#1 SCAREDYHUSBATS SHIPPER

You are not responsible to make adults comfortable. They can do that themselves. You are still a teen/young adult and you do not have to carry the world on your shoulders. You also do not need to make an adult happy on the internet.

One of the evil cultist ones

🕯️I will understand how to block tags

🕯️I will have a basic understanding of how a fandom works

🕯️I will not threaten to send people after my fans

🕯️I will learn what a boundary actually is

🕯️I will not support harassment

🕯️I will accept that there is content out there that I don't like

🕯️I will encourage my fandom to be a place where people feel safe

Excellent. Here she is, being super brave:

anyways ive made a husbats fic or two [bigs my eyes] if ya wanna check em out...

i have a short one, A Dance, Is All

husbats + some lovebitten in a louis lives au—The Alluring Red Of A Rosary Pea

like. my evidence

While pre-turning Apo certainly doesn’t come off as normal(the raw meat incident, claiming she doesn’t care while being willing to do dangerous things to help others, sailing a boat off a cliff), analyzing her behavior through the lens of the Fernsfield massacre (Apo being the only survivor of a crazy mass casualty event) makes me think there’s some serious compartmentalization going on. She still clearly cares and is beginning to get along with other people, but there’s this edge of distance to her that both aligns with the amount of trauma she must have…and still doesn’t quite hint at its severity. idk how else to describe it

“my final tour” Apo describes their time in Oakhurst as being their final tour, implying they’ve likely been forced into at least two

the aforementioned piece of evidence becomes particularly concerning when you account for Apo being only 21

Apo states that they've never killed anyone. Now this could be simply due to the fact that Apo wasn’t combat-oriented, but considering everything else we know about her, it does make me wonder if Apo actually HAS killed someone, but repressed the memory (which would be crazy Pyro parallels)

never talks about family, only ever mentions Cherri. I’ve mentioned how I think Apo’s family is dead and/or terrible before, but again, could just be coincidental but I’m making a case

Apo is such a mystery throughout the series. She’s not lying like Martyn, but she almost never tells anyone anything about her

The fear of blood—we can guess that Apo’s blood phobia was pre-Fernsfield massacre, so that likely crosses off the massacre itself causing that fear, though I could be entirely incorrect on this front. I say this because it’s the easy, sensible answer, and the implication that it might not be this major traumatic event that originally caused her fear haunts me. (Though in all likelihood it majorly worsened it)

and finally—I’ve heard secondhand someone talking about a conversation Apo and Legs had on stream, where Legs states he never meant to imply his character commited cannibalism, and Apo responds with “I commited cannibalism” It could have been a normal vampire joke but the Potential of it being pre-Oakhurst Apo makes me deeply curious and concerned, because it WOULD ALSO TRACK with blood never tasting good to Apo, and also make the preference I think she has for raw meat (and the eating raw meat while human scene) absolutely bonkers intriguing on that context