Revelations

Anxiety: I do

me: we have been informed via her representatives that she has decided not to go 

Nothing is happening to me. I don’t know what I’m doing, I’m like chasing after surgeries I don’t care about. Do you know you how long it’s been since I’ve held a heart in my hand? Since I’ve felt that, that joy…that rush? Ya know, I miss Burke. I, I miss him all day! I miss… it’s not the relationship or the sex, I miss… everyday when he was here, I held hearts. And I got picked, not because of some favoritism but because it was just like… it was right! And I learned, I learned! And I felt seen. And now, you know what, I don’t know what. I spent this entire day fighting… and I don’t want to do it anymore.