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listen to yourself, (name), and think about what you’re saying.

that government also does not trust us.

i think, no matter which way this turns out, we will be in for a lot of blame.

if we will be blamed for what happens, i would rather be blamed for being zealous in attacking this problem, than timid in waiting for developments.

to some it might be word games, but the words he uses to express his ideas and communicate them to others show me how close to the edge he is.

our role here is as guardians, and our skills can allow us to scout out this threat.

i will be sending you into dangers i cannot even guess at knowing.

i hope you will return unhurt, but i know that will not happen.

don’t know when i’ll be back here, and i wanted to take a few things with me.

i should have been ready before this, but things keep cropping up.

how do you get rid of them? how do you get the memories out of your head?

i’d tear them out if that would stop me from seeing, you know, i would, i really would. i can’t stop seeing it, seeing him, seeing him die …

i saw him, don’t you get it?

my best friend, my only true friend, and i let him die. how am i supposed to live with that? how do i get that out of my head? tell me.

what you remember is partly what you saw and partly your fears. you see yourself as having failed him, and you think that’s how he saw you at the last, but can’t be sure. memories are not always that clear.

i watched them die, and i knew i would carry that memory with me forever, the memory of me killing them.

my belief was wrong, as, perhaps, is yours.

he counted on me, and i failed him.

you didn’t know him. how would you know?

he couldn’t love me. (name) died hating me.

i abandoned him, i left him there to die. his last thoughts were filled with hatred for me.

he could not have had anything but joy at knowing you survived. to think anything less demeans him.

what gives you the right?

i have intruded on your grief. it was unthinkable.

when he comes back, take good care of him.

always checking the world, verifying what he could assume, not trusting until he is certain.

and what is it you understand?

you don’t trust me.

i’ve never had any doubts about you, (name).

for you to go off now means you’d be putting your life ahead of that of others.

you’re right, having time to consider them and their consequences is useful, but i find it hard to concentrate on introspection when folks out there are in trouble.

i’ll go along with you for now.

i’m afraid i’ll be no help to anyone.

i can’t move a rock with my mind, but, boy, can i make that rock think it’s been moved.

project whatever vision you wish. i promise to be afraid.

i will do what must be done for us to complete our mission, but i will not brook interference from you.

you’re saying that your philosophy is more important than the job we’re being sent to do.

no one can feel safe around you — they always have to wonder when you will come to judge them.

you don’t want me interfering with you on this mission of ours, fine. don’t give me cause to interfere with you.

perhaps you are a little bit sharper than i am willing to grant.

i do hope it will be simple, but these things never are.

you may think this is funny, (name), but i’m serious about what i’ve said. don’t get in my way.

who else would you have expected?

she is not yet whole again, but she is gaining in strength.

impatience is a handmaiden to despair.

i don’t want you burdened with something that’s really my problem.

i can’t fault your logic, but i don’t like the idea of having you on the front line.

i will miss you terribly, you know.

there comes a time when you have to stop fighting.

i did what i could, but there were too many of them.

you don’t think this will work, do you?

i’ve got better control than that.

i didn’t mean it to sound the way it did. i … i know you didn’t get to make some choices …

at least you know there are boundaries you shouldn’t overstep yet.

i’m not looking forward to any such encounter.

he’s overconfident, overbearing, and abrasive, but he looks the perfect example of a jedi.

life, yes. human, no.

be my guest. show me how it’s done.

something is moving out there.

you’ve got lightsabers. that makes you jedi. of course, that doesn’t mean you’re not also fools.

if i had wanted help, (name), i would have asked for it.

i tend to hold tightly to painful experiences and not to share them, so you couldn’t have known.

i apologize for being weak, for forcing you to be here with me instead of off doing more important stuff.

there’s nothing more important that i could be doing.

the desire to be out there saving the galaxy is in your blood so thick i can hear it screaming from here.

i’m still learning. i need that control. i need to be able to make things work.

i may still be young, but i’m not stupid.

you’re not stupid, but you are naive.

