He had moved to stand in front of her. His hands resting against her waist. “I left to better myself. Shit was going on and I couldn’t be in nyc. I didn’t want to hurt you. I know I did, but there was a chance you could have been hurt worse, made.” He murmured. His forehead resting against hers. “My plan was to come back. To be with you again if you would have me.” He admitted

“She does?” He asked, he had seen her once. But it wasn’t a close enough view to her that he could fully take in her features. All he seen when he looked at her was Macy. “No, it wasn’t. You didn’t give me a chance. And even if I wasn’t coming back to New York, we’re both from the same bloody country. You could have easily came back to Australia and called me up.” He muttered. He leaned against the wall, his arms crossing over his chest. “At least you’re admitting that you were in the wrong, now are you going to let me see her and be in her life? If I didn’t want to be a dad or have a kid, I wouldn’t have came all the way up after finding out about her.”

Jaxon’s eyes settled on the woman as the door slowly swung open. As he looked at her, he could feel himself backtracking his mind. Not wanting to tell her being stronger than the part that knew it was the right thing to do. He stepped inside the home, instantly slipping his shoes off of his feet. He was always raised to remove shoes before going into someone else’s home. It was just carried on from his childhood, no matter who’s home he was gong into. 

He looked around, his eyes settling on pictures of what he could only assume it was his daughter. Daughter, the word rattled in his mind, it didn’t feel real. He wasn’t sure if it would ever feel real. “She looks a lot like you, Macy.” He murmured softly before he turned around to face her. “I have a question. Why did you think it was right to keep her away from me and my family? Even if you were pissed off at me, you must have known how excited my mum would be to hear about a grandchild. Or just Chloe in general? Not giving her a right to know who her other family members were? Where you going to keep it forever? Or were you going to let her find out when she became an adult?”

Control. he had no control over this. He knew that he could talk to her about it and tell her everything, but she still had all the say in this. Once she found out about the reason he was gone for 16 months, it could be the reason why she never lets Jaxon in his daughter life. But he knew he couldn’t lie to her about it. He had to be straight up honest, no matter the results of it. He pushed all the negative thoughts away, just having his mind on his daughter. 

His taxi pulled up to Macy’s home. He walked up to he front door, not sure how this was going to go. He didn’t want to have his hopes up too high. He played with the small chip that sat in his wallet, reminding himself why he got cleaned. It was for her, their future family that he wanted. He slipped the chip back into his wallet, placing the wallet in his back pocket before he lifted his hand and knocked on the door. A million thoughts going through his mind as he waited.

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Macy had her nanny come and pick Chloe before Jaxon came over. She didn’t know how the night was going to go and she didn’t want her daughter to hear certain conversations. Not knowing what Jaxon wanted to talk about, she knew it probably would lead down to Chloe and it put a pit in her stomach. Sitting on the couch waiting for him to come to her brownstone, it seemed like the wait took forever.