Dead Reckoning

It’s been awhile since I last posted something in here.

A Doctor/brethren, not close to me personally but very close to my heart just died yesterday. He is a type of Doctor whom you can engage/approach anywhere, anytime and ask him almost anything about medical advises without expecting money in return. He simply offers his services to anybody for FREE.

This incident changed how I perceive life. I am ashamed to myself. So many wasted time.. So many wasted moments.. So many wasted opportunities. How I wish could turn back time and start doing the right thing to do. What’s the right thing to do? I don’t know how, but the death of this Doctor thought me and made me realize the right thing to do in this life. And I’m gonna start doing it NOW.

This is my message to all married Men out there who loves to cheat.

Why are you making your life freaking complicated? WHY??

You may answer me. "Mas masarap kasi", "nakakasawa na kasi si misis", "hindi na kasi ako nasasatisfy ng asawa ko"

I tell you this.. You are just delusional!

Why? Because, even if you get pleasure from your different mistresses, you will just end up in one thing - "SATISFACTION". And you can get that from your REAL wife.

You are talking about satisfaction right?

When you are VERY thirsty, you can drink using a glass of water. Will that satisfy your thirst? Yes! As long as you get enough water.

How about when you drink the water in a coconut shell, it will also satisfy your thirst, right?

How about when you drink the water using just your own bare hands, if the water is enough, it will also satisfy your thirst.

Consider your LUST as THIRST. Even if you use different vessels to aid your thirst, you will just end up in one same thing... SATISFACTION! So why bother yourself to use different vessels? Why bother using your barehand(mistress), when you can use a glass(your wife) to satisfy your thirst?

Why bother using a coconut shell (mistress), when you can use a glass (your wife) to satisfy your thirst?

Dude! Just use the glass (your wife) in drinking water to satisfy your thirst(your lust). Its cleaner, simpler, purer and user-friendly.

The dilemma of being a Father.

As a child of my Father and Mother, I witnessed how my Father and Mother raised me. We've been through ALOT since I was born. Through sadness and happiness, through dark and light, through long cuts and short cuts, through good times and bad times. But never do I realize the dilemma of being a Father... To see your children grew up.

Seeing your children grew up to be a God-fearing lady/gentleman is such an achievement and fullfilling sentiment as a Father. But on the other side, there's a dilema of a Father that I have just realized, that Fathers will NOT tell to their children and even my own father will NEVER tell me nor do I to my child.

I didn't knew that a Father, taking care of his BABY daughter/son, will come to a point when he may not be able to carry his child to make him sleep, soon as she started to weigh heavy.

I didn't knew that a Father, having a HAPPY FAMILY with 5 children or more, will soon have to say goodbye to each, one by one, soon as they marry.

I didn't knew that a Father, who always struggles to work so that he can provide his family, will soon have to say goodbye to his children, soon as they grow and have their own job.

I didn't knew that a Father, is thinking about someday, his child will no longer be under his protection.

I am not a father yet. But I somehow feel this dilema. The dilema of a father who can't do anything but to say goodbye to their children when the right time comes. We, as a children, cannot do anything to ease this feeling to our Fathers. But loving them back, following them with our full heart while we are under their fold at least will leave them a good memories which they can treasure forever.

I don't know what my Father felt when he saw me growing up, leaving past all my "childhood" bondings with him behind. Maybe it crushed him or maybe not.

In my 26 years of my existence. I've never been this emotional towards my Father. It's just, I feel like God words are lingering to my ears, saying, "Love your Father, you will never know what he sacrificed for you".

Lord, at this very moment, I’ve been longing and missing my beloved family. I Thank you for everything you did on my life, Thank you for giving me Parents that are very supportive and understanding, beautiful and kind Wife, relatives and brethren that are always there in times of my need.

I cry to you my Lord to please help me correct my mistakes I’ve done in my life. Please give me a pure heart that can persevere from all the temptations around us, a heart that is merciful and compassionate.

I’m very sorry o Lord for all the troubles and sins that I committed, I humbly pray to you my Lord to please pardon me.

Lord, I really love my wife so much, so please take care of her always. If you see me hurting my wife in the future, I begged you my Lord, please take my life at this very moment as I don’t want my wife to be hurt more. I already caused her a lot of pain and I can no longer bear if I see her crying in sadness.

Lord, please do not forget to always guide my Parents. They’ve been very nice to me and I keep on hurting them due to my foolishness. 

I also pray to you my Lord to please always look and protect our preachers from our enemy, they are the reason why I have the courage and hope in this life.

I will no longer ask you to cure me as I am very sick today, I am no longer aspiring to solve my problems, I just wish to please help and guide my Wife, Parents, Brethren, Friends to reach the eternity.

I will leave my eveything into your unfatomable judgment and righteousness.