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Among all the videos that I watched, this one touched me the most. Since I was a kid, my mom was always there through my every journey. She supported me in anything that I do and she doesn’t pressure me when it comes to my academics. I remember that one time where I told her about my grades in high school where I was not satisfied, she then told me that it’s okay as long as I do not have a failing grade and what’s important is that I can graduate. I love my mom so much and she’s been my strength and weakness. Even though we sometimes argue, we then eventually make up, sometimes talking to each other like nothing happened, or if the argument was heavy and it was too emotional, it’s either I or she’s the one to approach first and make lambing. #IdealFamily

After taking this test and seeing the result, I affirm that the result is accurate. I like being surrounded by people I’m close with and the chikas are always the best! Especially when I’m catching up with someone. One of the things I noticed to myself the reason why this result was accurate for me was that when I was in Junior High School, even though we did a lot of adventurous things with my friends, I rather prefer staying at a friend’s house, watching a movie, sleeping, experimenting food, and ofcourse, the chika. Maybe one of the reason why I prefer to stay indoors is that I am a lazy person. I am also not patient and I get cranky when the weather is hot and we’re outdoors.

Hey! I apologize for posting my day 8 in the same day as day 9. My mom was having a stroke again the reason why I rushed her to the hospital but it took us hours to be settled in a room. The moment the class ended, I cooked lunch for my mom since she said she was getting hungry but then when we were having a conversation, I noticed that the way she talks is similar to how she talks when she was diagnosed for having a silent stroke or a blood cut in her left central lobe the previous year so I was alarmed and asked her if she feels different but she said she was fine but everytime she speaks, her tongue goes sideways in her cheeks the reason why she's having trouble speaking. So I checked her sugar and bp and noticed that it was normal but then I was still alarmed so I messaged the secretary of her doctor telling her about the situation and when they replied, the doctor said to bring my mom to the hospital since naga aksyon na syag ka stroke. However, being admitted in a hospital nowadays is very hassle because of the pandemic and you have to wait for hours in the E.R for a vacant room since almost all of the hospitals are full. The nurses notified us at around 12 A.M that they'll transfer us already to the room and I wasn't able to write for my journal because my phone was low battery so as my powerbank. I also forgot to bring my charger 😐😐 Anyway, here is my answer for yesterday's pause for a thought!

What makes you happy? When are you happy?

There are many ways to make me happy. One of that is being able to reunite with my friends! They bring joy everytime we bond and they make me forget my problems for a while and they even help me to overcome it. I also find joy in receiving gifts and buying food! I can say that I'm a materialistic person because my mom's way of letting us know that she loves us is through buying us things that we want but I'm glad I grew up not that spoiled though because I was able to reflect on things and how hard life is.

Who are the people closest to you? How often do you talk to them? Why do you consider them your closest relationships?

Hello! I woke up extra nervous today because of the oral recitation in PerDev but turns out I didn't have to be nervous or some sort because the kind of oral recitation we had was not like the usual oral recitation but it had a twist. Anyway, nothing usual happened todayyy! My mind was at ease and it was peaceful. Class was fun, I had learned a lot.

So these are the pause for a thought today!

Why is the brain considered as superior even to the most powerful computer?

The computer cannot function without its CPU. The CPU serves as the storage of data of the computer. You can compare a set of computer to a human body because just like the computer, the human body also has its data storage and it is called the brain. However, unlike the computer, the brain can function on its own and it is the one demanding the body what to do meanwhile the CPU, a human has to control it first before it can do anything.

Is it possible to combine the capabilities of your two brain hemisphere? How will this affect your ability to learn?

Loe, good morning! I woke up extra early today because me and my mom went to church para magpamisa sa kalag hehe. The weather is so nice because the heat isn’t that harsh and the wind is so cold. I had fun because there was a field outside the church and it was sooo peaceful and the air is so fresh considering that there are many trees surrounding the place. : D So anyway, our class just ended and the topic was so relatable. 

Here is a question for the day:

What situation do you consider as positive stress? As negative stress? 

