Brian Summers

“I’m not acting like anything… I’m just.” He sighed, “Frustrated. I’ve got a lot on my mind, and on top of all that I have to worry about you messing up my brother’s happiness…” He frowned, “The rational human being in me wants to be here for you in your time of need, but the big brother in me is upset. You were friends with Alex, you had plenty of chances to try and get with him in the past, but you wait until he’s with my brother and about to get married to admit your feelings and confuse the poor boy. Especially after everything that happened with James.” He shook his head, “I don’t even see what’s so special about the kid except those big brown eyes, goofy smile, and his uncanny ability to play dumb.”

“You don’t have to worry about that. I’m not messing anything up. I know he will get married and I will of ever be the friend with regrets of not being able to get with him.” He sighed, barely even looking at Sebastian now. “I didn’t have plenty of chances like you might think. I was in a relationship while he wasn’t in one. Sure, feelings were there, but I didn’t trust them. When I got out of my relationship, Alex got in one, and that’s when I knew it was too late to have him be mine. So don’t talk to me about ruining your brother’s happiness, because he should be here, instead, he’s nowhere to be found, right?” This was honestly making him angry, especially since Sebastian was just assuming it was easy in the past. He didn’t know anything. “Everything about him is special. You might not see it, but I do. He’s got the best heart anybody could ever have, and I am so glad I get to have him in my life.”

Rebekah shook her head and felt as though she understood where he was coming from with this. “Alright lover boy, but if you try to kiss me you might get punched in the face.” She giggled as she patted him on his shoulder, and then her face turned sad. “I hope it all works out for you, Brian.”

“I’ll try not to.” He teased as he walked over to the door of his bedroom. The warlock only stopped when she spoke again, and a small smile formed on his lips,”Thank you. I really hope so too.” He made his way inside the room, and fell asleep on the bed.

Sebastian rolled his eyes, “Not everyone can be as open and honest about their sexuality and feelings as you are, Brian.” He didn’t know how to answer, “You seem to trust us well enough, Alex especially.”

“Alright, Sebastian. Why are you acting like that?” He shrugged. “Of course everyone brings up Alex around me. I’m in love with him, okay?”

Rebekah sighed and shook her head, “Brian…” She bit her lip, “I don’t think you should just up and leave. You’ve pretty much made a family here, and I’d hate to see you walk away from that. Things may seem… bleak when it comes to you and Alex, but you were friends first and that won’t change. He’ll always be there for you, that I’m sure. As far as he and Rhys… no one knows what’s going to happen there. Sure they may be set to be getting married, but who knows if it’ll happen. Besides, no one has seen him for a while so no one knows.” She shrugged and looked down the hall, “I think for now, it’s best to just get some sleep.”

“Alright, maybe leaving was a bit much, but I know that he’s the one I should be with. Things with Jax are never like they are with Alex. Being with Alex gives me such an indescribable feeling.” He shook his head. “I don’t mean to go on and on about him, I just can’t help it sometimes.” Brian nodded his head as he continued to listen to Rebekah talk to him. “Where do you think he is? I’m not sure Alex would like him leaving like that.” It didn’t seem like Rhys to just leave like that. “You’re right, but in an hour can you wake me up and make sure you turn into Alex for five minutes? I want to see his face, even if it isn’t him.”

“Well that wasn’t very nice.” He chuckled lightly, “He was starting to grow on me. Possibly become a friend of mine.” He shrugged, “He said in return for feeding him some of my blood, he’d offer to give me whatever I wanted basically… I figure a favor might come in handy one day.. plus I took pity on him.”

“A friend?” He laughed, putting an arm around Sebastian. “If you want that dude as a friend, then go ahead, but something tells me he’s in the closet.” A smirk formed on his face. “Well, that’s good, but what if he meant something weird? I’m sure he’s nice, but I wouldn’t trust just anybody.”

“Yeah, I’ll let you know.” He smiled lightly at his friend as he was pulled into a hug. A few seconds later, he stood and looked down at the boy. “I’m only as amazing as you think I am…” He shrugged and turned towards the door, “I’m gonna get some sleep… later, Brian.”

Brian returned the smile, placing his hand on his shoulder when he pulled away from the hug. He looked up at his friend, and smiled,”I wish I knew what exactly you meant by that.” Brian added. “I’ll see you later, handsome.” He whispered, not sure if he could hear him, he leaned his head up against the wall, and noticed his friend was at the door.