that expression of outrage, very becoming.

i know what i’m telling you isn’t easy to hear.

so you know what is better for them than they do?

it’s right and good to help someone who cannot help himself, but forcefully shielding them from the consequences of their actions, no matter how foolish, is wrong.

he had no mercy at all in him.

i do think of it, but i also know it’s not practical, not at this stage. we have a lot to learn here. it’s not a satisfactory choice, but a necessary one.

i’m sorry for saying what i did. i didn’t mean it.

we have to allow some people to be in pain so others can avoid it.

it’s an easy choice when you’re the one who will be hurting, but tougher when others have to suffer.

having more experience doesn’t mean making difficult decisions are easier, but it does let you know that sometimes the tough decisions must be made.

why go somewhere that is out of the way when we might be needed to respond to trouble quickly?

i’m so happy to see you’re not hurt.

there are a million ways to be unlike someone, and the potential for disaster is unlimited because instead of choosing a path and adjusting it to make it right for you and the circumstances, you push all that away.

you can do that? you can shut things out?

i’m not stupid, you know.

if you ever do anything like that again, i will kill you.

that man, you watched them beat him to death, and you did nothing.

thank you, but i can’t take these.

tell me if i get to be a burden for you.

i know you’re not feeling well. i know it’s a fight for you, but you keep fighting. i can’t tell you how much that impresses me.

i’m sorry, (name), i didn’t realize you were busy.

it will be a pleasure to have you on board.

i’m not sure if i’ll survive getting out of here.

you and i both know that the people who are capable of dealing with trouble never really get a chance to pass, to rest, to live a normal life. people like us assume responsibilities so other people don’t have their lives ruined. we can wish it was otherwise, but it won’t happen.

still, desperate times require desperate measures.

that makes me just like everyone else, but i’m not. i’m special, i’m more responsible.

lesson one from this experience: realize just how much you don’t know. lesson two: make sure to learn from lesson one.

what’s wrong? did they hurt you?

oh, i understand that attitude perfectly. i question whether or not the (enemy) will understand it or will see the distinction as significant.

you’ve seen the flaw with his plan.

i’d also point out that, like it or not, combatants or not, you’re all right in the middle of a war zone.

i find you intelligent, passionate, and fascinating, but you know, as well as we do, that the chances are excellent that your companions are now (enemy) captives.

there is no luck, only the force.

it was almost too easy, and that has me worried.

doesn’t seem particularly defensible here, does it?

they’re always right behind us, except when they’re ahead of us.

(name), they want me. it’s a matter of honor for them, i think.

they may want you, (name), but they’ll deal with the both of us.

no, (name). run.

out of the firefight, into the carbon freeze.

it would not do for you to faint from hunger.

i’ll always have need for friends like you.

there will be no forgetting what will happen here, not for me, not for anyone who survives. the only thing that would make it worse is knowing that i did nothing to stop the slaughter. i can and will take responsibility for dealing death — and perhaps will fill a role that means others will not find themselves in that unenviable position. if i cannot spare myself that discomfort, i can take solace in what i spare others from.

it’s okay. i’ve been sleeping too much lately.

we’re not going to die here.

(name), you’re having a hard time sitting up. you need more rest.

you remember me when we first met? you remember how i was?

as long as i’m fighting, i’m not dying.

i am so glad i found you and didn’t kill you.

i hate it when you do that. you could at least look at me.

i don’t know if what we will do will succeed, but i know we can’t do anything less.

it will not be pretty. what it is, though, is necessary.

if i’m going to be miserable, at least i can help others not be the same.

don’t pick at the wound, (name). if it gets infected, you could end up with a nasty scar.

a scar would make me more dashing, don’t you think?

you’re perfectly handsome as it is — provided you get rid of the worry in your eyes.

you’re keeping things to yourself pretty well, though fear shouldn’t be one of them.

i wish i could be brave like you.

perhaps that path you seek is just like the future, constantly in motion. perhaps this stretch demands you provide hope to these people, and another will let you go off on your own. when you come to a decision point, you can leave off one path and head out on another. only your past experience can guide you.

