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Whenever i see a cool project online i feel this compulsive urge to check their age and if it’s young enough to be an age im nearing i frown really hard and a tear falls down my cheek. Why am i not doing that too? There’s no excuse anymore

Side tangent I don’t know if it’s imposter syndrome but I just hate art so bad like I don’t really get as much joy as I used to out of it anymore which really sucks because it’s what made me me. It’s my defining feature to be able to draw and create and I really love coloring but actually having creative ideas or literally anything at all does not come to me. It makes me so painfully jealous because I’d love to have my own creative endeavors and have legitimate ocs and comics and stories and stuff but stuff does not come to me whatsoever. Like I’ve tried and tried I’m not good at designing characters I’m not very good at much I never really doodle anymore because I just don’t have any ideas. I just feel constantly blank and it’s so demotivating. I’m not particularly depressed im just in a constant state of yearning nowadays. I’m just thinking about how awesome it’d be to be able to create something I can devote genuine love and time into

THIS POST MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME

this chapter especially feels like a fangame half of the time