew that you weren't ready yet to talk to him. But he could at least try and let you know that he was not going to give up on you in a subtle way.

As the girls were all talking at the fire pit, Caleb waited until they were deep in conversation to pull all the boys aside. "Can you guys do me a favor?" he asked them all quietly, making sure that you and the girls could not hear him.

"What the hell are they up to?" Kayda said as she could see all of the guys huddled together, discussing something that seemed very private and secretive.

"I don't know, but I hope they aren't doing some stupid shit." Melanie said as you and the girls continued to stare intently at the boys.

Suddenly, their huddle broke apart, and the boys started to make their way over. Their steps in sync, and their eyes staring right at you.

"Beautiful, Y/n" Zach started off dramatically, your face immediately showing a 'what the fuck' expression. "Can you please walk with me for a moment."

You looked around, trying to figure out what was happening. The girls were just as confused as you. you took his arm that he offered to you, and he guided you up and started to lead you away. You looked back at the girls, trying to figure out what the hell is going on.

Zach led you to the dock, and you could see something, but what it was, you weren't sure since you couldn't see very clear yet. "What's going on Zach?" you asked him, your voice giving a sound of annoyance and nervousness.

"Just wanted to bring you here." was all he said. When you got closer to the end of the dock, you finally saw what was set up. On the floor was a giant heart made out of rose petals, and in the center, were the words 'I'm Sorry'.

"And last but not least" you turned to Zach who had a rose in his hand and was reaching out to give it to you. You look at it suspiciously, already knowing who was up to this. You didn't want to take it. You wanted to rip it apart if you were being honest. But before you could react negatively, you all of a sudden see all of the boys appear in your line of sight, minus Caleb. Each holding a rose in their hand.

"Take the damn rose Y/n." Zach finally said as you stood staring at it for a moment too long. You took it from him, apprehensively accepting the rose. Then next was Corbin, then Kc, Sincere, Carl, Dylan, Gal, and then last but not least Bryce. Aside from the final rose, you also notice he had an envelope in his hand.

"Why are you guys doing this?" you asked him, desperate for an answer. Your emotions are becoming hay wired. This was becoming overwhelming.

"Y/n, we all know he fucked up. But it's important that he realizes that and is trying to make things right." he started off. Your eyes roll automatically, not wanting to accept his answer. But Bryce continued on, not letting that stop him from continuing.

"But it takes a real man to own up to what he did and to try and prove that he is sorry for his actions." he finished. You stared at the now bundle of roses in your hand and the envelope that was addressed to you.

"You don't have to read it right now, that can be on your own time." he told you. You looked around the area, taking in what he did. You were confused. Your heart still hurt and was broken from what he did, and yet, a tiny, tiny, part of it was slightly open as you stared at the set up.

"I don't know what to do Bryce." You whispered helplessly, begging for him to help you figure out the answer.

"Yes, you do Y/n. You just need time to figure out what it is exactly you want." he told you and left it at that. He gave you a tight hug which you really needed at the moment. He left you alone, and you stood there on the dock for a good while, staring at the words on the floor, the roses in your hand and the envelope.

Caleb watched you from the top of the balcony, hidden from you, because he knew that if you saw him, you would throw everything away and not give his gesture another minute of your time. He could see you staring at the envelope intensely, he wanted you to open and read it so badly.

But you didn't. You stared at it for a while longer, before setting the roses down on the floor. Caleb's face began to sink in sadness. But a little bit of hope flickered in his eyes as he watched you at least walk away from the dock with the envelope still in your hand.

'That's a start..'

*Middle of the night*

You couldn't sleep.

Throughout the night, you were constantly tossing and turning. Your mind is not able to shut down and put you in that deep sleep. Finally, after giving up on trying to sleep, you quietly sneak out of bed, careful not to wake the others as you make your way down to the villa floor. Needing to be in the fresh air.

You made your way to one of the sun beds, lying down with your hoodie and sweats on since it could get chilly at night in Fiji and just stared at the sky.

So much was happening right now. You were stuck emotionally and mentally. There was no way you were going to forgive Caleb easily for what he did. You weren't even sure if you could. What he did was completely unforgivable.

But then why is your heart not closing him out completely?

Why is it that you still are allowing a tiny piece of him to stay within you?

You were starting to get a headache. You reached down to adjust your socks on your feet, and that's when you suddenly heard a voice that made you freeze.

"Can't sleep either?" you could hear the exhaustion in his voice. Immediately your body tensed and your guard went up. You didn't want to look up and come face to face with him. You couldn't trust yourself to do so considering your reaction could go two different ways.

Caleb knew you weren't going to speak right away, so he continued. "I can't sleep either." he mumbled, his hands digging into his pockets as a source of comfort.

"It's been hard to go to sleep the past couple of days." he said. Trying to find a way to get through the awkward silence. It was still quiet, and just when he was about to speak again, you finally spoke.

"I'm not sure why when you have Jaiden in your bed next to you." you said coldly, still not looking at him.

"I deserve that..." he said, and you continued to look anywhere but him.

"But Jaiden isn't you." he whispered. It was low, but you still heard it. You finally gathered the courage to look at him. Your face is neither happy nor upset, but stoic.

"Don't, Caleb." was all you answered. You didn't want to do this right now. So, you got up from the sun bed and began to walk away.

"Why didn't you read the letter Y/n?" he asked. His voice was slightly raised so he could make sure that you heard him. You paused in your steps, your eyes staring at the stairs that led to the rooms. You could hear him getting closer. So close, that you could feel his body heat directly behind you. Almost touching you.

"Why didn't you read the letter?" he asked again, only this time he let his emotions show as the pain in his voice became apparent. If he wanted to talk, fine, but you were going to have this conversation the way you wanted to have it.

"Because I'm not ready to read it yet." You said, finally looking at him in the eyes after what felt like months. Caleb was basically starved at not being able to see you or even talk to you. And although this was not how he wanted this conversation to go, he was desperate to have any kind of conversation with you even if it meant you would speak to him out of anger.

"I don't want to read it right now. Because I'm not ready to forgive you." you told him word for word. And although it hurt him so much, he knew that this was only a partial treatment that he deserved. He deserved worse treatment from you.

"What can I do to make you forgive me?" he asked pleadingly, his eyes trying to find yours again as you head flicked your head down due to your emotions starting to get the best of you.

"I don't want us to end like this Y/n. I don't want us to end at all." his voice slightly breaking just at the thought. "You should've thought of that before you brought her in here." you whispered back to him, your eyes still staring at your feet.

"You think I don't fucking know that!" he said, his emotions now getting the best of him as he laid it all out on the table.

"I know I fucked up Y/n. I fucked up so fucking bad, and I'm a moron. It shouldn't have taken me bringing her to realize that at the end that I still want to be with you." His voice finally broke, and when you finally looked up, you saw how much this truly affected him.

The disheveled hair, the bags under his eyes, but most importantly, the tears that began to fall. Caleb was crying. And he was crying in front of you, begging you for your forgiveness.

"Please don't do this right now Caleb." you begged, your voice becoming heavy, as you knew you were going to start crying as well.

"I don't know what else to do Y/n." his voice breaking down as he tried to maintain what was left of his composure.

"I can't let you go. I don't want to let you go. I know I fucked up, and I want to prove to you that I will do anything to earn your forgiveness." He explained as the tears continued to stream past his cheeks. You couldn't take it anymore, your own tears starting to shed.

"I can't do this right now Caleb please." You cried softly, your hands moving up to hide your face. As you turned to walk away, you suddenly felt him turn you back around gently. Caleb couldn't let you leave, not now, not when you were finally telling him how you felt.

"Y/n please, tell me what I can do. Tell me that this is fixable." He cried. Your own sobs mixing with his as that was all you could do. Just cry and cry and cry. "Please Y/n.." he begged, his knees hitting the floor and his arms wrapping around your waist to where he was not at eye level with you.

"Please let me fix this. Please tell me that one day you can forgive me." his hands squeeze your waist as he cried into your stomach. You place your hands on his shoulders, and gently push him away. He stares up at you, seeing the pain in your eyes that was all because of his doing.

"I don't know Caleb." was all you said as you continued to sob.

"I don't know if we can fix this." you finally stated. You slowly pull away from him, and Caleb wants more than anything to pull you back to him, to keep you in his arms forever. He watched as you turned around and walked away, your sobs still heard as you walked up the stairs.

All Caleb could do in that moment was still let his emotions out and cry right there on the floor where you left him.

*Two days later*

Since that night, Caleb has kept his distance from you.

You started to wonder if he was finally going to give up. If he was not going to try and talk to you again. The night after when you woke up, the girls could see how puffy your eyes were, and how exhausted you looked. They had pulled you in the dressing room where you explained what happened.

They understood where you were coming from, but they also acknowledged the fact that Caleb was doing everything in his power to get you back. It only made you more confused. Why your heart couldn't close him out one hundred percent, you weren't sure why.

When you had gone on with the day you didn't even see Caleb at all. He was nowhere in sight. And you weren't lying if you said that didn't make you worry.

Bryce could see your expression as you continued to try and discreetly look for him.

"He's in the speak easy...he's been in there since last night." he told you quietly as he sat with Trinity. You couldn't help but ask,

"Is he okay?" you looked at Bryce who gave you a solemn expression.

"He just needs to be alone right now Y/n. Its the least we can all do."

And flash forward to today and here you were. Still no Caleb in sight. You were starting to become worried, but you wouldn't let this sway you. You still felt the way you felt.

As you were getting ready, you noticed a folded paper on your mirror. You pulled it out of the mirror, your eyes looking around to see if anyone noticed. They didn't.

You opened up the note, recognizing the familiar hand writing.

'I remember when I first saw you, you literally took my breath away. You were so beautiful and I was so excited to get to know you.

I'm not giving up on you.

