April 1; Changing
No one is going to read this but ever since I've graduated out of high school, my social anxiety has suddenly died down a bit. Before it was so bad that I had pushed away friendships that I should've cherished and left them wondering "what have I done wrong?" When in reality, I'm the wrong one here. So now I'm going to make it up to them. Although it sounds kind of hopeless since those friendships were literally 3 to 2 years ago I'm going to try and make it possible. I hope I can find them again. Internet friends are the hardest to revive since they could just delete their account and I'll never hear a word about them. I sound desperate which I am but I really, truly, miss them. When I didn't have friends in real life, I turned to them and they accepted me. That's why the least I can do is reach out and apologise. Just so my heart wouldn't feel guilty. But mostly so they won't think I hated them to have been "offline" for so long where it's literally been years. I'm sorry guys. I'll promise to get to you all. Shiz it's april fools im not kidding when i say all this okay this is my true feelings.
