Caught in the Ether

I want to be understood, but I’m not sure If I even understand myself

I was never worthy of your love.

I know im a shit friend but oh god am i fucking trying

when i’m sad it consumes me completely. i become sadness myself. i’m made out of sadness. it won’t ever end and this is all i’ll ever be and

i seek comfort in others because i hate myself.

Im slowly deteriorating do you even care?

i feel like killing myself will make everything feel better.

how to not kill yourself over something little, real tutorial no hacks

everyone be like oh i can handle your disorders until it starts disordering

I over explain myself because I grew up defending myself. Not because I’m guilty or lying. Because no one believed me

self sabotage is weird because what do you mean i make myself miserable and i'm aware of it but don't know how to stop.

I wish I wasn’t so good at wrecking the people who love me.