-C'

Your eyes read the note over and over. The sudden irregular pattern in your heart beat started to palpitate. Your hands closed the note, but only this time, you didn't throw it away. And Trinity immediately noticed that as she stood from the other end of the table, her eyes looking back at Bryce through the crack of the door and giving him a nod.

Bryce signaled back and made his way downstairs, finding Caleb's eyes and giving him a thumbs up.

'There's hope...'

*Couple days later*

Each day, you had gotten several notes from him throughout the entire day. A note in your breakfast plate,

'I remember the day when we had our first kiss, I was so nervous and you could tell. You let out this cute giggle, and since then I have wanted to make you do that everyday'

A note on your mirror.

'Everyday I can't help but look at you and tell myself how beautiful you are. I was so fucking happy when we were coupled up it was the best day of my life.'

A note on the sun bed.

'I remember making you laugh about a childhood memory that I told you about. Since then, I have only wanted to hear your laugh and be the reason for it.'

A note on the dock.

'This is where you told me off, and I was so scared but so proud of you for speaking up. You made me realize in that moment that you were the one person I did not want to lose.'

And then a note on your bed.

'Not to sound creepy, but when you fall asleep, I love staring at you. The way you looked so peaceful, and most importantly, the way you made me feel safe as I got to hold you in my arms made me fall for you even harder.'

You were so confused. You didn't know what to do at this point. While part of your heart was still closed off with Caleb, that tiny part in your heart started to grow.

He was starting to break you down. And the scary thing about it? You weren't upset about it. But that's what made you upset.

Why couldn't you close him out completely? After what he did, why couldn't you just turn the page? How is it that he was finding a way back to your heart?

You needed to talk to someone, and of course you knew just exactly who to pull.

"Help me Trinity." you begged as you both sat in 'Soul ties'.

"I don't know what to do. I'm so confused about what to feel right now about Caleb. And the gestures he continues to do are not helping me have clarity. Please help me." you begged once again, your eyes pleading with her out of frustration.

"What is your head telling you Y/n?" she asked you.

"To not forgive him for what he did." you replied automatically.

"Okay, now what is your heart telling you?" and you paused, you had to be honest with yourself as you reflected.

"My heart is allowing him to come back.....and I don't know why I'm letting it happen." you told her as the frustration in your voice became prevalent.

"Let's be real together Y/n, Caleb fucked up big time for what he did by bringing Jaiden in here. We can all agree with that. But we can also agree on the fact that he is taking accountability for his actions and showing you how sorry he is, right?" you nodded your head in response to her question.

"So, if your heart was completely closed off, then you wouldn't even be entertaining these gestures that he doing and would have shut it down and not let it happen again. But you haven't done that at all. Your heart is not one hundred percent closed off for a reason, and you know exactly why that is Y/n." You stared at her as she spoke to you. It was hitting you now that you finally understood what you meant.

"I....." you started, but you had to pause and take a breath.

"I..love him." you finally whispered out, too afraid to say it out loud cause then it would only solidify what you meant.

"I know you do, but you know that love is all about taking risks and testing the boundaries to see if it can truly be understood between two people. Your connection with Caleb was tested greatly, and if him bringing Jaiden in didn't hurt you at all, then it means you never had those feelings for him in the first place." she explained to you. It made sense with what she said. It was starting to hit you, you loved Caleb.

You loved Caleb.

"Fuck." you muttered, your heart heavy. "I really do love him." you admitted to her, her words sinking in.

"And Y/n," she said as she grabbed a hold of your hand and looked at you.

"We have no fucking doubt that he loves you too." she finished.

*Later that night*

You had looked yourself in the mirror, making sure to check for any imperfections. You were getting ready for the night with the girls. Just like any other night.

As you double checked your appearance, you walked away from the mirror and turned to see Trinity grinning at you.

"You look so beautiful." she complimented you. You smiled and thanked her while doing the same.

"Will you walk with me to go down there?" she asked you. You nodded your head, and you both walked out of the room.

"Is it okay if we go by the dock really quick? Bryce is there and I need to check something with him real quick." she explained to you. You agreed and let her take the lead. When you got there, it became apparent that Bryce was not there.

"I don't see him." you told her, your face scrunched up in confusion.

"What's that?" the gate to the dock was open, and out of curiosity, you couldn't help but walk with her to go see what was happening. When you got to the gate, your eyes suddenly go wide at the sight in front of you.

There were candles everywhere, and with the trail it led you to see a table that was surrounded by more candles and flowers with the beach serving as the background. Then your eyes landed on the figure that stood next to it, Caleb.

You turned around to look at Trinity who only gave you a mischievous smile. You tried to walk your way back up the steps, but she wouldn't let you.

"Turn your ass around, and go to him. I'm not letting my hard work go to waste." was all she said and walked away before closing the gate on you. You were in shock. You couldn't believe she tricked you, and you couldn't believe how gullible you were.

You turned back to look at him. He was dressed in his best pair of jeans, cowboy boots, and a black button up. But most of all, you could see the hope in his eyes, the nervousness and fear of possible rejection. You could just simply walk back up and enter the dock, but you didn't. You just stood there and stared.

Suddenly, he was right in front of you. A shy expression on his face.

"Hi.." he whispered.

"Hi.." you whispered back. Still unsure of whether to listen to your flight or fight mode.

"What is all of this?" you asked him, eyes still scanning the set up. You would be lying if you said this was ugly. But it was absolutely breathtaking.

"I remember you said that you always wanted a dinner date on the beach." he said. Your eyes cut to his, he remembered.

"You remembered that?" you asked him softly.

"I remember everything you tell me." he responded. He held his hand out for you to take.

"Will you please accompany me tonight?" he asked gently, his eyes silently begging for you to say yes. You hesitated, you wanted to run. But then you remembered what Trinity told you. To listen to your heart. So, you placed your hand in his.

"Okay." you answered him. Caleb couldn't help but smile at you, that handsome smile that made you fall for him in an instant.

He kept the date going smoothly, asking you questions he had already asked when you first met. It was a reset. A new start. And you were grateful that he chose to go this route because it would have been awkward to try and discuss events that happened after that night of the recoupling.

You had missed the way he made you laugh, the way he could keep a conversation going about anything and everything. How he would listen to you so intensely to hold onto every word that you spoke.

It was just like the beginning when you first met, and you didn't realize how much you missed this. How much you missed him. You watch as Caleb gets up from his chair and makes his way around, standing in front of you which makes you lean your head back to look up at him.

"Walk with me please?" he asked as he gestured for your hand. You let him take it, and you get up from your chair. He takes you away from the table and leads you towards the beach. He doesn't make you walk too far considering the heels you had on.

He stopped to where you had a perfect view of the ocean. His body directly behind yours as you both just stood in silence and watched the waves gently wash upon the shore.

"It's so peaceful here." you whispered aloud. Not directly talking to him, but you didn't mind if he responded back as if you did. He stayed silent, still letting you talk.

"I wish I could see this more everyday." a gust of wind slightly shook your body and caused you to shiver. He took that as a chance to move closer to you. His body heats you up, his chest to your back. But he didn't do anything else.

"Y/n.." he whispered, his voice soft, almost too quiet to hear. You turn to look at him. "Yes?" you asked him gently. You watched him take a deep breath, and pull something out of his back pocket. You recognized it instantly. It was the envelope he left you that he had yet to open.

"I have something I need to tell you, if that's okay with you?" he asked nervously, his fingers messing with the corners of the envelope. You nodded, afraid to speak at this moment.

You watched as he nervously opened the envelope and pulled out the letter. His hands were slightly shaking and you gave him a small smile of encouragement. He took a deep breath to compose himself, and then started to speak.

"I would be lying if I said that I am not afraid of leaving the villa without you. But the truth is, I'm terrified that this is the only time I will get with you and therefore, I want to be completely honest with you.

I fucked up big time that day at the recoupling. I thought I was making a choice that was sensible, but looking back, I realized how fucking stupid I was." he paused, his eye nervously glancing at you, afraid of your reaction, but you gestured to him to continue.

"That day was one of the worst days that in the end was my fault, because I ended up hurting you deeply. I know I don't deserve your forgiveness whatsoever. But I hope that my efforts and actions since then have proven to you that I am truly sorry for what I did.

I don't expect you to forgive me right away, or whatsoever if that is how you truly feel. But I can't leave this villa without telling you how you make me feel.

Y/n, I have never felt this way before. The way you make my heart beat irregularly just from staring at me, the way you make me smile just from being yourself, to the way you make me feel so safe to be around you.

Everyday that I have spent with you has been a privilege that I will never take for granted. I know I can be a complete idiot at times, and I hope that whenever that happens again that you beat my ass to knock some sense into me." you couldn't help but let out a chuckle which Caleb smiled in response.

"But the one thing I hope for is to never lose you. I came into the villa to find my person, and I know and believe one hundred percent that you are my person. I will do everything in power to prove to you everyday that you are my person. Because at the end of the day, I have grown to love you so very much Y/n. And I don't want to love anyone else but you." Your breath hitched as you listened to those words. He loved you. Caleb loves you. And you love him.

"So, please know that this is my promise to you, and I will dedicate myself to showing you that I truly love you everyday until you can say those words back." he finished reading the letter. Caleb was so nervous. This was it, either you would reject him completely or possibly give him that chance he so badly wanted.

"You love me?" you asked him, your eyes looking at his to make sure that you could tell that he meant it. You need to know.

"I do." he told you, stepping closer to you to where his chest was now touching yours.

"I need to hear you say it." you said quietly. You needed this affirmation otherwise you couldn't get yourself to truly accept it. His hand reached up to touch your cheek. He stared deep into your eyes and you could see the love. He did love you.

"I love you." He stated proudly. "I love you so much." he proclaimed.

"Caleb," you whispered as your heart continued to beat abnormally fast.

"I love you too." you told him. You watched as his eyes widened in response to your words. He couldn't believe them.

