welcome to my jpeg & mp3 diary

Why are people so mean and cruel I love silliness and joy and whimsy and respect and love

mutuals to meow with..

the intimacy of sleeping together, but not in a sexual way. the intimacy of feeling the warmth of their body in a cool room. their hands hugging you tightly. the intimacy of synchronized breathing. sleepy half-kisses. feeling safe. feeling warm. waking up and realizing how much you love them. how precious this is. finding the happiness on the tip of your fingers, brushing their hair. closing your eyes again. pulling closer. falling asleep.

Nail appointments, fresh flowers, spa days, champagne, baking, skincare products, silk pajamas, studying at the library, girls day, bubble baths, journaling, expensive perfumes, getting dressed, shopping.

i need more books

I love a stimulating conversation.

note to self for the rest of summer (and forever) 1. buy beautiful flowers every week 2. take photos of beautiful moments 3. read every morning and evening, stack the books you have read into piles against the walls 4. write every day, no matter what it is 5. meditate in the mornings 6. be compassionate and patient with yourself, do frequent small things that make you happy 7. remind yourself of what you need to do every day to show up and live the life you have always wished you were living

i love you ambiguous endings i love you pyrrhic victories i love you tragedy masquerading as a happy ending i love you characters who are living and dead at the same time i love you cognitive dissonance i love you existential death