katcafe

There’s a lot of things going on in my life rn. Trying to work on your relationships with people and improving, is it supposed to be this hard? Sometimes I think I’m ready for a relationship but the thought of actually attaching myself to someone or maybe more them getting attached to me and getting to know who I am. Idk if I’m ready for that, I have a lot of flaws and they’re going to have to look at those. How to not let that shine through and be the best for someone. Then their the thought of being enough and pleasing their family. Thats import to me when I admit what I want, I’ve known what it’s like to have a broken family then what it’s like to feel a complete home. Something really common and simple. Ive now lived life knowing 10% of has experienced what it was to sit at a dinner table with just your mom, dad and sister. So it scares me, the thought of entering someone’s else space, home, their family. Because they’ll letting me sit at their dinner table. On another note I went on vacay

I want to travel more. I want to live a good life. I want to be loved. I want to accomplish all my goals with no more conflict in my life. I would like to become stronger in my faith. There are so many things I want. But it all seems impossible or like I’ll never reach it no matter how hard I try. So I’m just trying now.