"You do?" he asked, the slight insecurity coming to light. Your hand grabbed onto his wrist that was still held to your cheek.

"I love you Caleb." you affirmed boldly.

And then suddenly you felt the impact of his lips slamming onto yours. You responded in the same manner. Both of you wrapping your arms around each other as you kissed.

This was never how you though you meet the love of your life. Not on a damn reality show. But here you both are. It only goes to show you that love can be formed in different ways, and while your story with Caleb was tested heavily, you were both able to overcome it and find each other again.

Because that's what you do when you truly love someone.

THE END

Three long grueling days.

That's how long it has been since the boys entered Casa. Since that night at the fire pit where you and the girls had to endure the mental and emotional torture of watching the boys act up with the new bombshells, you all tried your best to maintain the normalcy.

Keyword 'tried'.

You were practically numb since that night. You had shut down emotionally and the girls could tell immediately that you were not the same Y/n they knew and loved.

The morning after that night at the fire pit, Ariana had walked in to check in on y'all. She had you guys sit down and talk about what y'all's current thoughts were based on what was happening in Casa.

"So, my lovely ladies, how are we feeling about the boys being in Casa Amor right now?" she asked.

Trinity was the first to speak up.

"I think it was bullshit the way they did it. But at this point we can't dwell on it." She responded.

"I'm just ready to see some hot new singles after the bullshit I saw on that screen last night." Kenzie said. With the other girls agreeing with her.

Ariana then looked at you.

"Y/n, how are you feeling hun? I know its been a very emotional day for you and I'm sorry you had to experience this." she said.

You didn't want to answer. You really did not want to. But its not her fault that you were placed in this situation. And after all, this is still a reality show, and even though it came down to the cast having the power to eliminate others, it was also in the hands of America. And you were not ready to go home yet.

"I won't lie to you, I'm very heartbroken right now." You spoke softly.

"I don't really have anything else other than that to say, and that eventually I hope this heartbreak goes away soon. I just want to find happiness with someone who I have a great connection with and at the end chooses me." You ended the conversation with that answer. Not wanting to say anything further. You were grateful that Ariana did not push any further.

"Well, considering everything that went down, I just want to say that I don't think its fair that the boys get to have all the fun. So, with that being said, we have twelve bombshells currently on their way to enter the villa." she said. The girls screamed in excitement, they were waiting for this moment since day one of Casa. They were ready to explore with no shame just like the boys.

"Remember, Love Island is all about making connections. It's possible to have more than one, but there's always that one connection that is stronger than the others. Please make sure that you explore as much as possible, you'll have time to meet them for our villa pool party. At the end, you will decide the six boys that will get to stay and the six boys that will get to stay in the villa." The girls jumped with excitement, screaming their heads off. Although you weren't jumping up and down with excitement, you knew you were going to have to go into this with an open mind.

'If Caleb wants to explore, then I have every right to do the same.'

*Two Days Later*

You tried so hard to find another connection. You spoke to all the bombshells. You kissed them to see if there was any compatibility, you tried everything that you possibly could to try and form another connection. But you simply didn't have one.

You were frustrated. The problem was when you tried to find a connection, Caleb would pop up in the back of your head. And you tried so hard to push him at the back of your mind. But then the memories would come crawling back and take over. You decided right then and there that you had to be honest with yourself and realize that the only connection you had was with Caleb and no one else.

When the bombshells tried to get to know you more, you let yourself open up, but then you couldn't let it go any further.

"I'm really sorry, but I'm going to be honest and tell you that I still have my other connection with Caleb in the back of my head. I don't want to waste your time at all and want to be fair to you." You were grateful that they were understanding at least. But of course it only had you questioning why you couldn't just let go of Caleb.

'After everything he did, I still can't let him go.' you thought.

'How desperate can you be?'

'He's going to bring back someone else, and you know it.'

You needed to go find the girls. You couldn't be alone with these current thoughts right now. As you make your way over to the girls who were sitting in the 'Say Less' area, your phone suddenly pings.

"Oh shit." and other similar phrases were said throughout the villa as everyone waited for you to read the text.

"Islanders, tonight will be a recoupling. The boys will be returning from Casa Amor. Make sure to take this time to think about who it is that you want to couple up with."

"Fuckkkkk, are you fucking serious." Trinity complained.

Everyone was immediately on edge. You on the other hand, could feel yourself starting to panic. It was now hitting you that you were going to see Caleb tonight. A list of multiple scenarios started to play in your head. Enough to give a headache.

'What am I going to do?' you thought desperately. Hoping that something or someone can give you an answer at that moment.

"Come on y'all, let's go get ready, we have a lot to think about." Melanie reasoned with you and the girls. They all stood up and as a group you walked upstairs to the changing room.

"How are you feeling Y/n?" Aniya asked you.

You were currently decided which outfit to wear tonight, the many options becoming a bit difficult to decide.

"I'm okay," you started. Your hand coming up to grab a blue dress that caught your eye. You analyzed it but finished answering Aniya's question.

"I'm not 100%, but I'm okay. Just not sure what to do. I don't have a connection with any of the guys here, although I wish I could. But my heart is not in it. My heart still wants Caleb." you admitted and could feel the tears starting to form.

No. You were not going to cry right now. Not when you just did your makeup as well. You were going to get through tonight.

"So, do you think you're leaning most likely towards staying single?" she asked in return.

"It's the only justifiable and possible thing to do. I'm not going to string one of these boys along when the whole time, I'm going to be thinking about Caleb." Aniya nodded in understanding.

"As much as I want to say to pick one of the guys here, I get where you're coming from. Pick what your heart is telling you, and don't let yourself feel guilty for the choice you make. We can't help who we have feelings for." she finished the conversation and gave you a tight hug which you honestly needed.

You look back at your wardrobe and finally pick a dress to put on.

*At the fire pit*

You were all seated around the fire pit. Ariana was standing in front, and each minute that passed by only had you feeling sick. You were dreading the moment you would be called on to tell Ariana what you were going to do.

'What if he walks in with another girl?'

'What if everything between us was a lie?'

The thoughts were coming at you left and right, trying to take over your thought process. You take a couple of deep breaths to calm yourself. You could do this, and you were going to be okay.

The memory of watching Caleb and Jaiden kissed played in your head. Although looking at them made you sick to your stomach, you took into consideration that he told her that he still did have a connection with you. That he still thought of you and considered you. But then the image of them being in that damn private room only made your heart ache bad.

You were so busy weighing your options that you didn't notice that Trinity was up standing. Getting ready to make the big decision. You all stayed quiet and listened to her reasoning for either pairing up with one of the bombshells or deciding to stay single while potentially reuniting with Bryce.

"I am going to remain single and not pair up with one of these amazing boys. Although they deserve love, this is what my heart was telling me to do." She explained.

"Trinity, you have decided to remain single and loyal to Bryce. If Bryce walks in alone, then you guys will stay coupled up. If he walks in with someone else, then you will be single and vulnerable. Let's see what he decided." Ariana said.

You all watched with anticipation, you hoped that Bryce was going to walk in here alone. Him and Trinity were endgame. If he walked in here with someone else, then everyone, and even America would be shocked.

Suddenly, Bryce walks in and he's alone. Trinity spots him and screams in joy. Everyone smiled and cheered as they realized that they were going to remain a couple. You watch as they hug each other tight and pull each other in for a deep, long kiss.

'Who knows, that may or may not be me.'

When Bryce and Trinity finished talking to Ariana and sat down, you gulped when she turned to face you.

"Y/n, its your turn. Will you please stand up." she directed and gave you a soft smile.

You wiped the sweat that built up on your hands due to nerves away, slowly standing up from the couch.

"How do you feel hun?" Ariana asked, giving you an encouraging smile.

"Nervous as fuck..." was all you could get out at that moment. You could hear the light chuckles that came from everyone else.

"Before Casa, you were coupled up with Caleb. In fact, you were also in the hideaway together the night of and were voted to go in by America. How does that make you feel?" she asked.

It felt like you were being interrogated. The heat from the spotlight was making your skin heat up, and you could feel the fast pace of your heart speeding up.

"It felt nice that America voted for us to be in the hideaway. I think they see something that is very real between me and Caleb, and I hope that it means something and will give me the answers I am looking for." You answered honestly. Then she finally asked the magic question.

"Y/n, the choice is now yours. Would you like to couple up with someone here, or would you like to remain single." You took a deep breath. This was it, and it was now or never, and definitely no chance of going back on your decision.

"I have decided" you started off. The breath getting caught in your throat. You had to pause to get yourself together.

"You can do this Y/n" Trinity whispered from behind you. Encouraging you as much as she could.

"I have decided to remain single. As much as I tried to explore and find connections among these guys, I honestly could not find one. It wouldn't be fair to them to pick them and only lead them on. That's not a position I would ever want to be in for myself and I think these guys would say the same." You finally answered. Your breathing becomes uneven due to the nerves.

"Y/n, you have decided to remain single and loyal to Caleb. If Caleb walks in alone then you will remain a couple. If he walks in with someone else, then you will be single and vulnerable." she stated. All you could do was nod your head. Too scared to say anything else.

"Let's see what Caleb has decided." Those dreadful words were finally said. Your hands hold onto your arms so tight to keep yourself grounded in this moment.

'Please choose me Caleb'

'Prove me wrong'

You begged for a final time. You could hear the footsteps. This was it, now or never.

"Oh fuck." you heard Kenzie gasped. Your body froze when you saw him. Except he wasn't alone. He was walking with Jaiden, and he was holding her hand.

You couldn't breathe anymore, your heart felt like it was being stabbed. This was the worse fucking pain you could have ever felt. You thought him leaving you alone in the hideaway was bad, that watching him kiss Jaiden was terrible, but nothing compared to what you currently felt in this moment. So many emotions hitting you at once, pain, sadness, anger, heartbreak, rage, all of it.

