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not talking to anyone, playing mindless games on my phone

seems like Voodoo knows me better than most of my friends

sometimes i’ll sit up to play a Blizzard game

but no matter how many competitive plays,

gold, platinum, or even diamond skill

wont fill that hole in my heart that you tore when you left so suddenly

why’d you have to go and abandon me?

thats right, i treated you so horribly

to be quite honest, i did not know, that the demons had gotten you so

i acted out, and we had many fights

but then you finally grew too tired of the constant pain, and then you left me,

whats to gain?

i wished that you would stay my friend forever

no matter how many times i replay our old times in my head, they all end the same

it wasnt supposed to be this way

you werent supposed to live like this

you should have been a better dad

now that i’ve got the news i still feel like its unreal

you were never ever there for me so why do i have to feel this way?

the dragon seemed to finally get to you even though you won the first battle

i barely even know you and i havent seen you in years

but now that i’ve heard those words they’ve been haunting my ears

i cant get up i’m somber filled

my family didnt know

now i’m left here a thousand miles away

those ocean eyes

they’ve fucked me up so many times

but now its time to say goodbye

to those cold pale blue

her evil

icy

cold

ocean eyes

they love to break me

with those cold stares

her ocean eyes they love to glare.

her face,

beautiful

soft, and perfect,

but her lips throw words that love to hurt me

sometimes i wonder how a woman so pretty

could throw me down, with no pity

hitting me with words i choke on

i flood my lungs.

she will be angry, but she cannot see

that her, and those ocean eyes,

oh i dont know why i have to have this man

inside my head where only i can see

and oh God he loves to torture me and

i dont know why i have to do these things that

in the morning i regret and yet

nobody asks me why

or even if i am fine but

you know what? its fine i guess cause

nobody knows whats inside my chest

i wish i could show you but

i am too weak i

guess this is what i get for having two faces

and i know why i

have these dark red lines that

nobody but me sees

and if anyone does see they dont say

why?

or ask me if i'm fine but hey

thats okay cause guess what?

i really am just

they make me feel so warm inside.

i love how she makes me feel,

happy, loved, and warm inside.

her and those damn ocean eyes,

God, they get me, every time.

my heart thuds, and my legs go weak,

at the feet of her and those eyes.

those God damned ocean eyes,

they will get me every time.

darkness, and bad thoughts

erupting in my head.

i look over to my plant, i see him droop.

his life, slowly sinking out of him,

as he continues to droop.

in some ways i feel the same.

staying in one place,

just drooping.

waiting for sunlight to save me,

and water to clean me.

i look away from my sad plant,

to then realize this,

for i am just like that plant,

slowly sinking into an abyss.

dark, s i l e n t.

peaceful and calm.

surrounded by nature,

and by the large cedar trees;

when i’m here i’m home;

i’m with my friends.

all the bugs, and all the trees.

i come here to disturb it though–the silence,

i yell, and i scream up to God.

asking,

begging.

why?

and i pray for the dark to go away.

to take back its monsters and demons, and just go away.

ah alas the sun goes down,

and here i am ready for another round.

i shield myself from the demons,

trying to cover my ears.

but their sickening voices break through my skull, reminding me of all my fails.

then come the monsters, and i am running as fast as i can, pleading and begging

s o m e o n e ,

save me from them.

just like last night they catch me,

dragging me away as i scream,

someone

save me.

please oh please.

darkness engulfing my frame.

i want to cry and scream out,

that i am in pain;

oh no, oh no,

not you too.

please, you wont leave me too?

as i lay here at 3AM

all i can think of are the ways that you have thrown me away.

please oh please,

the darkness engulfs me,

and my last scream of pain dies down,

as the clock hits 4,

where i see you standing there,