Not all that wander are lost

I can’t tell you because it’s not like I didn’t know. I knew and I still made my choices. But she was dying and I couldn’t forgive her and you saw me and you were kind and supportive until you weren’t and it wasn’t until I was okay that I could even begin to see the gigantic mess I made out of everything. My mother always did say I made everything harder than it needs to be.

I die a little everyday I stay in this loveless marriage.

I don’t think loving someone and getting someone to love you should be this hard. I’m lovable. Right?

How did it end so fast

I hate everything. I might just drop out take my tuition money and get as far away as possible. This isn’t the life I wanted.

Fuck.

You’re George and I’m callie and your friends are all Izzie’s and I can’t take how suffocating that feels. To constantly not be enough for the people you chose as family. Maybe I’ll rise up like callie did after the divorce with Hahn and Robbins but your familiarity is so comforting I don’t know if there’s enough of me left to move forward.