i’ve hurt you, haven’t i?

were it within my power, i would make it so you never again had to fight.

i love you very much, (name). for this and everything else.

when you need me, i’ll be there.

never did like being helpless, so here i am.

if i’m not out in that time, consider me dead and get going.

i don’t want to leave you here alone.

this is just going to be killing, pure and frighteningly simple.

it’s an old debt you owe me, and that debt gets paid back now, in full.

i want them to know i am something they could never be.

i keep feeling like we’re about to be attacked again.

you’re just trying to get me into your cabin again.

(name), how long is it going to take for us to be honest with each other?

since when did you start worrying about the odds?

something happened to you. anyone can see that.

why don’t we take care of these wounds?

you’re not dead yet.

how do you feel?

didn’t know. and it wouldn’t matter if i did.

there’s something sneaky going on here.

(name), sometimes you think too much.

nice try, but we’re not changing the subject.

i’m surprised you have so much trouble remembering the name of someone who betrayed you.

what does this have to do with anything? they’re both dead.

just making a point.

i’m glad i still have something to teach.

perhaps you’d explain your concerns?

i let my emotions carry me away. i apologize.

you’re in a better mood.

i don’t recall you doing much cooking.

tell me, (name). what don’t i want to know?

tell me the truth. are we going to die?

if we’re going to die anyway, there’s nothing left to lose.

you cannot know how refreshing it is to speak with someone who is not trying to win my hand or coax something out of me.

you would not believe what they do to curry favor.

you do know that we’re not alone, don’t you?

why do you put up with them?

everyone wants something from me, (name).

am i required to laugh?

what about the will of the force? why not trust it?

everything i tell you is a lie.

should i trust a river because it wants to run downhill?

it took five years to learn that?

we’ll have to make this fast. the grounds a little soft here.

it’s my fault. i hope you can forgive me.

you can still lay down your weapon. it would be better if you did.

i don’t want it repaired until we find a way to extract some information stored on the chip.

didn’t you hear me? we’re in the middle of some very important business.

you have what you came for. but it wouldn’t be wise to act on the information.

are you threatening me?

you’re a hard woman, (full name). i kind of like it.

remind me not to get on your bad side.

pretty sure of yourself, aren’t you?

what are you doing, sneaking up like that?

okay, maybe my best friend’s a lizard.

i told you it wasn’t what you thought.

i don’t understand why you want to fight — because you have no chance of winning.

i need to hurt them. inflict pain. torture them, in truth. not for long, and nothing that will injure. but it must be intense.

perhaps we should back up a little.

there isn’t any other way. not in the time we have.

the only thing pain would cause me is a religious experience.

i have seen everything i need to.

i hope you’ll forgive the room. it’s the best i could do under the circumstances.

your presence would make any room pleasant, (name).

some of us still honor our promises.

why in the blazes would you do something like that?

who else can we trust to wield our power? we must follow our own consciences.

even in those with the best intentions, power corrupts.

i haven’t seen a good lightsaber fight in ages.

i was feeling a little cramped myself.

i’m sorry. i don’t understand what you’re saying.

i — i thought it was a dream.

no, it was fun! great, even. i just … it didn’t feel real …

your touch can be very compelling.

you’re not just here to say hello. something’s wrong, isn’t it?

you’re not very good at hiding your feelings.

i was hoping he may have talked to you.

we can’t do anything. it’s too late.

come get me, lover boy.

has this ever been tried before?

ambush . they’re starting to come after us.

your request lies outside my mission profile, but i have been authorized to wish you good luck.

you don’t have to impress me.

from where i stand, you’re in no position to stop me.

you will need more than lightsabers and blaster pistols, i think.

my trigger finger is getting itchy.

(name), this doesn’t have to happen.

you still have a home with us.

