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Warning: EXISTENTIAL CRISIS AT WORK.

Remember when five years ago you used to ask yourself, ‘Will I ever make it?’ And five years later, you’re still asking the same. Another five years ahead, on a day like this, and it’ll be too taxing to even ask. At least, motivational quotes worked fine in those days. Read a few and you were raring to go. But now, they’re just anxiety boosters. Nothing works. Nothing works. Truer words. Stop…

This is a strange time to write again. Yet this is a strange time I must write about.

I hadn’t written in this blog since early 2018. I guess I was too preoccupied with my transition to adulthood (which I must also write about in another post, a lot later). Today, I wanted to document my thoughts. So that five, ten years from now, I’ll revisit this blog and recall this part of history through…

It was March 18, 2016. Our batch’s Baccalaureate Mass and Hooding Ceremony. We were giddy with excitement because the next day was the day we’ve all been waiting for four long years – GRADUATION. Our parents were with us, seated beside us. We were wearing our toga, green and shiny. Our faces light with make up. The coliseum’s air conditioning was just enough to ward off the heat.

Your name was…

I’m good at making comfort words sound sad I’m good at pretending it’s okay I’m good at keeping a smile on my face I’m good at taking in others’ pain until it becomes mine I’m good at drifting away from loved ones I’m good at falling apart in silence I’m good at crying myself to sleep I’m good at waking up at 3AM and writing words I could never tell people I’m good at hiding in a crowd I’m good…