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which tends to, again, make people talk like she’s perfect and has no flaws which a) isn’t true b) again, just… isn’t interesting.

and again, to be clear: it’s not like kaylee is secretly a monster!! she is still imo a very kind, well-meaning, good person overall. and honestly, i have a harder time feeling that frustrated with her for this most of the time bc i have been in other fandoms where this kind of character is much more egregiously flawed and this phenomenon is happening anyway. and it’s less frustration with her, really, and more, again, of a broad fandom culture frustration across platforms (and beyond firefly.)

but kaylee’s not actually perfect. and she shouldn’t have to be!! frankly i believe it’s a function of implicit misogyny to act like female characters Need to be perfectly kind and good 100 percent of the time to maintain their lovable status. it’s not that i don’t think she is those things, but i think it’s impossible for Anyone to live up to those standards one hundred percent if the time!

one of those most controversial examples of kaylee’s flaws, but one i think is pretty relevant and prevalent, is that she can act… pretty petty to the point of it being a little mean-spirited in response to feeling hurt. we see this early on in shindig with mal, tho i do think that’s a fairly innocuous version lol. and that’s the thing: most of it is! it’s not that she’s Evil, it’s just that stuff does come up!

we see this in the biggest way in her relationship with simon. i don’t want to go into super detail about their conflicts bc i’m gonna talk about them more in my saylee analyses for those eps, but to show what i mean: insisting on leaving simon behind at the bar in jaynestown lmao and sort of storming out (i think this one is fairer tbh but i could make an argument) before simon can really explain himself or, more relevant to me, calling him a robot after his fumble in the message in an entirely unrelated situation are both understandable but not entirely mature or fair reactions To Me.

and the reason i think this is sort of controversial is because in 3/4 of their show conflicts (i’m including objects in space), simon is the transgressor and kaylee is the offended party. so i don’t want it to sound like i’m making excuses of just taking his side. but the fact of the matter is: kaylee is hurt by what he says and in jaynestown and the message (she doesn’t really do anything that petty safe) reacts in ways that i find sort of petty, sort of mean, and less-than-entirely mature. and again: she shouldn’t have to be mature!! women should not have to react perfectly gracefully in response to their male counterparts fucking up to still get nuanced conversations and empathy!! she should get to be upset and messy about it! if anything, i actually wanted a little more of that bc she does also often forgive him very easily/quickly.

but i tend to find that people either ignore/handwave this part of her character a lot of the time, or they kind of act like she was Totally Right bc simon was Wrong. (early on in 2025 when i was getting into this fandom after many years, i listened to a podcast that i literally ended up turning off bc in response to talking about the conflict in the message, they went on a whole tangent after kaylee called simon a robot that he was like, being inappropriate to offer the autopsy (not true) and more comfortable with dead bodies than people (not true) when that’s not, to me, the point of that scene, in a way that pretty much signaled to me they were not engaging with the kind of analysis i find particularly rewarding or nuanced or like, based in what actually happened. lol.)

but that’s not how i’m interested in viewing/talking about dynamics in media in general, and one reason i’m doing the saylee analyses posts (this’ll get back to being just about kaylee in a minute but this is part of it) is because i want to explore them in full and like… i simply think that if i’m Going to do any analysis of a ship, including and especially of a ship i really Like, then i’m really uninterested in the kind of discussion that’s just “and this one person is The Villain” (again, i will emphasize lmao: not a vague about anyone here!! horrors witnessed on other platforms) “and therefore their counterpart has never done anything wrong ever.” in actuality, i find that’s rarely true in ship dynamics, nor do i find it a very engaging lens to talk about them with. if i thought it WAS true, i wouldn’t ship them. and i obviously do lol. simon and kaylee are TWO people who are struggling to understand each other, even as they want to and try. that’s what makes them interesting to me!!!

and the understanding people angle is interesting bc…. i think that about 90 percent of the time, kaylee is a very kind and empathetic person who really does try to understand where other people are coming from. i also think that she is so used to that being other’s perception of her and her own perception of herself, and so used to having Understanding for people, that when she Can’t understand someone bc how they think or see the world or behave is so at odds with the way she does and she has trouble reconciling it, she tends to shut down/act like they’re simply not understandable bc She doesn’t understand them/lowkey kind of (and in 99% of contexts, not *super* seriously but even so) Other them.

like, i’ve talked about this a little before, i don’t think the moment of her dehumanizing river in objects comes out of nowhere. i think it was clunkily worded/framed, and i think more could have been done to show it was not malicious and more a subconscious slip she needs to contend with. but i don’t actually see it as *so* out of character. these are less serious moments, but kaylee calling mal a ‘monster’ in OMR comes to mind. she doesn’t mean it in earnest, the same way she doesn’t mean it literally when she calls simon an ‘alien’ and later a ‘robot’ in the message. but her reaction to not totally understanding or approving of the way someone is reacting is to, however lightheartedly in the OMR case, or (somewhat) understandably in the cases with simon in the message, is to act like they’re Doing Humanity Wrong, rather than being individuals who are, yes, flawed, but also think and react differently than her. while those situations are much less Significant than the moment she’s talking about river in objects, i do think the way people talk in lighthearted moments or less seriously can Sometimes speak to a broader mindset. that doesn’t make her evil, it just means, like all of them, she has shit to reckon with!