(name), reach out to me. i can help you find the way back.

how about it, (name)? that enough fun for you?

you always know how to make a girl feel better.

neat trick. it isn’t going to save you.

i am not your son.

no hurry. i’ve been hit worse than this.

all you did was save their lives. that doesn’t make you responsible for what they did later.

that was entirely uncalled for.

well that was fun. let’s never do it again.

we need to make this fast.

come here. i’ll try to help.

i have not forgotten. you may be sure of that.

i don’t think i like what you’re saying.

i’ve done nothing to deserve that tone.

they want you to suffer. then they want you dead.

i’m not leaving here without you, (name).

i hate this. it makes me feel like a coward.

i don’t know why that should surprise you.

of course they’re concerned about us.

you’ll understand if i don’t believe you.

(name), you disappoint me.

you let your anger make you weak.

i’ll lay the blame where it belongs.

i’m not interested in ‘redemption’, or anything else you have to offer.

that’s enough. are you trying to kill her?

i could have sworn i had it set on full power.

you could have fought this. maybe you still can.

you place too much faith in others, (name). that has always been your weakness — and soon it will be your downfall.

i’m just going to blast her now.

i won’t lose you, (name).

do you mind? i don’t want to catch anything.

we don’t have time to meditate, (name).

we don’t have time for rules.

we should handle this ourselves.

silence is not agreement.

there’s no sense discussing this any further. my mind is made up.

sometimes i hate it when you’re right.

i’m serious. if you go there, you’re on your own.

why are you whispering?

what’s wrong? i didn’t hit you with a stray, did i?

they’re all dead.

i was hoping to get some answers out of them.

i’m not worried. you’re covering me.

doomed? what are you talking about?

what’s wrong with you, (name)? you could have hurt someone.

tell you in a minute — in case i’m wrong about this and need to make something up to keep from embarrassing myself.

i see you’re making the most of your house arrest, (name).

your act isn’t fooling me.

so we can do this the easy way … or we can do it the hard way.

you’re a jedi! you can’t do this.

it is your intention that concerns me.

you see? that wasn’t so hard.

they didn’t say, and i didn’t ask.

this was a political arrangement, not a marriage.

tell me why i shouldn’t kill you now.

i apologize if i offended you, (title).

i was only trying to help.

i wasn’t expecting to hear from you so soon.

oh, boy. this is bad.

we gotta get off this sponge before we start glowing or something

if you’re going into a trance or something, now isn’t the time.

don’t worry. everything’s under control.

you won’t need your (weapon). i’m not here to harm you.

how could i have been hiding? i only just arrived.

that’s backward. and a lie!

if you were going to pull the trigger, you wouldn’t have wasted your one chance talking about it.

i’ll see you in your dreams.

i was certainly not just kissing her.

you see? i didn’t miscalculate!

you keep telling me to doubt everything.

you are a terrible student.

give me your (weapon).

the last time i did that, you hit me on the head with it. i had a knot for a week.

this is no time for games, (title). i need to know.

i find your lack of faith disturbing, (name).

we’re still in one piece, aren’t we?

i’ve been wondering what she sees in you.

did you just use a jedi mind - reading trick on me?

hey, open up! i need to talk to you.

that was low, (name), even for you.

i’m trying to make the best of a bad situation, here.

you’re getting on my nerves.

i’ll be okay, (name). i just need to center myself.

just how angry are you trying to make me?

i’m sure you’ll understand my complete lack of confidence in that plan.

that’s not your decision to make!

i’m afraid you’re going to be waiting a very long time.

these things happen when we keep secrets from each other.

i wouldn’t want to make this too easy on you.

what is wrong with you? you could have gotten killed!

i just don’t worry about things i can’t control, and i fix things i can control.

what’s the hurry? it’s not like we’re going anyplace.

i’ll see if i can improve our chances.

maybe we should turn back.

you’re not looking too great.

you want this done, we’ve got to do it ourselves.

(name) would kill me if i let you die alone in there.

everything’s fine here. there’s no need to be alarmed.

whatever you say, (name). you’re the one holding the blaster.

why are you laying on the floor at a time like this?