Alex tried to figure out what it was that he did feel inside, but he kept coming at a loss. It seemed that it would always be a constant shift between the two boys, because in all honesty he fell for them both around the same time. Only one got to him first. He didn’t regret his decision to be with Rhys, because even with the way the boy was… he was still trying to be romantic and caring and loving and all the things that he knew that Alex needed. On the other hand there was Brian who wasn’t afraid to show his emotions or let the world know who he loved. Both of them would risk their lives for Alex, but at the same time they’d be blind to a few things with him as well. James was a big part of that discovery. “I don’t know, Brian. I just need… time to think and relax and try not to stress over all this…” He looked at his friend and grabbed his hand and squeezed lightly, “You’re amazing, Bri… I really don’t even deserve you… or him.”

“Okay, Alex. I'll make sure to give you some time. If you want, I can leave you here, but when you’re done, just come to me and tell me you’re at least a little better?” He sighed, moving over to hug Alex before letting him go. Brian just wanted that extra comfort knowing his friend would be okay, since the car ride home did shake him up. The warlock couldn’t help but blush at his hand being squeezed, and tried to hide his face. “You’re amazing, too. I love you, Alex.” He chuckled. “You do do deserve us. Do you know how amazing and handsome you are?”

Alex just stared at the floor where Brian’s legs were. He couldn’t really look up or move. He was just there. He could feel Brian’s emotions and his own mixing together. He knew that his friend was there. He knew that his friend wanted to be more than his friend. “This whole situation is just screwed.” He said after a while and bit down on his lip. He looked up and sighed. “What should I do?”

“It is, isn’t it?“ He let out a small chuckle. The truth was that this was extremely difficult to deal with, and he can only imagine how hard this is on Alex. “If you’re asking me personally, I’d be selfish and say you should be with me and we can love each other and finally get our ‘what ifs’ out of our heads, but if it’s from a different stand point, then I say choose Rhys, and be happy. I promise I won’t ever be angry with you.” He rubbed his back with a smile. “What do you feel inside? What would be better for you?”

Alex closed the door, but looked back when it was opened. He was half expecting someone else to walk through the door, but it was Brian. It was always Brian. He hugged his chest and looked out of the window that faced the back yard. “I don’t want to mess this up. Any of this. I don’t want to just marry Rhys and have you eventually hate me. I don’t wanna leave him for you and have him hate me. I don’t want to choose wrong in either sense.” He bit his lip. His heart was so conflicted, because he didn’t know. He just didn’t know. He sank down to the floor and let a few tears roll down his face, “I don’t want anyone hurting because of me… not anymore. I’ve caused too much damage already.”

Brian went and sat down near his friend, making sure that he wasn’t too close if he didn’t want him to be. He sighed, letting his eyes gaze at his friend, who looked terrible. “You won’t mess anything up. Alex, I would never hate you. Why would you think that?” He told him in a soft voice. “I know if it was the other way around, Rhys would want to kill me.” Brian wished he could just hug his friend, but he didn’t know how he would feel about getting hugs now. “Don’t put yourself down, please. You don’t hurt people, it never was you who did the hurting. It was James, if that’s what you’re talking about.”

Alex felt a small amount of panic building inside of himself, and he didn’t know how to control it just yet. As Brian continued to talk, he realized that he really didn’t know how to rectify the situation. He loved Rhys. More than anything in the entire world. At the same time, he loved Brian. The two of them never got a chance to be anything due to wrong timing, so the ‘what ifs’ would always be there. After a while, he just knew that he couldn’t take anymore. “Brian… please, stop.” He lifted his hands and his friend’s mouth clamped shut. The car’s engine revved and they were off back towards the house. The radio turned up so he couldn’t hear anymore. He continued to control the car and his friend from the passenger seat. He knew this was an abuse of power, but since he didn’t know how to teleport… this was the best option. He could feel the tears forming. When they made it to the house, he cut the car off and looked at his friend with tear stained eyes, “I’m sorry, I just… I need some time to think.” He got out of the car, not sure if his friend would follow him or not, and ran upstairs to an empty room. Feeling panicked, afraid, at a loss, and confused.

Brian immediately fell quiet and some sort of fear came over him just watching his friend move the car and mess with the gears. On the way home, he just looked out of the window and waited until they pulled up to the house. Seeing Alex get out did make Brian follow him, and he knew he couldn’t just leave his friend alone. “Alex!” He shouted. “Where are you,” He paused, trying to catch him and run up the stairs. “going?” Brian rushed to the room where his friend was, and slowly opened the door. “I know you need time to think...but not in here, or at least don’t leave me like that.” He brushed his hand through his hair,”What’s come over you? I just don’t get this.”