This community sucks.
It’s changed a lot over the last 7 years I’ve been here. Very few people are genuinely sweet people that just want to write, while the rest are absolutely rotten and janus-faced who would unfollow/block you for sneezing the wrong way. It’s been a vicious cycle, with each restart causing me to further rot on the inside. I’ll meet someone real nice and friendly, we’ll throw a thread or two back and forth, and then they’d want nothing to do with me. No rhyme or reason behind it. Writing has been lacking, and discourse, aesthetic wanking, and ‘callouts’ generous. I’ve made a few friends here, yeah. But over the past few years my anxiety worsened, suicidal thoughts rose, as did the insecurity and random bouts of tears. I’m afraid of everyone here. I have to take double the antidepressants I used to. I nearly took my life a few years ago, and I fear I’m going back down into that dark place. This community isn’t healthy for me, it’s fucking poisonous. And the only reason I was originally staying here was because I wanted to spite the people here that absolutely hate me for whatever reason. And honestly? It’s not worth it. Spite, revenge, whatever, it’s a fool’s game.
I know several others that feel the same way - That the roleplaying community here is rotting. They don’t like it either. So I’m probably going to put my blogs on a permanent hiatus or archive. And maybe I can convince the others to do the same, and that we could migrate somewhere else. This isn’t the same community anymore. It’s changed. Or maybe we’ve changed. Whatever the case is, it’s beyond salvaging.
I originally that it was just me. But after completely changing my behaviors, my routines, mannerisms, keeping the OOC down to below minimum, pretending to be quirkier and happier than I really am, etc. I can safely say that it’s not just me.
Several people have asked me if this site was suitable for roleplay because they were considering it. I really wanted to say it was, I really did. But I honest to the gods didn’t have anything nice to say about it. I steered them away, warned them that they wouldn’t like it. I wouldn’t subject anyone to participating in a community like this. Even the Dead by Daylight community is better.
Anyways, I’ll probably post more status updates but don’t expect a lot of roleplay from me here. If you want to reach me, shoot me an IM and ask for my Discord.















