idk anymore

Good morning this is your daily reminder self that you, and only you are the one that is responsible for your sadness, as well as your happiness. U got this, okay? #freshstart

I'm so scared 😭

Can someone please send my family a miracle & make my grandmother well??? ☹☹☹

Have you been in a situation wherein you know how's it gonna end but still hoping that things would end up differently?

Then out of nowhere i did remember someone again and everything flashed back-- even the pain

I thought i can keep all this sadness to myself but i got it wrong again this time

How to keep moving forward? How to be alive? How to just forget everything that hurts and just move on? How to let go of the person who hurt you but have given you some hope and made you feel alive again? These are the questions that keeps playing in my mind since last night. It made me stayed up so late. Like how... I seriously do not know how to let go of this. I mean i still want to fix things. I badly want to, heaven knows how much i wanted this to work out. But if the other person keeps on doing things that would make me give up... I don't know where to hold on anymore. I don't know how to keep going. I just want to escape and forget all this pain. Fucking dilemma. I just want to be happy, is it too much to ask for? Don't i deserve to be happy? Hahahahahahahahahahahahaha bye life i give up, u win