Your eyes stayed watching them, his eyes not meeting anyone but the ground. You could see Jaiden trying to reassure him. They finally made it to Ariana, and after saying their hello's is when he finally locked eyes on you.

You hope he could see the pain in your eyes, the hurt, resentment, and rage. You wanted him to see exactly what he was doing to you.

"Caleb, as you can see, Y/n has decided to remain single. You walked in with Jaiden which means you are now coupled up with her. How do you feel right now?" You could feel everyone's eyes burning into your skin. They were waiting to see what was going to happen. Caleb takes a deep breath and could barely let out a sound. It was like a mumble.

"Speak. Up." you demanded. You were not going to break in front of everyone right now. But you damn well were going to demand some answers.

"Say that shit with your chest." Kayda said aloud.

"I won't lie, I feel very bad right now." he started. He watched you roll your eyes, and could see the way your jaw clenched. He was getting nervous. He knew he was going to need to be extremely careful with his words.

"As much as I loved being coupled with Y/n, I did also have a strong connection with Jaiden, and I felt that it was something that needed to be explored more." he answered.

You were shaking. You wanted to snap so bad, but you knew how that would only make you look in the end. And regardless, America was also watching this, so you were going to do your best maintain your composure.

"Y/n, how do you feel about what Caleb said?" Ariana asked you.

Your hands dropped from holding your stomach. It was no longer nerves that consumed you, but rage.

"I mean it is what it is. I should've known better from the day that I saw him kissing and having a grand time over in Casa." you started.

"It wasn't just all of that." Caleb tried to defend him. But you didn't let him speak anymore.

"Oh no, y'all had a fucking time." you started off coldly. The girls also commenting in your favor since they also saw what happened.

"I should've known better, when I was trying to stay open and go on other dates and explore with these nice guys here, that you were probably going to do some stupid shit like this. I was out here for three days, getting torn up by mosquitoes, constantly thinking of you, and being respectful towards you when I could've kissed them too but I fucking didn't. Should've known that once you could get your dick wet with the first girl you see that you would fold like that. Dry humping and everything." you vulgarly gestured and reenacted the moment you saw him and Jaiden making out and the way he moved her hips.

Everyone gasped. They couldn't believe what they were seeing and hearing from you. You have never acted like this or displayed yourself in a way like this. They didn't know whether they should be scared or worried for you or Caleb.

"I know you're hurt, and I'm sorry about that, but I did have you in the back of my mind. I thought of you everyday." He tried to reason.

"Oh shit." You heard Sincere gasp from the other side of the fire pit. Everyone could see you flipping him off as clear as day. Both fingers were in the air, pointed right at him.

"You clearly didn't think of me at all the moment you pulled that shit in the bed with her. But it is what it is." You finished.

"Caleb and Jaiden, please go have a seat with the others." Ariana said as it was time to move on. Trinity grabbed your hand and sat you down, immediately comforting you. The tears at the edge of your eyes. You could feel his eyes on you, but you didn't want to look at him. You couldn't anymore.

'I'm so fucking stupid to think that he would choose me.'

*The next day*

You were numb.

Your heart hurts so bad. You couldn't even sleep in the room like everyone else. You had slept in soul ties because you didn't want to look at him with her. You cried all night. The only source of comfort that night was your pillow. You were an emotional wreck.

When you got into the dressing room to get ready with the girls, you didn't even speak. You didn't want to talk at all. You just wanted to get ready and then be done with the day. If you could be alone you would.

Suddenly, the guys started coming in, bringing breakfasts to you and the girls. You saw him from the corner of your eye, he had two plates in his hands. He stopped at Jaiden first and gave her the plate. You could hear her thank him and hear the kiss that she left on him, whether it was his cheek or on his lips, it didn't matter. Then he started to make his way towards you.

"Don't come over here." you warned him. You did not want him near you whatsoever.

"I don't want it." you stated firmly, still trying to cover the swelling under your eyes from crying so much last night. Just as he was about to place the plate of food in front of you, you moved your hand so that it was under it and pushed it towards him. The food ultimately landed on his chest and the floor. The girls gasped in shock.

"I told you I don't want it." You state a final time. Not paying attention to his reaction and moving on with your routine. You could hear him picking up the food from the floor. You could hear the whispers from the girls, and quite frankly you didn't care what they thought. You were not going to put up with this.

When he finally walked away is when you felt like you could breathe again.

*Throughout the day*

You could see them talking and hanging out. The way he would smile at her, get close to her. It hurt so much watching this. The way he looked at her, was how he would look at you.

You stayed up on the balcony, away from everyone else. Not wanting to be bothered by anyone. You just wanted to be alone. You needed to be alone in order to come to terms with everything that happened. But deep down, you couldn't come to terms with it. This was killing you emotionally.

The sunglasses you had on hid the tears falling from your eyes.

'Why me? What is so wrong about me that I can't be loved the right way.'

You could hear them right below you, talking and laughing, like nothing happened last night. Did he not feel bad for anything that has happened? Was it all a lie? Did he truly only want to sleep with you?

These questions hurt so bad as they continued to pop up in your head. You couldn't stand hearing how happy they were with each other, so, you got up and walked away, trying your best to remain quiet as the sobs quietly broke through from your mouth.

*Later that night*

It was time to get dressed to go down and be with everyone in the villa. Although you didn't want to, you knew it would look bad if you didn't, and you did not want to give anyone the satisfaction that this was breaking you. Even though deep down it was.

"You can do this." you whispered to yourself. You chanted that in your head a couple more times to help you gain the confidence you needed.

"Don't let him get to you babe, you're strong as fuck, and you're not about to let him ruin your night." Trinity said from behind you, wanting to be with you in your time of need. You appreciated her so much for this. She truly was a great friend.

She grabbed your hand, and you both exited the room and walked down the stairs to get to the main area of the villa. You could see everyone surrounding the kitchen counter. You did your best to avoid seeing them.

Trinity made you stay with her the whole time, making sure that you were comfortable even though deep down, you just wanted to hide. As you were listening to her and Aniya talk, you suddenly felt a tap on your shoulder. It was Jaiden.

"Y/n, is it okay if I pull you for a quick chat?" she asked softly. You looked back at the girls who nodded their heads. Encouraging you to go talk to her. You turned back to look at her and nodded your head, signalling to go over to 'say less'.

The silence was a bit awkward. You didn't know what to say or if you should start the conversation, but luckily Jaiden decided to make the first move.

"I just wanted to say, I'm really sorry for how things went down last night with Caleb. If I was in your shows, I know I would react the same way, and I just hope that we can somehow get past this and get to know each other more." As much as the petty side of you wanted to scoff and roll your eyes at her words, you had to admit that this wasn't her fault. In the end this was all Caleb's doing.

"Can I ask you something?" you whispered, afraid that your voice would crack if you spoke normally. She gave you a small smile and said yes.

"Did Caleb ever say anything about me or our connection?" you finally bit the bullet and asked her. You needed to know this. Your heart needs to know this.

"He talked about you all the time." she admitted.

"He would always say how his connection with you was very strong and that it would take a lot to top it." She started explaining. You didn't react yet, you wanted to hear everything. You needed to hear everything.

"From the time he was there up until the night of the recoupling, he would always mention you. You were always on his mind everyday." you scoffed and sat yourself up straight.

"yeah right.." you mumbled.

"It's true, he thought of you and spoke of you everyday." she stated.

"No offense to you, then why did he make the choice he did." you asked.

"He told me that he wanted to continue to pursue the connection and test it to see which one was stronger." Now you were pissed. After everything, your connection with him was suddenly not strong enough.

"Thank you for telling me this, but I need to go do something right now." you finished the conversation and got up from your seat. You walked back over to the kitchen, your eyes scanning the area.

"Y/n, you okay?" Trinity asked, she could see that you were on a mission for something. You looked around more, ignoring her question until you look up and see Caleb and Sincere sitting across from each other at the dock, talking. You marched way over there.

Once he was in your line of sight, the sound of your heels stomping on the floor caused both boys to look up and turn to you.

"You are so fucking disrespectful you know that." you spat at him. Your rage finally starts to get the best of you. His eyes widened when he realized that you were talking to him and he got up from his seat quickly.

"Sincere, I don't know who you're looking at, but you better leave right now." you warned him. He didn't waste a single second and scurried off. It was just you and Caleb now, and you were ready.

"You're such a piece of shit." you told him rudely, your hands enclosed as fists by your sides.

"We can talk about why I'm a piece of shit." he said calmly. It only angered you more.

"Was it fucking worth it Caleb? Was it all fucking worth it?!" you looked at him with disgust.

Caleb couldn't blame you for how you were talking to him. He fucked up so bad. He fuck up the relationship with you. He felt like a piece of shit.

"No, it wasn't worth it." he replied back. He was so ashamed of himself. But you didn't care. You could give a fuck about he felt, but he sure was going to know how you felt.

"Why the fuck did you do it then? How could you leave me alone that night after what we did, how could you fucking bring her back after what has happened between us?" your voice so loud that you could hear the other stop talking from down below. They could hear everything you were saying.

"I wanted to test our connection." he started off, you scoffed at his answer.

"I told her that my connection is still strong with you, that it's going to be hard to top it." you cut him off.

"That's fucking bullshit and you know it. You are so fucking disrespectful. To watch you fucking kiss her, not even after twenty four hours of being with me in the hideaway and you fucking folded like a fucking pretzel." you spat.

"Y/n, I still told her though that I thought of you everyday. There wasn't a day where I didn't speak about you." he spoke as he got closer to you. He wanted you to understand so badly. He could see how his words were only doing more harm than good.

"Fuck you Caleb." you told him, the tears finally falling so he could see how hurt you truly were.

"You're fucked up, you're so fucked up, you were not respectful in the slightest." you cried out.

