Love is unreal

I honestly feel with your angery outburst that I have no partner during these anxious inducing scenarios. I will do anything I possibly can to avoid these outbursts. Because not talking to me and treating me like shit from 4pm until Midnight is not fair. But I am to blame on parts of this and it’s not fair to you on that part

So starting now I’ll take myself into work when I need to go in to spare you

It’s been a year now since I’ve been depressed

It’s been a year now since the pictures of death in my head…

It’s been a year.

I’m so tired of giving pieces of myself to everyone around me and not getting anything in return.

I never hear anything nice. Even though, I’m trying so hard. The moments I try to put myself first where I feel selfish for even doing so. I’m told I’m being selfish. I just want to stop being nice and thinking of others. I want to be selfish.

Who would even miss me... honestly who would miss me if I wasn’t around