katie , Orions Belt

10122018

I met him today. After a year. He looked happy. Chubby. Healthy. And with his pregnant wife beside him. How i felt? Amazingly I Feel Peaceful :) Sincerely. I learned that, true love is not about owning someone But To see the one that you love, happy. Though you are not the one. Through him i felt really thankful that i experienced this kind off love. Unconditional love. After this one year, alhamdulillah, i managed to control my emotion better and let him go... I am truly happy when i saw him walk side by side with his wife. This was not something i would have ever imagined to see But then i realized that he is happy and in good terms. Why should i not be happy? Isn't to see the person you love to be happy that only matters? I might be still recovering though after a year... but at least i am improving a lot right? I think today i learned the fact that he was once my reason to be happy and i think i should just keep those memories to myself :) InsyaAllah everything happened for a reason or reasons. I know after all these while... I actually never had that one day I did not think about him. He is still there living in my mind but all are flashbacks. I need to live in the present time. I need to step up and move forward. I need to move on. I need to do this for myself. Cause at the end of the day, its all from me. My decision. I should change my mind set not to stuck at one place. I hope after this i can really let go off him and open up to meet someone else :) Bersabar lah hati :) Sincerely, For the last time, Thank you for once crossing in my life. Through you i learned a lot of things. You were my inspiration and was my happiness. I am thankful that i experienced this kind off live though the end i was hurt. But yeah thats life right. :) I see you again maybe as a friend or colleague? And i hope by that time i have no any other feeling except just a friend :) like any other normal friend. Yeah for sure. Annyong nae bimil sarang 🙋🏻

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Alhamdulillah... Attended a dialogue session today by Brunei's qari, Adibul Amin 😊 More like a sharing session about his experienced throughout his journey as a Qari. Inspiring session indeed 🤗 As conclusion, some that I remember are: "Don't stay in your comfort zone..." and I like this phrase 👉🏼 "Dengan ikhlas, datangnya keberkatan..." InsyaAllah... Salam Ramadhan everyone 🤗 (Pusat Da'wah Islamiah에서)

To my silent love or can i say my secret love… Take care. May Allah bless you always :)

Ooh so beautiful 😍(Masjid Universiti Brunei Darussalam에서)

언제부턴지 나도 모르게였죠 🌸 힘내세요 🌅

Saw this post just now.. And im starting to relate myself with this 🙄 Its nice if its true... I mean that feeling between us... That wonders... Anyway... Night

Robe fitting day 😁✌🏼️ Sneak peek for September's graduation. InsyaAllah 🤗 (Universiti Brunei Darussalam에서)

Whenever its monday, i have always wanted to ask you this question, "how was your weekend?" But never actually i get the chance at all. Ive always wanted to ask you that question. At least my curiosity during weekend of wondering what you did last weekend can be answered but thats not the case here... So sad and pathetic... Its just a simple question and yet i didnt manage to ask to you. I guess hope is the last thing i should think about now... Goodnight yours truly.. Saw u were online on tele but theres always boundary between us. I wish i can break them and lets just hangout or i dont know have some fun... Ahaa cali ko ni... U know its never gonna happen ㅠ.ㅠ 안녕

Just got back from work. Just a brief update. It was a busy day. So i think my technical work has just finish today. I dont know to feel good or sad... Anyway i should focus more on my report now. So i didn't get to talk to yours truly at all today. He was busy, I was busy... I can only hear his voice from afar whenever he was talking to someone... Quite sad though since our seats are quite far now. But yeah I actually managed to control myself from approaching him today. I thought its better this way. Slowly drifting apart so that i wont get that much hurt during my final day. And slowly take few steps to step back... I hate this feeling of getting him away from me but i thought this is the best for me as well. He dont know this but i guess its better not to get too attached. Being attached is too hurtful to handle. Because i will be the one to get hurt in the end if i still hoping and always wanting to spend time with him. And on the other hand, he dont know all these at all. Its a one sided love besides and a silent love. So to myself, i know i am struggle to try not to get too attached with him and at the same time thinking about work and studies... But thats the only option i can see right now. Its hurtful but the best for myself too. Just dont be sad... And yea life must move on anyways. I pray for the best for me and him too. If something is meant to be... InsyaAllah... It will be... Bersabar lah wahai hati katie 🙂 Kalau ada jodoh nda ke mana I guess thats it for now Salam

Congratulations to me! 😆👏🏼 though for only 2 weeks keeping this trophy 😆😆 still gonna embrace it 😌 motivation level up! 😁🤗✌🏼️

Its been a hectic week and sleepless days Anyway so far it went well And i hope i can do more better in the future Nevertheless insyaAllah i will be fine and cool Just need to fix my over worry and panicking 😅 Anyhow my sprvsr came back already Thanks to nae bimil sarang all these while for helping me out so much 😊 I did not get to update a lot here since many things actually happened but what i can say is that we do are getting closer nowadays we joke around a lot or can i say we are flirting with each other but in a professional way..?? Hahaha. Its hard to interpret him but yeaa he is less cold now and more open to me. I guess i break the wall slowly 😊 we laughed a lot actually and we actually quarrel too and argue with each other 😂 and somehow it felt lovely i think... Hahaha but yea it feels like we are more comfortable towards each other now. I am happy apart of that pressure because of work. 😊 he is one of the reason i am still alive there and survived. But i need to control myself and focus on my work for now. Thats why i tried to be more focus and be careful with my feelings. Control yeah 🙂 i know its hard but thats the only thing i can do for now. Will write more K

Pressure is up! Hope i will do well tomorrow! Fighting!! 😊 🙂 😐 😕 🙁 ☹️ 😰 I can do this! 🤗💪🏼