"Have some fucking respect, cause I told you what the fuck!" your hand gesturing at him. A cry escaped from your throat and you tried to walk away before you broke.

"Y/n, wait." Caleb had tried to stop you by grabbing your arm.

"Don't fucking touch me." you yelled at him. Caleb was shocked. He had never seen you like this, and he was starting to realize how bad his actions truly affected you.

"You were not even respectful in the slightest, the fucking slightest Caleb. There was no type of consideration for me or else you would not have done half of the shit you did." you told him.

"Y/n, I told her that I felt that I was disrespecting you-" he started.

"And kept doing it?" you cut him off. You didn't care how rude it was. Just like he didn't care about your feelings.

"So how bad did you really feel, cause you kept doing it and doing it, and then you fucking brought her back to rub that shit in my fucking face."

"I wasn't trying to rub shit in your face Y/n." he spoke over you, trying to get his words out.

"Maybe not intentionally, but you did it. You brought her back so stand on what the hell you did." you told him. You couldn't take it anymore. You broke at that moment. The sobs leave your body and out in the open.

"Did that night not mean anything to you?" You finally asked. "Am I just a fucking joke to you? Is that all you wanted from me?" you questioned him, trying to control your cries so you could get your answers.

Caleb's heart broke right then and there, he should've known better. After that night, he should have done better, because at the end of the day that night meant everything to him. He hated that he was the cause of your pain, the cause of your heartbreak. He never wanted to be the cause of this, and this was the worse pain unimaginable.

"It meant everything." he said softly, trying to keep control of emotions. "That night meant every fucking thing to me Y/n." he wanted you to believe him, and you wanted to as well, but his actions showed otherwise.

"It didn't take much for you to do what you did Caleb. It didn't take shit." you told him, the sobs are still leaving your body. He hated seeing you cry, he hated being the cause of you crying. He felt so fucking disgusted with himself in this moment. He now realizes what he did to you.

"You promised me, and you couldn't even keep it. I thought of you every step of the way, had you in the back of my mind every fucking day..." you started, wiping away some of the excess tears, but they still kept coming.

"Y/n please, just let me explain." but you shook your head.

"No Caleb. I'm fucking done." you finally said. You looked at him in the eye one last time, hoping he could see how much he broke you. You walked past him, headed towards the stairs.

"Y/n!" he called after you. "We can't just end it like this." he yelled out to you, trying to get you to listen. But you continued walking.

"You ended it when you walked in here with her."

The morning sun signaled that it was time to wake up. You took that moment to stretch your limbs out. The thought of the previous night came into motion. The intimate experience you had with Caleb was what you would describe as unforgettable and amazing.

The way his touch made your body react, the way his kisses had you wanting more, the endless whispers of adoration in your ear. How could you not smile at that? You peak over to glance at Caleb only to see that he's not there.

Your eyebrows furrowed. You sat up from the bed, making sure to cover your body with the sheets since you were still naked. You pressed your hand in the empty spot next to you.

It was cold. You looked around the room and saw his clothes were gone. There was absolutely no trace of him. Suddenly, your phone dinged, signalling that you got a text. You reached over to grab it and quickly look to see what was messaged to you.

'The boys are now in Casa Amor. Please head back to villa to join the girls.'

The blood escaped from your cheeks, your hand began to shake, and you could feel your heart racing at a very unhealthy pace.

'No, no, no, this can't be happening. Not now.'

The tears couldn't help but fall past your cheek. He didn't even tell you he was leaving. He didn't say a single word. Not even a note.

You quickly gather your clothes to put them on. You made sure you had everything before walking out of the bedroom. You see the hot tub where the conversation you guys that led to you both exploring each other in a special way. You could now only look at it in disgust.

As you exit the hideaway and enter the villa, you see the girls in the kitchen making themselves breakfast. You didn't announce that you were here, you couldn't really speak other than continue to let the tears fall.

"Y/n!" Aniya screamed. The girls looked over and saw you standing there alone. No Caleb in sight. All of their mouths dropped wide open in shock.

"Are you fucking kidding me?!" Kayda screamed.

"He fucking didn't!" Trinity yelled.

"You've gotta be fucking kidding me." Melanie commented.

They all realized what happened now. And to say they were pissed was an understatement. They were all livid for you. You couldn't help but finally breakdown.

Immediately, they rushed to you. Arms holding you so you don't crash. The sobs that came from your throat wrecked through the entire villa. Your arms wrapping around the person closest near you. You needed to be grounded in that moment.

"I'm so fucking sorry Y/n." You heard Kenzie say as she held you tight in her arms.

"W-why did t-they have t-to fucking do that?!" you sobbed out. Your heart hurt so fucking bad. You never felt this much emotional pain before. It finally hit you that Caleb was now in Casa with the other boys and would be there for three to four days. Right after you guys just had sex.

"I fucking hate this shit! You don't deserve this Y/n." Trinity said as they all continued to comfort you. The girls couldn't believe that this happened to you. Especially, in this specific manner.

"A-after what we did l-last night. And, and he c-couldn't even tell m-me." You brokenly cried out, clutching onto Kenzie tighter.

"Fuck Casa!" you finally let out. Fuck Casa, fuck the island, fuck the game, and most importantly, fuck everything that just happened between you and Caleb.

Because if he wanted to, he would have said something.

The girls hug you a minute longer, deciding that you needed to go shower to wash this away. Not that it really could, but it could at least wash away the grossness you feel on your body at that moment. They all walk you up the stairs and into the room.

*Later that night*

There was no challenge planned that night. No big event that would cause you to dress up. So, you and the girls kept it lazy and comfortable. The sweatpants and hoodies that you had covered every inch of your skin besides your face. You didn't want your skin on display at all after what happened.

After showering earlier this morning, the girls did their best to keep you company. They let you vent and get your feelings out. It was helpful, but it still didn't help the deep puncture in your heart.

'Why would he just leave like that?' you thought.

'He promised..'

'What if he finds someone better?'

Your intrusive thoughts prodded your brain. And no one could blame you considering what happened to you. The girls still could not fathom why this had to happen to you the night you and Caleb went to the hideaway. It was unfair and disrespectful.

You and the girls sat on your beds, waiting to go down to the kitchen together to make something for dinner. You weren't sure if you were going to be able to tolerate anything right now.

*ping*

"Are you fucking serious?" Kenzie stated as her phone signaled that she got a text. The girls gathered around her and waited for her to speak.

'Girls, please come downstairs to the firepit.'

"What the fuck do they want us to do now?" Trinity asked from beside you. Still comforting you from today's events.

"I don't know, but lets just go and get this over with." Aniya said.

Trinity grabbed your hand and helped lead you down the stairs. Once all of you were seated at the firepit, you noticed a big screen in front of you.

'When did that get there?' you wondered.

"Not the fucking tv screen again!" the girls simultaneously complained. You looked at them in confusion, not sure of what was happening or what was going to happen.

"Last night while you and Caleb were in the hideaway we were getting ready for dinner, we walked out and didn't see any of the guys here. Turns out they all went to Casa Amor and they all got to know the new bombshells very fucking well." Trinity explained as she continued to comfort you by placing her hand on your shoulder to give it reassuring squeezes.

Your body is stiffened. Does this mean what you think it does? Did Caleb meet those girls too? And get to know them?

Your palms started to get sweaty and your foot started to bounce up and down due to the anxiety that took over you. Suddenly, the screen turned on. All of the girls got quiet, waiting in anticipation to see what was going to be displayed.

You look at the words written on the TV.

"Currently happening in Casa Amor"

"Here we fucking go again." Kenzie groaned. You had a feeling this was about to get very ugly.

The screen changes, and you see the boys. Most importantly, you see Caleb. He doesn't even look like he was having any guilt or regret in his face. You could feel the unhealthy pace of your heart begin to beat. You were so fucking scared of what you were going to see.

"Fucking bitch ass Corbin, fuck him!" Kenzie yelled out. The screen shows Corbin and one of the bombshells named Parmida in a heated kiss. His hands boldly touching her everywhere and even going down to her ass to squeeze it. Your mouth dropped.

'Is this what they had to deal with last night?' you asked yourself.

Then the screen switched over to KC who was currently in a private room somewhere in Casa with one of the girls named Tierra. The way they endlessly flirted with each other was something, but when he climbed himself on top of Tierra and made out with her in a very provocative way is what got you.

You could see Aniya trying to hold in her emotions. She was pissed and rightfully so. How the hell was KC was going to say one thing and then do this?

"He's so fucking nasty." she muttered, doing her best to maintain that composure.

And it continued on. You all had to watch the boys explore these new bombshells. And boy, did they fucking explore. They were unapologetic about their actions. Just before you could pose a complete thought, your eyes widened when you see Caleb's face pop up on the screen.

"Oh fuck, please God. Please God, fucking shit." Kayda begged the universe. You could feel all eyes on you from the girls, but all you could do was watch the screen.

It shows Caleb and a blonde girl named Jaiden. She was pretty. Gorgeous even. They were sitting next to each other on the couch. You took note of how close they were to each other.

Did he sit close to her willingly? Or was she the one that did that? Why the hell did she have to be pretty? You couldn't help it. These thoughts were racing so bad that you were starting to give yourself a headache.

'Please don't Caleb.' you begged silently.

Their mics turned on and you watched the screen intently.

"What do you think about Casa Amor so far?" Jaiden asked him, her smile on display.

"It's something, I'm not sure if its a good or a bad thing yet." He answered her. Your hand gripped Trinity's tight.

"What the fuck is that supposed to mean?" Kayda asked for you out loud to the screen. Surely he remembered what happened the night before. The conversation, the promise, the shared vulnerability of openness and vulnerability.

"Do you currently have a connection right now back in the villa?" You held your breath.

"I do." he said. You let the breath escape.

