it doesn’t mean a damn thing if they love you if they’re not treating you well. loving you doesn’t mean they’re good, and it doesn’t mean they deserve you, and it doesn’t mean they treat you properly.

it doesn’t mean fucking SHIT if bad parents love you. it doesn’t mean SHIT if a bad partner or bad friend loves you.

- my friend isn’t responding to my text, I better end this relationship before i’m the one who gets hurt

- I reacted to someone who said something triggering to me with extreme anger and now i’ve got to isolate myself since i’m not getting sympathy and feel alone

- it’s probably not a good idea for me to flirt with people twice my age online for validation i’m loved, but i’m going to keep doing it anyway

- oh god oh fuck I think I saw my abuser out of the corner of my eye time to walk away slowly and look at the ground while panicking

- I hate affection

- I need affection

- my life is hopeless and I trust no one

some cope through hypersexual behavior/dress/demeanor and that is valid

some cope through sex repulsed behavior/dress/demeanor and that is valid

some cope through apathy

some cope through anger

some cope through sadness

all totally valid, there is no “”“right”“” way to recovery and how you recover and cope is YOUR business so long as it doesn’t harm anyone and you’re staying safe- never let anyone tell you your coping mechanisms aren’t that of a ‘survivor’. every survivor is different, and no, we’re not all going to fit the textbook definition of PTSD.

Also me:

my trauma didnt make me a better or stronger person and i shouldnt have to act like it did to be taken seriously

here’s a little something my therapist told me that helped me out:

even people with the worst trauma tell themselves “it could have been worse”

even people with the most unpreventable trauma blame themselves.

every single person who has gone through trauma beats themself up over it.