i havenât been on here in a while but i canât tweet about this because the boy iâm talking about follows me and i donât feel like going on about it on fbâ
i went on a fourth date with someone on Sunday that i really really like. probably too much. he bought me bubble tea and we sat in his car talking and postponing him leaving after a like. six hour date. i made a joke about him being late every time to our dates except the first one and he said âwhatever someone does to me, i have to do it back tenfoldâ and we joked about having to hang out seven more times. he texted me after we left to tell me he had a really good time and it made me so so giddy. he has a really corny Twin Peaks tattoo and his hair is soft and he looks at me like he really likes me and he always apologizes for being boring but doing nothing with him is really wonderful. heâs really political and i have conversations with him that i donât really get to have with anyone else. heâs sweet and charming and funny and smart and we can talk for hours and heâs a good kisser and...i dunno. iâm freaked out because i donât know what iâm doing or what any of this means. we talk about my partner and about other people heâs seeing and itâs not weird to do; it feels normal? but he just got out of a seven year relationship and iâm not sure i could ever handle anything more than just this? but i see my feelings outgrowing it and iâm not sure what to do. having multiple partners sounds difficult and emotionally taxing and like A Lot but i think if i keep hanging out with him, iâm gonna fall. and hard. and i feel awful because a girl he really liked cut ties because she âliked him too muchâ and i donât wanna do the same. we had a small misunderstanding and he thought i didnât wanna hang out anymore and he got really sad and i donât want to hurt him but i also donât wanna get...attached? maybe i already am. iâm probably seeing him again this weekend and iâm giddy. anyway thatâs whatâs been up with me lol until next time