"We actually were in the hideaway just last night together, and that's when I got the text that I had to come to Casa." he told her, his eyes suddenly shifting away from her and down at his lap.

Did he suddenly feel some remorse?

"You got a text and fucking left her in the middle of the night alone! What the fuck Caleb!" Melanie screamed at the screen.

"How did she take you having to leave?" Jaiden pressed on. You watch him hesitate and take a deep breath.

"She didn't know I left. The text said I couldn't wake her up, that I had to come straight here immediately." he explained.

"That's some fucked up shit!" Kenzie exclaimed.

It was beyond fucked up. He wasn't allowed to tell you? Was this the drama that the producers wanted to give for America to enjoy? It was a sick joke. Your heart was starting to break even more.

"So, then how do you feel being here now? Talking to me?" She asked suggestively while moving her hand closer to his that was currently placed on his lap.

"I'm not sure honestly, but I know that we are all here to explore in order to find connections. So, if I were stuck here for the next three to four days, then I need to see if there is a potential connection here, I guess." he said.

The blood in your veins went cold, the warmth in your cheeks vanished. Your hand was gripping Trinity's so hard to the point that you were shocked she wasn't whining in pain.

"Well who knows," Jaiden started and leaned closer to him.

"Maybe you'll have a new connection with me." she stated confidently. You watched as they kept the eye contact, and then she did it. She leaned in and kissed him. The worst part? He didn't push her away or pull away.

He was kissing her.

"Are fucking serious Caleb!"

"Mother fucking bitch!"

"Sweetheart my fucking ass!"

Was screamed in simultaneous rage. You couldn't even speak. The tears streaming down your face so fast that there was no point in even wiping them away. Your heart was officially broken. Caleb lied to you.

'He broke his promise.'

You continue to torture yourself as you watched them still kiss. Her hands moved to wrap around his neck, while you watched him place his hands on your waist and pull her close.

The girls moved closer to you, trying their best to comfort you.

"I am so fucking sorry, Y/n. You don't deserve this shit at all." Melanie said.

Suddenly the screen changed, there were different words now.

*Currently happening right now*

"Wait...so this was earlier today?" Jen asked everyone.

"I guess so." Aniya answered.

The screen changed, and the sob finally broke from your mouth. Your hands shake as you tried to hide your face. You didn't want your tears to be on display for America to see.

You watched as Corbin and Jaiden make out. Except they're on a bed, and except that they're alone. And she's on top of him. You watch the way they kiss in sync. His hands on her hips, moving her, guiding her.

"Turn it off." you cried out. You couldn't take it anymore, you didn't want to watch it anymore.

"Turn it the fuck off!" you screamed in heartbreak and rage. You walked away. You couldn't bear to see it. But now that you have seen it, it was going to be embedded in your brain for a long time.

You run up the stairs and into the room, landing on what was once yours and Caleb's bed. And you lied there and just cried. You cried your heart out to the point where you could barely catch your breath.

Your hands gripped the pillow tightly as you continued to sob because of the pain you were currently feeling in your heart.

'Why did he lie to me?'

'Why am I not good enough?'

'What is so bad about me?'

Your tears continued to stain the pillow. This pain was unlike anything you have ever felt. And America got to see your heart get broken in the worst way possible.

"It's going to be okay, Y/n." you felt Trinity's hand on your back as she whispered. Trying her best to console you.

"Why am I never enough Trinity?" you finally asked. The one question that has haunted you for so long.

"Why c-can't I just ever be e-enough for someone?" the sobs worsening as you moved your body to look at her. She could see how broken you were in this moment.

Your face pale, eyes swollen and puffy, tears constantly streaming down, and worse of all, you looked so broken.

"You are enough Y/n." she stated firmly. But it wasn't enough for you, and she knew that.

"But I wasn't enough for him." you sobbed.

Trinity didn't know what else to say. She couldn't say anything else because in the end, you had a point. All she could do was move herself to lie next to you and hug you close as you continued to sob in your pillow. It smelled just like Caleb.

You could only sob harder at this point.

*At Casa*

"Who are you feeling right now?" Sincere asked him as they both sat down next to each other, away from everyone else.

"Jaiden is really nice, we've been talking." Caleb answered. Sincere looked at him and made a face.

"We kissed." Caleb finally admitted. Sincere still looked at him with the 'bullshit' face.

"Fine, we made out too, but that's it." he told him. He didn't want to take things too far. Not after what happened between you and him last night.

He was so worried about you. to leave in the middle of the night and not be able to tell her killed him. And as much as it was a long shot, he hoped that she could have a little bit of understanding.

"So, as of right now, who are you connecting with more? Jaiden or Y/n? And I mean, you literally came to Casa from the damn hideaway bro." He told him. Sincere was in no position to preach after his past actions with Sol and Melanie. But he could at least try and help Caleb navigate his thoughts and feelings.

"I would say it's Y/n. But for the sake of the game, I am not going to be closed here in Casa. We need to explore and test the connections we have in order to see which is strongest." Caleb explained honestly.

"But you slept with Y/n. Not slept, SLEPT with her. Imagine how she currently feels right now?" Sincere said. Caleb would be a fool if he didn't acknowledge that. It was the best night of his life. It was something he never wanted to forget.

And then he thought of how you felt when you woke up to him being gone. Just the thought of hurting you felt bad enough, but hurting you emotionally was something he would never ever want to do to you. He hates that it had to be that way.

"And it was the best night I ever had...but I'm here. We're stuck here for three-four days. I'm not saying I need to sleep with another girl. But I should be testing my connection with Y/n. I'm sure when the new bombshells arrive, she'll be getting to know them as well." He would be lying if he said he was okay with that. But he knew that wasn't how life and reality works.

"Just be careful man." Sincere finally said after a moment of silence. "I understand with wanting to explore other people, but remember what you have done with Y/n. That shit will not go away." he finished.

Caleb sat there and let Sincere's advice settle in. The last thing he would ever want is to be the cause of your pain. He doesn't know what you're currently feeling or thinking. He's not even sure if you'll give him the time of day once you all are back in the villa.

'I'm so sorry Y/n' he thought as the previous night in the hideaway played in his head. The happiest he's ever been.

"Please forgive me." he spoke aloud. Somehow hoping that the universe would allow you to hear him.

"I got a text!" Kayda screamed to villa. Everyone started to cheer as they all gathered around her.

'Islanders, it is now time to send a couple to the hideaway.' Immediately screams and chants were given. It was time to decide who to send, but before a decision could be made, another text was sent, this time to you. Everyone was anxious now, what would this text say?

'Instead of the Islanders getting to choose who gets to go to the hideaway, the choice has been given to America.' you read aloud.

This changed everything. Instead of you guys picking, America got to pick, and you wondered what they had up their sleeve considering the viewers liked to be unpredictable. Another text was sent, but this time to Caleb.

"For fucks sake, just tell us already!" Trinity yelled out impatiently jumping up and down. You watched as Caleb opened his phone to read the text. He paused for a second, did a double take and then spoke the infamous words.

"Caleb and Y/n, you have been picked by America to go to the hideaway. Please get your things to leave right now."

You couldn't even get a reaction out before the girls were jumping on you and screaming their heads off. You couldn't believe this was happening. America was actually sending you to the hideaway. With Caleb.

"Oh fuck.." you started. It was hitting you now. You were about to be sent to the damn hideaway. With Caleb. And everyone knows what happens in the hideaway.

The girls could see the panic in your face and immediately rushed you to the dressing room. As you walked up the steps, you heard Caleb shout,

"Don't take too long with my girl. We got some exploring to do together." That cheeky mother fucker.

*In the dressing room*

You nervously checked yourself out in the mirror. Making sure that nothing was out of place. You wanted everything to be as perfect as possible. Thank God the girls helped you get ready, otherwise you would have been a complete mess.

"Wow.." you gasped in shock before turning around. You didn't even see him come in.

Caleb was speechless when he saw you. Your skin was glowing, under the light, your hair was down and fluffed out, and the lingerie you had on simply had him speechless. To him you were breathtaking.

"Do I look okay?" you asked him nervously, your fingers unintentionally grabbing at your thigh stocking. You could see him taking you in, absorbing this moment, and you didn't miss the way his eyes darkened when he looked back up to make eye contact with you.

"You are absolutely amazing" He spoke confidently. He held his hand out for you to take. This was it, it was time to go. He gave you a reassuring smile and pulled you closer to him once you gave him your hand.

His lips smacked onto yours. It was intense, it was steamy, and it had you ready to enter the hideaway.

"Lead the way cowboy"

*Before you entered the hideaway*

As you both walked down to the floor of the villa, you could already hear the chant of the entire crew as they cheered for you both.

"Oh shit! It's time to play,

Caleb and Y/N in the hideaway!" the boys chanted.

You couldn't help but laugh. While the hideaway was a big deal and you were internally freaking out, you were glad to get some relief before you both walked in.

"Eat that kitty,

Eat that kitty,

Eat that kitty in the hideaway!" the girls sang.

Before you could say anything Caleb scooped you up in his arms. He had your legs wrapped around his waist while his hands held you up which were unapologetically on your ass. To play along and feed into the guys excitement, you lifted up your arm and swung it in a circle.

You wouldn't be surprised if people living outside the villa could hear the screams.

"I'm ready to ride my cowboy tonight y'all!"

'You definitely will be' Caleb thought to himself before finally taking them both to the hideaway.

*In the hideaway*

You had both taken the time to go with the flow. When it was time to go to the room, then it was time, but you both didn't want to rush this moment.

"Did you honestly think we would get to this moment?" you asked him as you both sat at the edge of the hot tub while simultaneously feeding each other the chocolate strawberries that were made for you guys.

"I had no doubt we would get to this moment" he replied confidently as he wiped some chocolate off the side of your lip with his thumb gently. "What about you?" he asked, his hand now on your thigh and making sure to give you a reassuring squeeze.

