This is mostly just a rant.... a semi frustrated and feeling helpless rant. I want a baby, like I want to get pregnant soon. Obviously there's not an easy way for us to do that, so there's one hurdle. The other is that A wants to have top surgery first, which I understand and generally support it's just hard when we barely are able to do more than make ends meet. And yeah yeah, why are you thinking about having kids if that's the case, well we are okay enough financially that it should be fine. Tight, but okay. But first there's this massive 6k expense, and only $100 in my savings. We could try taking out a loan but then we are in debt... more debt. Idk. I am just ready to start a family. It's hard to watch all the people around you doing what you have always wanted.
