TIM FH ILLUSTRATIONS

this was the first interview asking my mother about her earlier life, but instead she was more eager to talk about before she was around and talk about my grandmother, and about the situations her parents were in before she was born. I took this audio and gave it to people in my class to illustrate what they thought was appropriate to help my self disassociate from the stories my mother was telling which gave some interesting results which i shall show on a separate post.

Okay, this project can not be like that last one, painting on mirrors sounded like a fantastic idea on paper but in reality to was stressful, messy and looked like a GCSE Final project. I need to be more professional this time around, I need to have my work come from a more organic place then forcibly pushing concepts through a meat grinder and hope it turns out okay. With a private discussion with Jo my tutor we discussed how can i make work that this time around i actually CARE about. I had discussed who I was with Jo, and why I can’t seem to bring my personal life into my work as it seemed like their was a lot i can work into my illustrations that can come from home and my personal life. An idea that me and my mother had bounced around one day was writing down her memoirs, and so I decided that  maybe it would be best to Illustrate her memoirs instead, make a project that has heart and that I would have no choice but to get right.

this polish artist who has since passed away would fill a canvas with nightmarish post-apocalyptic horrors that he would experience in his dreams, work that is beautifully abstract but also organic, it looks somewhat natural as if it’s meant to be there together, Perhaps because it wasn’t a scene that was thought up consciously.

Recommended by George, he told me that the last of us had some of the best concept art ever made for a video game. and i think he was definitely right, i love how each piece is framed so it tells a story of this dystopian future. Each drawing so incredibly detailed as well. each drawing reminds me of my own dreams that are more dark and abandoned, and overgrown with greenery and flowers. this juxtaposing concept, Death and abandonment Vs Life features in almost every dream that I have.

The idea for this project started out as me planning what I would like to do for a career, and during that summer i had been quite interested in concept art so I thought that may have been a good idea to get started on that as an outline for what I would like to achieve, which was several prints of detailed drawings, Dreams have always been very interesting to me also so I had decided that exploring a couple individuals dreams and making an art piece to portray that to audiences was what i decided on, I began the project with a very broad idea that I hoped would whittle down into a strong idea. I began my research by collecting concept artists that i particularly liked, whether that was their choices of colour, the way they framed certain scenes or just them as a person. Collecting research from artists that were known to work directly from their dreams also to see options on how to frame a dream scene. Also collecting data from peers at university, family, friends and strangers on what they dreamt about, what do they particularly dream about and what does that mean in their waking life? Using the Dreams dictionary website I took each recording of each individual telling their dreams and with the website I deciphered the meaning of the dreams and used that to help how I would frame each piece and what mood I would create with each one. 

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What a City. another illustration piece posted on Instagram and not here. 

Unfinished Piece from my Instagram, Crush and Zion T outside a convince store.

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Writing these down now I will keep these in mind. I will hopefully keep my progress in check using this blog of mine, sounds unrealistic right now since this is the first time I’ve properly looked at my blog in months, but as i keep trying to remind myself. This year will be different.

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The additions that I added to my piece aren’t pretty at all, failure!!! maybe leaving it as it was may have been better then adding more and more till it’s just overwhelming.Painting freely is nothing like drawing freely, I’m much more critical of when it is up on a canvas perhaps because I never usually use one so I feel almost naked not preparing anything. I’m almost out of white paint so i also have to sort that out. No real development in my mood or behaviour though do to this use of expression… will carry on to see how my mood changes aswell as my art.

Using a scrapper but mostly my hands I began building patterns and putting colours together, dotting, smearing. It was a great stress relief. but unfortunately it’s still incredibly ugly, like the most un-cute abstract painting ever so I guess i’ll work on that next time, i’ll have a break and get back to it so I can alternate working with wet and dry paint, mixing wet colours and  working over new dry ones. Until next time!!!

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