"I was scared at first that we wouldn't make it in all transparency." You told him gently, almost in a whisper because you didn't want this to change the moment you two were currently having.

"Can I ask why?" he wanted to know. He wanted to see why you thought that so he could understand.

"Because when we first got coupled up together, I remember watching you put so much effort into Kenzie. And although I wanted to get to know you before, I could see that you were all in and I didn't want to get myself hurt in the process." you started off.

If there was any time to be vulnerable before things got further, it would be right now, at this moment. And although being vulnerable was something you hated to show, you and Caleb both knew how important it was to express these thoughts and feelings before you both explored each other intimately.

"But then when Kenzie didn't write you that letter and I saw how heartbroken you were, I didn't think you were going to be able to come back from that and that you were going to close yourself off for good." You explained carefully to him. You don't know what he was currently thinking right now at this moment. But you continued on.

"And then right after we got coupled up, I see you pulling Kayda for chats, and honestly it hurt. I thought this was over before it could even start because I clearly wasn't what you wanted or were looking for." you finished.

Now that you got it off your chest, it felt like you could finally breathe. you were glad to have gotten your feelings out, but you were scared of his reaction. Would this ruin the night for you both? What felt like hours of silence, finally ended when Caleb reached his hand up to your cheek to get your attention.

"I have no excuse for how I handled that." he started as his thumb began to stroke your cheek. Caleb was nervous, he didn't want to explain things in a way that could be interpreted differently. But he wanted to be honest as well.

"Yes, I was hurt by what Kenzie did, and I did try and see if I had a connection with Kayda and explore that." he paused for a second to gather his thoughts. You could see the nerves on his face that he didn't want to say the wrong thing. So you reached your hand up to his that was currently placed on your cheek and squeezed his wrist to signal that it was okay. That he could be honest with his feelings.

"But at the time, I was blind to see what was right in front of me. I didn't realize that I had you until a while ago." he explained to you.

"What made you finally realize that you wanted me?" you asked him. He hesitated, but after another gentle squeeze to his wrist for encouragement he continued.

"When I heard you talking to the girls about how you would step aside and let me explore Kayda because you wanted me to be happy. You were being so selfless at the time. And it was something that I completely admired about you from that point on. Although we are all here to find love and do what we have to do to get it, you are still stuck to your morals. You didn't change yourself just for the sake of the game." You didn't know what to say to that. You weren't sure that you could really say anything at all.

Caleb watched as the emotion flickered in your eyes to the point where it looked like you were about to cry. And at that moment, he didn't care about the objective of being in the hideaway. He just wanted to comfort YOU.

"Hey, don't cry please." he whispered as he got closer to you. You could feel his body heat immediately. It was comforting in a way.

"I just honestly didn't think you would see me in that way. I seriously thought I was going to be sent home soon." you confessed to him.

"I wouldn't let you leave. Not then and definitely not now." he stated firmly while looking you in the eye. You could feel your body slowly start to react to the intense eye contact he held with you.

"What about when its time for Casa Amor?" you asked him. You needed to know if there was any slight possibility of him changing his mind. You did not want to waste your time.

"I won't be interested in anyone else that comes in Y/n." he said.

"You say that now." you whispered and looked down, trying to not let your emotions get the best of you.

"And I'm telling you. I'm not interested in anyone else. I only want to be coupled up with you. And I plan on showing you that. But I think the real question is do you want to remain coupled up with me?" he asked.

Of course you still wanted to be coupled up with him. You're not sure that you might have given him any indication that you wanted to be coupled with someone else. But you know what you want.

"I wanted you then Caleb, and I still want you now. I just don't want to get my heart broken if you perhaps change your mind about me."

Caleb couldn't take it anymore and slowly leaned in to kiss you. Unlike other times when it was aggressive and lustful during the challenges, this one was completely different.

It was raw and emotional, and most importantly very real. When you needed to catch your breath, you slowly pulled away. Caleb couldn't help but imagine what you were like in an intimate way. He was ready to explore all of you in every way possible.

"I'm not changing my damn mind about you at all Y/n." he promised. You believed him. Deep down you knew he was telling the truth.

"Do you want to go inside?" you asked him the magic question finally, and in response he couldn't help but to give you his most infamous smile and stand both of you up and lead you to the bedroom of the hideaway.

*In the bedroom of the hideaway*

Your stomach was a ball of nerves once you both walked in. The room was just how Kayda and Zach described it. A giant, comfy bed in the center, red velvet walls, and the infamous 'open if you dare' wardrobe that had all kinds of toys, blindfolds, and other essentials.

'They really weren't kidding about this place' you thought.

Caleb watched as you sat at the edge of the bed, still in your lingerie, and still looking as beautiful as ever. In all honesty, he was ready to devour you.

You watched him take a step closer to you. The eye contact was intense and you could feel that ball of nerves deepen with every second you held the contact. It wasn't until he was directly in front of you that you had to look up at him.

You watch as he bends down on one knee to be at somewhat eye level with you. Since he was tall, he still towered over you slightly. You watched as he trailed his hand from your thigh all the way down to your ankle to give a slight squeeze of comfort and then to your toes.

The breath you were currently taking as he lifted your foot up and started to kiss at the base of your foot was cut off early. Slowly, he took his time making sure to kiss every inch that he could get his mouth on. Your leg was on fire, and you didn't expect to have this feeling just from him kissing your damn leg of all places.

"You're so fucking beautiful, you have no idea" he whispered as he got to your knee. His free hand continued to caress your other thigh as he moved his kisses up higher.

"Caleb..." you whispered breathlessly as his kisses now got to your thigh. He looked from his position, still kissing you, but making sure to look at you. To let you know that he means everything he says.

"You have no idea what you do to me." he whispered to you. Caleb didn't want to rush this moment. He wanted to take his time with you. You deserved to have a great experience, and he wanted to give you that great experience all by himself.

Just when he was about to reach your inner thigh, he pulled away and stood up. You watched as he walked over to the closet filled with toys and such things.

"What are you doing?" you asked him quietly, not wanting to ruin the moment. He stayed silent for a second, before turning around to look at you. He had a blindfold in his hand but you noticed that mischievous glint in his eye.

"Do you trust me?" he asked you as he stood back in front of you staring down. He watched as you nodded your head in response.

"I need to hear you say it, Y/n." he told you. He wanted to be absolutely sure you were okay with this. He didn't want to break your trust at all.

"I trust you." she whispered back to him. He puts the blindfold on you and all of a sudden your vision goes pitch black. The only thing you can sense and feel is the mattress underneath you.

"I got you." Caleb whispered as he guided you to lie completely on the bed.

"I'm going to take very good care of you." he promised.

You gasped as you felt him spread your legs apart. The heightened senses made you much more alert. But it was also exciting. you were ready for whatever it was that Caleb had planned. You could feel him move so that he was placed in between your legs.

The smell of his cologne reached you, signalling he was really close to you now.

"I'm so fucking lucky." he whispered to himself, although you were sure you weren't supposed to hear that, it made you feel happy. It gave you the reassurance that you've been wanting from him.

Caleb took his time admiring you. Even when blindfolded, you were still beautiful. He leaned down so that his face was close to yours. You could feel his breath on your skin which gave you goosebumps.

Suddenly you felt his lips on your forehead, then your nose, then both sides of your cheek, and then finally your lips. Both of you moved in sync as you made out. The kiss was unlike anything you've experienced before. Sure you've made out with plenty of guys, but not like this. This was much more intimate than you ever experienced.

You reached your hands up, one being placed on his shoulder, while the other felt its way up his chest and to his hair. You pulled him as close as you could to you. You wanted to feel all of him at this very moment. And when you take the chance to boldly bite his lip is when he slid his tongue into yours.

This was indescribable. It was everything and more.

Caleb pulled away after a few minutes, which at first made you pout and whine. But he kissed you reassuringly that you would get more.

"I want to taste more of you baby, let me do that please." he whispered to you. His hands caressed every inch that he could get his hands on. He was in fucking heaven. He peppered open mouthed kisses on your neck which you couldn't help but dig your fingernails in his back when he found a certain weak spot. He groaned in response, but its nothing but a little pain that he couldn't handle.

As he makes his way further down, you couldn't help but try to sneak the blindfold off to take a peak. Just before you could even catch somewhat of a glimpse, you gasped at a sudden stinging sensation on your thigh.

"Did I say you could take it off?" Caleb asked you. His thick country accent suddenly became deeper, and the wetness between your legs became more prominent.

"I'm sorry." you whispered to him.

"That's a good girl." he praised you. He couldn't help but look at how your panties were already ruined from your wetness. He grabbed both sides and slowly took them off of you while making sure to kiss the new amount of open skin.

Suddenly it hit you that he could see the most intimate part of you. Your legs closed instinctively, but before you could close them tight, his hand quickly got in the way to block it from happening.

"I don't fucking think so." he spoke. And although you couldn't see, you felt him open your legs wide open again. The cool air came into contact and your body couldn't help but react in response.

"Caleb." you gasped out. You wanted to feel him. You wanted to see him. You wanted him practically on top of you. You just wanted him to do something.

"Please." you begged desperately.

Caleb loved watching you squirm, the way your body reacted to his touch, and the way you clearly wanted him was driving him crazy. He didn't waste any more time and dove in.

You gasped when you suddenly felt his mouth on your inner thigh, very close to that spot. You bit your lip in anticipation as he got closer. The heightened sensation of his touch was almost overstimulating. Right when you had felt like you could breathe, it was ripped away and you let out a broken moan once you felt his tongue on you.

It wasn't rough, it wasn't fast, the pace was slow and sensual. Caleb couldn't help but groan the second he tasted you. He was already becoming addicted and he wanted more and more of you.

