Dear Next.
Dear Next,
I have a message for you. I wanna tell you about a side of him no one in this entire world has seen but me. But first I wanna tell you about the side he will show you first.
He will love you, no doubt. He will give you the feeling as if you were the only woman in this entire universe. He will hold your hand and you will feel like you own all treasures that this world offers. He will hug you and you will feel powerful. He will sweet talk you into everything. You won’t doubt any decisions you make, because you know you have his back. He will smile at you and you will melt. He will stay the whole night on the phone, hearing your breath while you’re asleep and he won’t get bored. You will wake up to the sound of his breath on the other side of the phone and you will feel whole again.
He will love you, no doubt and you will love him too.
When he has the feeling that you’re his and that nobody can do you apart, you will see his true face. He will tell you to stop wear the red dress you’re actually obsessed with, because he doesn’t like it. He will tell you to put make up on to look more beautiful. He will tell you that your hair most be longer, thicker, shinier. He will take away every single drop of your self confidence, because how couldn’t you when he was this entire time truthful? He will tell you that he doesn’t like your mother and he will shout to you so badly that in this right moment you won’t understand what is actually happening. You will be afraid, but you won’t be able to let go of him. I mean, he hugged you, he loved you, he is your treasure. Right?
He will push you to the shore giving you the feeling that you’ve to jump now to make everything right again, and then he will pull you back. Just like that. Again and again. Your heart will break and he will pick up the pieces and put them back together. Again and again. He will give you the feeling that you’re the one who’s doing everything wrong. You will have the feeling that you wanna die, but in the same time you won’t be able to do that, because then you will be leaving him alone and you can’t do that to him. I mean, he hugged you, he loved you, he is your treasure. Right?


















