*shows up at ur door 10 years after we had an argument* aND ANOTHER THING

May you heal so deeply that you remember what it feels like to be excited about your future, your creativity, and your life.

fuuuuck i just realized that the future idealized version of myself cant exist without current me being the catalyst for change and doing hard things. has anybody heard about this

i convince myself through conversations with my cat, as it can feel gentler than saying i'm "forcing" myself to do something i don't want to do. because ultimately, the healthy choice will be worth it. so i will turn to my cat and say, "should i get up now? head to the gym? do the laundry? wash the dishes? take meds? go to therapy? call the doctor?" and we go back and forth and i imagine she's reminding me why i do want to take care of myself and make my life better. now i look at my cat and we both just know.

I need something I just don’t know what it is yet

this has been going on for like 20 years by the way.. I will let you all know when I figure it out

people use "sensitive" like it's an insult. i'm sorry for spending my whole life giving a fuck i guess