I AM THE GOD OF THE GAPS,

i feel insane

i fucking hate trusting people… because once i do, they can hurt me.

kendrick was right when he said “type of shit i’m on you wouldn’t understand”

i also hate idealization in bpd because i hate when i think of someone perfectly and then i can fucking hate them the second they do something that upsets me. and i hate how my splits make me view the person differently from then on. and i hate how i don’t know how to manage any of it

oh i fucking hate splitting on someone. my face feels hot with anger right now. you promise me communication and then you get busy and feel distant. what the fuck!!!!!!!!

i’ve really began to forget the subtle signs of others. it’s devastating.

i need a lesbian relationship to happen to me NOWWWWW

friend is so fucking lovely :))) he’s such a nice person. it really makes me take a step back the way he treats me, makes me realize that THIS is how i deserve to be cared about by everyone. it’s very healing. i hope it doesn’t get ripped away from me like everyone else.

someone on my snap stories got stickers because they’re puppy or whatever and they got A WEED ONE!!!!! it’s like a “puppy weed” sticker and AUGH. where can i find a kitty oneeeeee :((

i feel like every time i unmask when tired, everyone immediately hates me. and then i wonder why i find it so hard to unmask in the first place…

saw a post last night that said “if i done that to you, you would hate me” and i haven’t been able to stop thinking about it

bpd can you let me live in peace pls pls pls

have been texting a guy since last night and OMGGGGG he’s my type and it’s STUPID