new simulation downloading

I have 5 hours to learn two classes and synthesize the info wish me luck bc I’ve just been worrying for an hour

I did nothing and ended up waking up at 3pm and ordering 50$ of Chinese food. I am beyond. I. Am. Scared.

Today I was able to use Ed when working!!! Still not 100% still fucking depressed at my quality of life and my income situation but at least there’s some progress in terms of ability to complete tasks

Still completing the same task for four months I am so dysfunctional it’s beyond depressing

Today I was able to use Ed when working!!! Still not 100% still fucking depressed at my quality of life and my income situation but at least there’s some progress in terms of ability to complete tasks

Still completing the same task for four months I am so dysfunctional it’s beyond depressing

Today I was able to use Ed when working!!! Still not 100% still fucking depressed at my quality of life and my income situation but at least there’s some progress in terms of ability to complete tasks

past 2 months - been gaslit, excluded, humiliated by profs. lost everything and gained reality. all I have is my education and now I'm going to do everything I can

I also am at risk of failing a class on top of having no extra curricular or work for 9 months so I am basically fucked, especially if I can't figure out an alternative worldview and attractor dynamic to save me; my long term ambition of a life worth living are so far from my current reality and I just see the risk of myself becoming like my dad or I in the mirror and it is just the worst experience

failed this too and now at risk of being kicked out!

didnt get kicked out yet but had a stint in the hospital bc couldn't calm down-- still takes me forever to get anything done and I don't have an actual plan for exams -- I am so stuck in my misery it's awful though somehow, even though I have less on every indicator like less friends, more isolation, less success, less exercise+sleep, less clean environment, less money etc I am like more stable or solution oriented-- at least the curve is linear up I guess? I hope I can figure out my app idea

also need to figure out my paper. I have never been this overwhelmed

past 2 months - been gaslit, excluded, humiliated by profs. lost everything and gained reality. all I have is my education and now I'm going to do everything I can

I also am at risk of failing a class on top of having no extra curricular or work for 9 months so I am basically fucked, especially if I can't figure out an alternative worldview and attractor dynamic to save me; my long term ambition of a life worth living are so far from my current reality and I just see the risk of myself becoming like my dad or I in the mirror and it is just the worst experience

failed this too and now at risk of being kicked out!

didnt get kicked out yet but had a stint in the hospital bc couldn't calm down-- still takes me forever to get anything done and I don't have an actual plan for exams -- I am so stuck in my misery it's awful though somehow, even though I have less on every indicator like less friends, more isolation, less success, less exercise+sleep, less clean environment, less money etc I am like more stable or solution oriented-- at least the curve is linear up I guess? I hope I can figure out my app idea

past 2 months - been gaslit, excluded, humiliated by profs. lost everything and gained reality. all I have is my education and now I'm going to do everything I can

I also am at risk of failing a class on top of having no extra curricular or work for 9 months so I am basically fucked, especially if I can't figure out an alternative worldview and attractor dynamic to save me; my long term ambition of a life worth living are so far from my current reality and I just see the risk of myself becoming like my dad or I in the mirror and it is just the worst experience

failed this too and now at risk of being kicked out!

“stop traumadumping to your friends tell this to your therapist” my god they paywalled human connection

past 2 months - been gaslit, excluded, humiliated by profs. lost everything and gained reality. all I have is my education and now I'm going to do everything I can

I also am at risk of failing a class on top of having no extra curricular or work for 9 months so I am basically fucked, especially if I can't figure out an alternative worldview and attractor dynamic to save me; my long term ambition of a life worth living are so far from my current reality and I just see the risk of myself becoming like my dad or I in the mirror and it is just the worst experience