"Fuck Caleb." you moaned out loud. You didn't care how loud you were at this point. This was the sole purpose of being in the hideaway, and you both were going to take advantage. Your hands tugged on his hair as he continued to taste you, his tongue eventually coming in contact with your clit which only made you tighten your grip on his hair.

Caleb was excited, he was so ready to have his way with you, but he still wanted to taste more of you. His mouth greedily continued to taste you, making sure not to miss any spot he hasn't tasted yet. He could do this all night if you would let him.

"More please." he heard you beg as his tongue flicked around with your clit. He took it further and decided to slip a finger in. The wetness that he immediately felt awoken something in him that he had never felt. But if you were already this wet just from his tongue and fingers then he was ready to have more.

The filthy moans escaped your throat as you felt his fingers sliding in and out of you. Your hips started to involuntarily move on their own, matching the pace of his rhythm.

"That's my girl." he praised you as he took his time to explore inside you. He loved the way you looked in this moment. Vulnerable but open just for him.

His movements gained momentum which had you becoming breathless. You could feel yourself getting close. Right when you were about to beg him for more, his fingers suddenly hit a specific spot within you that had you mewling.

"F-fuck Caleb" you whined as the sensation started to get more intense.

"What baby? That feel good?" he teased as he continued his pace.

"Please don't stop." you whined, you were so close.

"I won't baby." he promised. He wanted to see you fall apart just from his fingers, and he could feel you getting so close. Right when you least expected it, that feeling in your stomach released and it was the most intense, pleasurable feeling you have ever felt.

"Caleb, fuck!" you moaned as you rode out your high on his fingers still. Your thighs were shaking and you could feel your own wetness on them.

"Fuck, you're fucking breathtaking right now." Caleb complimented you as he slowly took his fingers out of you. You could barely hear him, too dazed out from your post orgasm. Suddenly, you felt him take the blindfold off and at first you had to squint your eyes to adjust the light.

Your eyes met his as you were still recovering. His hand came up to fix any pieces of hair that were out of place. You grabbed his face and pulled him in for a deep kiss. One that you didn't care if you passed out from if you couldn't breathe anymore. You wanted him so bad. You pulled away when the tightening in your chest became too much from the lack of oxygen.

"I want more of you." you told him quietly, almost afraid to speak it into the universe. He leaned down to give you another kiss.

"You're getting all of me tonight. Am I getting all of you?" he asked gently. Almost afraid that you would reject him too.

You nodded your head, but he tugged a strand of your hair, signalling that he wanted a clear answer from you.

"You're getting all of me." You promised. You watched as he took his time sliding the straps of your bra off of your shoulders. Almost as if he was unwrapping a very expensive present.

When he finally got you free of it, he immediately leaned down to put his mouth on one of your nipples. This new sensation had you in overdrive. Your legs instinctively wrapped around his waist as your hands held his head in place.

His tongue flicked around the sensitive area and you couldn't help but let out a very loud moan once you felt him softly tug on it with his teeth gently.

"Fucking hell." you cursed. His free hand making sure to give your other boob the attention he deserved. He took his time, tasting each one, feeling each one.

"I want you inside me Caleb, please." you finally begged. You didn't want to wait any longer. You wanted to feel him so desperately. His thumb traced the edge of your lip as he stared at you like you were the most sacred thing he could ever have in this world.

"Are you sure you really want this?" As much as he wanted you as bad, he still wanted to make sure you had no hesitations. He wanted to be absolutely sure.

"Yes, I really do want this." you answered him confidently. He slowly got up from you to stand. You watched as he carefully undid the strings of his sweatpants and dragged them off. You took the moment to admire him. He was so fucking handsome, everything you wanted and more.

He watched your reaction when he finally took his boxers off. Both of you now completely bare in front of each other. There was no going back now. He watched as you took in every detail that you could of his body, the way your eyes took in everything about him.

"You're so handsome." you whispered to him. He took that moment to get on the bed and get between your legs, you could feel how hard he was. You also didn't miss the length and size of him. You could see why he walks heavy now.

'He's gonna ruin me.'

He could sense a slight nervousness within you and he decided to ease that by kissing you again. He was not going to rush this, he was not going to have this moment ruined for either of you. You were grateful that he did this first. You didn't want anything to go wrong.

Deciding to be bold you slid your hand in between your bodies and gently grabbed a hold of him. A somewhat animalistic groan escaped his throat. He wasn't going to be able to contain himself much longer.

You took your time, feeling him, getting used to his size that was currently wrapped around your hand.

"You see what you do to me, Y/n." he said as he tried to maintain his composure.

You could definitely see it. You saw everything that you were doing to him. You guided him to your entrance, making sure to at least get your wetness on his tip. He was thick, and you couldn't help but make a tiny gulp as you realized what this man was truly about to do to you.

"We're gonna go slow." he told you. He did not want any room for error, he wanted to make sure everything went right. Caleb was not going to mess this up for you both.

"You tell me the second you get uncomfortable." he demanded. You nodded your head and for once he took that as an answer. You were honestly afraid to speak at this moment. But you were ready. Beyond ready for him.

He distracted you with kisses, kisses on your lips, down to your neck and chest to help you feel comfortable. You were thankful for that. When he came back to kiss you again is when he slowly began to penetrate you.

He was so fucking thick. There was a slight sting that you couldn't help but let out a sound of shock mixed with slight pain and pleasure. He was going to fucking ruin you, and he was barely inside of you.

"Fuck." Caleb cursed as he felt your tightness begin to surround him as he slowly began to stretch your walls out. He was already addicted to you, and now that he knows what you feel like on the inside, he was never going to let you fucking go.

He heard you let out a whimper as he continued to slowly stretch you out. He looked at you, making sure you were okay, and when you signaled him to keep going, he took that chance to get his entire length inside of you.

You felt beyond full. So full that you could hardly breath. Caleb was no different. He could feel your walls clamping down on him, pulsing around his tip which if he wasn't careful, he would be cumming early. Your nails dug into his skin even more as you became more aware of how deep he was inside you. He took that moment to stay still, giving you the time you need to adjust. But how could you adjust with a size like this?

You leaned up to kiss his shoulder, and wrapped your legs tight around his waist which made him shift inside you.

"Don't move." he commanded. His hands held you still as he did his best to compose himself still.

"You can move Caleb. It's okay, I'm ready now. Please." And since you finally gave him the reassurance he needed, he took that moment to pull himself slightly out but then immediately pushed himself back in.

The moan you made had him go feral and he gradually picked up the pace. He watched the facial expressions you would make. The one that drove him crazy was when your eyes would roll to the back of your head and you could barely get a word out.

He wasn't one to talk either. Each time his hips gently smacked into you, he felt how tight you were and couldn't help but groan at how your walls suffocated his dick. He took your wrists in your hands and placed them above you, pinning you so you couldn't move.

"You feel so fucking amazing baby." he moaned as he continued his sinful thrusts. You moaned in response as he continued to hit a particular spot within you that made you go crazy. Your legs only wrap around his waist tighter since you couldn't move your hands at all.

"Please don't stop." you begged him. You never wanted this feeling to go away, you never wanted this moment to end. You had given Caleb the most sacred part of you, and now that he had it, you didn't want him to let you go.

"Woah!" you gasped as he suddenly flipped you two over so that you were now on top and him beneath you. You looked at him a little lost while he only smirked at you in return.

"You said you were going to ride your cowboy right? Saddle up baby, your cowboy is waiting." he said cheekily. His hands immediately grasp onto your hips.

You start slow, rolling your hips back and forth to find yourself a good rhythm. Caleb was in absolute heaven. He watched every little move, sound, and facial expression that you made. His hands continue to guide your hips while occasionally reaching down to squeeze a handful of your ass.

"You look so fucking beautiful like this baby." he praised you. You couldn't help but blush at the compliment. It made you feel so good about yourself in this moment with him.

You switched up the pace, this time circling your hips at a specific angle that had him touching that certain spot.

"Shit." you muttered as you felt that spot continued to get penetrated.

"Feel good baby?" Caleb asked. You nodded your head while linking your hands with his. Fingers interlocking. You were going to make this man cum just like this you decided.

Using his hands as leverage, you lift your hips up to where he was halfway inside of you and bounce back down on him. Caleb could've come right then and there. The way you continued to bounce up and down as he felt the tip of his dick touch that spot that drives you crazy. He could feel himself getting so close.

"Fuck baby, keep going." he begged you. A fire was lit inside you. You wanted him to beg like that more often. You loved the feeling it gave you. You continued to bounce on him, the very tip still kissing that spot within you and you could feel yourself getting closer.

"Fuck, I'm close." you whispered breathlessly as you continued to ride him. Your hands squeezing his for some extra comfort.

He took that moment to release his hands from yours and grabbed your hips, taking control of your pace. He slammed you back down on him, his dick entering fully inside you where you could barely get a moan out.

His hips relentlessly smack into you and the moans that escaped your mouth only pushed him to go harder. Caleb was never going to forget this moment. This was a picture that was now embedded in his memories forever. Your eyes closed shut and your face dripping in pleasure because of him.

"Fuck I'm cumming Caleb!" she screamed as her walls clamped down on him. Caleb couldn't help but cum inside her at that moment, his thick release drenching her walls as they pulsed around his dick. Both were in orgasmic bliss.

Your body gave out and you landed on top of him, both worn out, bodies sweaty, and out of breath. You took that moment to wipe the sweat off his forehead. He looked amazing like this.

"You were so fucking amazing baby." he praised you. His hands unable to stop touching you.

"Are you feeling okay?" he asked you. You smiled and gave him a reassuring 'yes' and placed your head on his chest. Still taking in the recent events of what just occurred between you both.

"Don't get too comfortable baby, we're going again in about ten minutes." He told you.

You looked up at him to see if he was joking, but he was indeed not. He gave you that handsome smirk of his and pulled you as close to him as you could.

"I told you. I'm having my way with you all night." he promised.

And dear God did he live up to that promise.