Ruth Naomi Casignia

I thought I could handle everything but I can’t.

I’m turning 30 next Monday, and I’ve decided this will be my last 12 months of waiting. I gave this relationship my all. I sacrificed, I took risks, I stayed hopeful but nothing changed. And maybe it never will, because he doesn’t want anything to change.

For a moment, I questioned if I just wasn’t worth it to him. But deep down, I know my worth.

So here I am, after being quiet for so long, finally speaking up to remind myself that I’ve had enough.

I want a love that leads to something real. I want to get married in front of the people I love. And even if I try to deny it sometimes, I know in my heart that I want to have my own children.

Answering your loved ones call is a bare minimum but he never answered mine. 

Why does it break my heart Your frozen eyes They seem to be crying I want to go up to you and hug you

You can lean on me When no one’s by your side I’ll wait for you, always Oh, you’re the only one for me

If only my tears, my love could take you in I’d wrap my soft touches Warm stare around you

Even if you act alright I can feel how exhausted you are

How long have you been fighting alone You don’t have to say It’s only a painful past I love you, always Oh, your secret too

If only I could lie down next to you And share the same dream with you

I love you, I love you I say inside I love you, I love you If only you could hear

You’re the only one my only one Only one in this world You’re the only one my only one I’ll keep you safe forever

One person glowing among all the people I will always find you One person fated among everyone else passing by I will always wait for you