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*through gritted teeth* every day i choose to be kind *barely restraining myself from violence* i choose to have compassion *tamping down the vicious bloodlust inside me* i choose to care and to be kind and to love

Messing up and falling back into a behaviour or thought pattern you’re working to change does not erase the progress you’ve made. It doesn’t make you a failure. Please don’t beat yourself up over it. 

You deserve to let go of trauma, but in the ways that work for you. If that means that you need the time and space to feel what happened to you, to voice it, to take action, then you deserve all of that. Being told to "just let it go" on someone else's timetable is invalidating. You never deserve toxic positivity - you deserve healing on the terms and timeline you need.

Is it just me or is anybody starting to feel like uhhh. maybe it wont pass