Dark For My Thoughts

i keep tell myself that maybe tomorrow something will happen and change my outlook on life, it’s been 6 years and nothing has changed im ready to go away now.

i love her but i drove her away with my problems in my head and it made her overwhelmed i need to be numb so i don’t show emotions because whenever i do i hurt others or myself

everything hurts. i want to feel something because i have felt numb from feeling for such a long time but when i do it’s always pain and heartbreak. is trying to be happy even worth it if im just always getting hurt?

i can’t do this anymore i love her but she doesn’t love me and it’s driving me insane. i have so many thoughts going through my brain and i just can’t control anything.