Thoughts

Was that I don’t deserve you.

I don’t deserve the love you gave,

The warmth that wrapped around my broken soul.

I don’t deserve the friendship you offered,

The hand that reached for mine in the dark.

I don’t deserve the care you poured into me,

Nor the time you so freely gave.

I don’t deserve the happiness you painted in my world,

The light you tried to ignite within me.

Because the only thing I deserve—

Is pain, sharp and endless.

Hatred, deep and consuming.

Punishment, cruel and unyielding.

And death—

Below the light poll

Standing in despair

Thinking about your life

Your eyes were dried

Not a single hope

Not an anger

Not a single word

That escaped from you

Yes, I was there too

Standing behind the walls

Thinking to approach you

Then the light goes off

And

That i knew

When she cried

When she smiled

When she felt alone

When she needs someone

When she fakes her happiness

When she really enjoys

But

She also didn't knew

When I think about her

When I wish for her

When I want to talk to her

When I want to help her

When I loved her

And

Too close to see

Step by step

Moving forward

With an inclination

It's you whom I want to hold

It's you by whom I want to be betrayed

It's you I want to be with me all the time

Then you came