I Can If I Think I Can

Me and my sister friend took this photo last month for our Youtube Channel and its my absolute favorite.

we are adorable.

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Hey my little gum drops! I haven’t updated nearly as much as i should. I went and tried on new clothes today at Torrid/Lane Bryant and remain a size 18/20.. I have been right at this size for about umm 10 years even when i drop 10lbs or gain 20lbs i still remain at this size.

Am i okay with it? Kind of.

It is a constant struggle to find body acceptance and feel comfortable. Sometimes i feel cute sometimes i feel ugly but i never feel pretty and ive never once felt sexy.

I have been following alot of other plus size public figures lately though that have helped me kind of feel confident and ralize, it isnt about eeryone else seeing me its about me seeing me.

So i have been dairy free for 3 full months.

at first i was counting calories but i realized i was always staying way under so i stopped counting and found it made me feel better.

this weekend i have had alot of meat and i feel sluggish and horrible which has made me realize i really do maybe need to be fully vegan.

just thoughts.

Life is a wild ride and not everyday is going to be amazing, but you are always amazing. I hope you never forget that.

Love yourself.

Hey all my lovely followers! Well let me explain what i have been up to as of lately:

As of March 1st 2021 i began a new journey of 100% cutting out dairy and red meat out of my life. I was supposed to always have this diet as someone who is lactose intolerant and my body doesnt seem to handle cow meat very well so i have been doing pretty well.

I eat mostly vegan but i do still enjoy chicken items like in stir fries and i did have a nice chicken burger. I have avoided eating out as much as i can, and i feel so much better.

It is not a diet, it is not to lose weight and or be trendy i am doing it to mainly FEEL BETTER. 

Although i have lost a total of 13lbs since i began it isnt the main reason.

Things i have found i love that i never enjoyed before:

-Pita chips and hummus

- Amy’s vegan lasagna vegetable made with eggplant and fake cheeze

- Soy pant based milk (for making fruit smoothies)

- Vegan corn chowder

- oat meal

- almond pepperjack cheese (made from almonds) 

I am still on the mad hunt for the perfect vegan pizza.......i have tried most of the AMY brand pizza’s and 1 Daiya, i am however allergic to rice so i am running into issues with crusts.

Life is a journey as always and i am still trucking along.

Current weight - 241lbs

xooxo

-Tee

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Just checked my measurements on my fitness pal app and I have only gained 2 inches in 2 years. 

Just ordered a swimsuit off DressLily and I am for the first time probably ever pretty excited bout it!!

I got a size 2, which should fit me but heres hoping!

Hello world, since this little pandemic has hit I have been working so fucking hard at the local grocery store and as a result most evenings I have been stress eating. Which leads me to admit. 

as of today MAY 2nd 2020 I am 260lbs 

its not happy news or a good result its a bad result, it is something that makes me sad. 

I know what I have to do to be successful in a wegihtloss journey and of course I just am not doing that. 

back to the no dairy, no red meat and no fast food life style I go. 

1500 calories a day as well.

I CAN I CAN I CAN.

GOAL:

to lose 12-15 inches by Christmas.

I am now on a 1500 calorie a day diet.

did you know that to ride most rides at Universal Stuidos you have to be 40 inches or less around the waist...…..guess what my best friend and I are going to Universal Orlando and Disney World for the holidays...…..and......

I AM 50

SOOOOO It’s a new year right so we weigh in and try too be healthy? i cant be the only one?

I weighed in GUYS i 258lbs....WHAT IS THAT!??!

Sure i could use excuses like “holidays” and “my period”

 but in the end the reason is ME i have been horrible lately eating any and everything, drinking none stop soda and no water at all and not working out not leaving the house really i get winded just walking up the stairs at home and that is BULLSHIT.

i am in a bad bad bad way guys and i am fixing that NOW obviously.

My best friend Bobbi and i went on a walk around the park looping it twice but then went to CHICK -FIL-A again showing my weakness.

Jesus.

I downloaded my fitness pal app put in my weight and height and yeah IT BAD.

so

heres to getting me away from being 12 pounds away from the heaviest ive ever been.

lets a gooooooooooooo

TATTOOS:

I never EVER saw myself as someone who would ever EVER have a tattoo. Now i have FIVE. 

I have had to be so careful with placement choice because as a plus size person my body is going to change, either  will gain or lose and as i gain and lose my tattoos will change with me. So in my mind, my safest spots are arms and legs. 

My first tattoo is on the lyrics on my left wrist; “No Regrets Just Love.” from the song Teenage Dream by Katy Perry off her second album Teenage Dream. I got that tattoo the day after i met her, she is so inspiring, so sweet and so loveable. I am a katycat, a super fan of KP and while yes i know life will change and people will move on and yes maybe in 80 years i wont be a big katy perry fan but you know what will never change, the way music makes me feel and the way music gets me through my current life. 

my second tattoo is on my right wrist and it is the song lyics” let go and just be free.” from the song Unconditionally off of Katy Perry’s 3rd album Prism.

My third tattoo is on my left arm it reads largly “IM STILL BREATHING.’ from the song I’m still Breathing off of Katy Perry’s first album One Of The Boys. 

My fourth tattoo is on my right arm it’s the biggest one i have it is the lyrics “Your highs your lows just ride it.” from the song Pendulum off of Katy Perry’s 4th album Witness.

So yes i have FOUR Katy Perry related tattoos and all the lyrics speak to me, i have chosen lyrics that mean the  most and all make me feel positive. It is constant reminder to me that no matter how hard my life or others lives may be around me that I am still breathing, have no regrets just love, let go and just be free and my life will have highs and lows and i just have to ride it.

I also just got one more tattoo a few days ago on my inner right ankle and it is a Mickey and Minnie minimalist tattoo because I LOVE DISNEY.

THERE YOU GO

xoxo