Come Out to Play

((Hello everybody! Despite not being active in quite a while, I’m noticing that... I have a lot of new followers! And a lot of people liking my content! Wow! I’m honestly really surprised that people are finding this and appreciating it. Extra so since this blog only has like 500ish posts? I’m genuinely touched. 

So, uh, I guess I’ll talk some about me, my life, this blog, and it’s future! 

I made this blog during a very difficult time in my life, honestly. I don’t know if I ever made it obvious on here, but I was really fucked up. I was trapped in an abusive relationship, I had a health condition that was worsening without any respite, I was trying to finish out my last year of highschool and all my shit-ass advanced placement classes, and on top of it all I was extremely dysphoric with basically no way to feel better. Shit sucked.

This place genuinely was an escape from all of that and helped me cope so much. Electro was a power fantasy for me, but one where I could really let myself feel things as well. I loved how different he was from me. I loved how we were basically the same. It was great, playing an autistic trans guy who had fully transitioned and could zap the shit out of anyone who gave him shit. He could be angry in ways that I felt I was not allowed to be. And with time, I channeled it and finally let myself get angry. I started demanding respect and that really did change my life for the better. I couldn’t have done it without this first step of using Electro though. 

On top of that, most importantly, I made so many friends because of this blog (and my participation in the TSSM fandom). The friends I made from this blog I still have today and I love them so dearly. It’s with all of their help that I got out of that abusive relationship. Furthermore, I met my lovers in this fandom. It’s probably VERY obvious if you look through this blog-- I’m dating the mun’s of @imwhatyoucalledme and @ssdoctopus and have been for FIVE YEARS come July! It’s kinda why I have a hard time reading the backlog of this blog, I see the three of us falling in love and I get so mooshy that I can’t fuckin’ function. Their love has changed my life for the better. We’re planning on being wed as soon as the world falls in line for us. 

Great recent updates about my life though that tangentially is connected to this blog: I got my top surgery last June! My life (and dysphoria) has improved by LEAPS AND BOUNDS since then. I got my name and gender legally changed a couple years ago too. But I’m so excited about top surgery because I’ve been desperate for it most of my life and it’s the most recent Gender stuff lol. And on the other side of the coin, a good chunk of my inactivity on this blog has been due to how busy college has made me. But I have one last summer class and then I graduate! So yeah, that’s happening! 

I guess I just wanted to... Put all of this out there! I’ve always said “oh, I’ll be more active once school is out of the way”, but I genuinely don’t know if that’s true. I won’t make promises. Electro has served his purpose in my life, even though I still love him. I don’t know if I’ll be super active again, but we won’t truly know until I’m in the work force and can see how much free time I have! Maybe walking down nostalgia lane will happen, maybe it won’t. But I’m still so touched that people still love him, this blog, my work. I hope he gives you comfort the way he has for me. Know that life does get better, no matter what’s going on, things can change and git gud.