Honestly, the situation that I consider a positive stress is when it was still face-to-face classes and every time there is an exam coming or a project to be passed, I cram with my friends in school. The reason why I consider it as a positive stress is because even if we’re academically stress, you can still laugh at your situation when you’re with them because meron kang karamay. Mwehehe, miss those days! And the situation that I consider as a negative stress is when problems at school, family problems, financial problems and etc. keeps on piling up. My mind would go blank especially that I am easily driven by my emotions. I wouldn’t know what to do first and it is the most frustrating thing I’ve ever felt. 

Are you aware of your tipping point when it comes to stress?

Heyz! So these days I feel very suffocated in our house that yesterday I lost my cool and snapped at everyone. I didn't mean to do it but something just triggered me to do so. I know it is still very dangerous to go out but I really wanted space away from here but I also don't want to disturb my friends so I opted to visit my father's grave but then I didn't even last for an hour because it was so windy that I was creeped out so I went to the park but then it was crowded so I went to the church since it was near the park but the number of people who can go inside are limited so I stayed at the door for a few minutes but then the number of people staying at the door was increasing so I left and I tried going to the city museum but it was closed due to the pandemic so I ended up strolling around the city since it was sunday and there aren't people going out, and stores are closed too so the streets are peaceful. This might sound stressful but I really enjoyed this day hehe. : ) When I went home I immediately took a bath and sanitized myself.

So for today's pause for a thought:

How would you describe your current situation as an adolescent?

As an adolescent, I am currently experiencing a stressful and frustrating life especially now that we're in this pandemic. Just today, I was out strolling in the city because I had a fight with my family. Life right now is very frustrating and I feel suffocated. The things like college applications, what course to take, how to handle my time, what are my talents and other problems keeps on piling up and it feels very heavy. I have no choice but to fight in order to have a stable and bright future. As the saying goes, laban lang! : )

What are some things you have done during your childhood that you are not doing anymore?

pause ✋🚶‍♂️ for a 🤸 thought 🗣  

Now, first of all, I would like to compliment the song, “Forgiveness” that was sung by Matthew West. I love the tune and how the lyrics was through the heart, or if I may describe it in my native language, dulot sa heart (salamat google translate, I don’t even know if that was the right translation for it but still, you’ve tried your best [pats google translate’s back]). It was very heartfelt and it made me reflect on how I sometimes hold a grudge against someone before but luckily now, I’ve learned to let go of it for I want to have a peace of mind. Although, I admit, there are still some things that I find it hard to let go because what that person did to me cost me my mental health. Yes, I want my peace of mind but it is still not easy to forgive someone who you thought that can be trusted but turns out they’re the opposite. 

Anyway, let me make chika na naman of how my day went. I woke up at 8:00 A.M and had my breakfast while waiting for our class. However, Ma’am Tadena informed us in our google classroom that we’ll be having asynchronous class today and she’ll be posting a recorded session for today’s class. So while waiting, I decided to wash my clothes and help my mom and my sister in our daily household chores. And then later on, I went to the pharmacy to buy her medicine since it was out of stock and then when I went home, I continued on with my laundry. I finished washing the laundry at around 6:00 P.M because the current of the water was very slow so it took me a while to finish the laundry. I took a bath and after it, I took a nap and told my sister to wake me up at 10:00 P.M (lol is that even a nap) because I still have to do my journal. Atleast, I did something productive today unlike the other days. : )

Today’s lesson was very informative. It reminds me of our philosophy class way back in 11th grade because one of our topics was holism. Anyhow, have you ever met a person who seems to be so complex that it is difficult to fully understand him or her? What makes this person a complex character? That was the question that Ma’am Tadena asked us before starting the class. The first person who comes into mind is myself. Yes, myself. I couldn’t think of anyone else but myself because honestly, I still do not fully understand myself. I think I’m still in the process where I’m still trying to know who I am and what I want. 

Siguro, the thing that makes my character to be complex is the experiences and lessons as I reflect every night on everything and how I try hard to apply it in the present. I even go back to my past mistakes because I do not want to do it again in the present. However, there are still some instances where my actions or emotions overcome my rational mind and instead of thinking before doing something, I do something before I think and that is very sad and toxic for myself. Now that I realized how I often do that before, my coping mechanism in order for me to avoid doing that is isolating myself (especially in social media) and finding things to read instead. And I find it therapeutic because I discovered that having an alone time by yourself is very stress and drama free.