M.KING

Feel like I'm floating, When you stand close to me. Although my body's changed, I know that you're the key. It's been so long and now we're older and I don't care as much. Your scents the same and I can't erase The ways we used to F***. But I'm happier... In the ways that matter she's so good to me, She feeds my needs. And Maybe... My soul it don't ignite the way it did with you, But my worlds complete. And I still think in another life we'd... We'd laugh and say we knew it That you and I are inevitable Oh, so tied forever, whole together Irrevocably chemical Have a kid that looks like you Can't believe they'll never meet us 'Cause I skipped town, and you're a stranger now Loving someone else and Jesus

Truth is not what you want it to be;

It is what it is.

Dominating our will, as our wants become submissive.

We must bend to its power or continue to live a lie.

A lie told in truths of the heart, but reality never survives.

Frozen in time as we believed our moments would remain clear;

Glazed in an icey haze, submerged in notions we’ve always feared.

I’ve stood over you confident our truths were different.

Looking down breathing cold, as we begin to feel some distance.

Our wants overpowered when desire is in control.

The more the signs point south the more we feed this black hole.

Unable to speak the words we both know live within.

Your touch once fire, now ice to the skin.

As I look into your soul I see what I know.

Emptiness with pain while compassion overflows.

A fear of loss to me as I watch you blue bitten and trapped.

Your wants grasping for help as your truths fight to adapt.

Ugly to the core as we stare our realities in the eye.

Dazed into our reflections as we mirror our lies.

Craving you every instant, but we are bad of the heart.

Once the high settled the world tore verities apart.

I believed in you and what you built me up to see.

A world where we thrived, a world you wanted more than me.

The lies that became ugly truths has you palmed beneath the surface;

Fire frozen over as we no longer contain true purpose.

Human natures will to survive is pray versus prey;

I have this feeling, I have this craving in my head

A desire to feel alive, this desire to be dead.

Now i’m running... to find happiness instead

Plugging in my holes as my words are turning red.

So I breathe… hoping that I could keep

Holding on to purpose before no purpose takes me.

Then I question… the what's, the whens, the whys

Looking for my peoples all the while im cutting ties.

They don’t get me… they will never understand.

How the only way I feel is with fire in my hands.

I scream arson… burn my world to the ground

Watching who i’m hurting from my upside down.

I don’t know me… how can I give it up

Like i don’t have the love, Yet I still don’t give a fuck

So I show you… the signs, the reach, the lies

Grasping to feel grounded before I feel the skies

Then i’m gone… lost to you and me.

The only way i’m seen is through photos and memories.

Yes i’m trying… desperate that this wont spread

Looking to shed some light only one thing can be said….

I have this feeling, I have this craving in my head

I fall backwards on the words you say

Maybe you were over it, over this

I fall backwards on the words you say

Maybe you were over it, are you over it?

Ever felt your heart breathing

All the while emotions are bleeding

Looks of lust mixed with recent grieving

Dead to love yet I have you believing

Pulled to you like I have you thieving

Fiendin’ for your touch for your feeling

Bite of the lip things heating, things cheating

Words clashing with actions had me disbelieving

Words made clear for perceiving…so…

I fall backwards on the words you say

Maybe you were over it, over this

I fall backwards on the words you say

Maybe you were over it, are you over it?

I’ve loved you, let you play the fool

But you keep me hanging on to me and you

Right there, we try to work it out

But it always ends in tears we scream and shout

But we kiss and make up

And you keep me in love

Tried to be the one

But enough is enough

I told you I was up for this

Baby are you over, are you over this?

I fall backwards on the words you say

Maybe you were over it, over this

I fall backwards on the words you say

I grew up hearing that HATE is a strong word. As I have experienced life I have come to understand what all of the adults meant by that phrase. HATE is a strong word because it is full of passion. To truly hate something and mean it you must first make yourself vulnerable. Expose yourself bare to humiliation. To truly HATE you must know what it feels like to have lost. To have lost fairly and or to have never had a chance to lose at all… To TRULY hate is to be filled with love.

Ladies and Gentlemen...I give you Hate:

My hate for you is full of passion, resentment and regret,

Had I known our fate I wouldn’t have labeled you a threat.

Years have passed us up leaving us both wiser yet slower,

My desire for your notice sunk my confidence even lower.

See I look at you now with acceptance and clarity,

So far so gone it will never be what it used to be…

Might be… should be… watching you fade not knowing how it could be,

Many points of desperation I didn’t even know me.

Flaunt me, taunt me… when you didn’t even want me…

Fucked up believing that one day you might choose me!

But you didn’t…

And its all good because I get it.

The moment I let you go I knew that I would regret it

And I do…

My hate for you is full of passion, resentment and regret,

Knowing my present lacks your presence I crave to forget.

Opting for the sidelines as I watched a decade of your ups and downs,

Keeping my distance was my mission while also making my rounds.

Distance is easy while avoiding a “threat”

Poisoned my vision of you but was afraid you would forget.

Re-entered your life hoping you would see hoping things could grow…

Fucked up believing I was more… but you didn’t even know.

And you didn’t…

But its all good because I get it.

The moment I let you go I knew that I would resent it

And I do…

Now let me take this full circle and keep shit holistic,

The day I realized I hated you… I kind of went ballistic.

Your curiosity is struck probably wondering how I could hate,

In your eyes everything we had was misguided as great.

You have always been the person that chased what you needed,

As amazing as you were what you got left you cheated.

Woke up less angry needing to confess my hates,

Got pressure off my chest, breathing easy… less weights.

Curiosity still treading your mind… mind still missing some screws?

A laundry list of desire filled reason why I hate you:

I hate that I still love someone I only knew in my past,

I hate that I knew the question but was too afraid to ask.

I hate that you are the most beautiful person I know,

I hate that it took me this long to realize I have to let it go.

I hate that your smile makes everything alright,

I hate that my solution was to fight.

I hate how your stubbornness gives us something to relate,

I hate how I have to let you go to get a clean slate.

I hate how you never got the love you deserve,

I hate that I will never show you how much your worth.

I hate that I feel this way and cant quite shake us,

I hate that ill never know if you even wanted to make us.

But you didn’t…

And its all good because I get it.

The moment I let you go I knew that I would hate it