and because i don’t want this to sound too disparaging, and at the risk of oversharing lol, this is an aspect of kaylee i relate to a lot. not necessarily the using dehumanizing language aspect, bc that was something i was taught not to do fairly early in my life, but the idea of Knowing that you really, really try to show people grace and understanding and you feel very deeply for them and Want to understand and empathize so when you Just Can’t understand them or the way they’re thinking or behaving bc it’s so at odds with how you do, it feels like an Entirely Them Problem. bc Obviously if it were Understandable then you would Understand …. and that’s just not. really how it always or even usually works. but i really, really do understand feeling this way, and it is in fact something i have also had to continually work through.

the last thing i guess i’ll say that like… really, a lot of this frustration is actually for kaylee. like, on her behalf. bc i can’t help but to wonder what would have happened if the show had gone on, you know? it’s not that i want kaylee to have lost her spark or her kindness or empathy, and it’s not that i think she Would Have, and certainly not entirely… but like i said, those are really difficult, in fact pretty much impossible, things to live up to one hundred percent of the time, and this was a show where bad things were happening that Often were forcing characters to contend with their own worldviews. i don’t think kaylee would have outright gotten Hardened, but especially as the show went on and she got older and had more experiences in the world they’re living in, i do have to have to wonder if she would have become more obviously flawed/less able to entirely live up to that kindness All The Time. and i also have to wonder as a result how the larger audience would have reacted to that. like would she still be ~fandom darling~? or is she only valuable and lovable in that same way to people when she Is (mostly) living up to their expectation of her being Kind and Empathetic and Soft and Good. yk?

Sometimes, though, (and i am talking really broadly here! i have seen this across platforms and do genuinely feel people on tumblr are better about recognizing where the edges of fanon vs canon lie), i do think people tend to use his background to justify his many many many flaws. like, i've seen people straight up defend his behavior in ariel, which i do not see as particularly defensible. (i *understand* some of it to some degree - it makes sense, after getting slashed, that he would not feel safe with river around. but it's Not His Ship. like, if you make any ultimatum and the person doesn't meet it, then it's your responsibility to either decide if you can live with that or ~leave~. and instead jayne makes an ultimatium, doesn't get his way, and then does the most despicable thing possible in response. and frankly, it's one thing (and somewhat understandable, even tho ultimately i do still feel *fans* should have more understanding that it's complicated bc river is a traumatized teenage girl) for jayne to try and insist they should leave the tams somewhere. it's a whole other deal to actively give them up to people who want them dead and/or imprisoned/recaptured in river's case. in our current modern era for reasons i think should be obvious i am less and less interested in any discussion about it being justifiable by any stetch of the word to hand people over to the police/any government entity. so there is that.

i also see it stated a fair amount that the *real* reason jayne tries to turn the tams in is to protect the crew bc he mentions kaylee and inara. and like... this is a situation where a couple of things are true at once To Me. but i don't think that's his only motivation, and also to me... it reads much less genuine than it might to some. bc why does he mention kaylee and inara specifcially. why not say, book? or hey, if he suspects book has more combat knowledge than he's letting on to defend himself, why not wash? (could it be because he's trying to manipulate mal with two peple he thinks mal will react more emotionally to the thought of being harmed due to his well-meaning but somewhat paternalistic sensibilities?) and like. idk. if he's so concerned about crew safety, there are different things he could have done. he could have appealed to the rest of the crew. he could have appealed to mal more calmly and tried to define specific boundaries he thought were necessary for everyone to be safe. i simply think his overall points that are more affirmed by the narrative (that HE was really specifically affected and this is a form of vengeance, and also that he thinks he can get a good pay-out for him) are far more relevant to his driving motivators. some people stumble onto a not totally awful point less bc it's what they genuinely believe and more bc they think it will get them what they want. i have known this i have seen this and that is personally what i believe is happening here. that moment simply reads to me far more like jayne thinking it will motivate Mal himself than being *his* main concern.

and like... if it was... why wouldn't it come up again in the airlock scene, when he's trying to defend himself to mal. why wouldn't his big reckoning moment of honesty be that and not "i got stupid, the money was too good. don't tell the others what i did." (paraphrasing) and that's the other thing. he quite obviously knows this is not what the others would have wanted bc he has the awareness to feel some shame about it and not want them to know!!!

and even that is like... i don't inherently mind that jayne does these fucked up things or has flaws bc frankly it's very interesting!! like the total tonal shift at the end of jaynestown as he struggles to reconcile his own worldview with what happened and quite literally can't do it and notably *doesn't learn his lesson* bc doing so would mean contending with shit he is not ready to is one of my favorite endings of any episode of the show.

but i do sometimes struggle with what seems like a general broad fandom insistence that jayne like, secretly is Really Very Kind Actually, bc that's not what's shown on screen, nor is it particularly interesting to me. i think he has the capacity to care more than he lets on (with kaylee and his family, from what we see) and maybe would have grown into that more. but i think trying to reconcile the fact that he does care to some degree with the fact that he is genuinely pretty overall self-serving and outright cruel a decent amount of the time much more interesting.

in particular, i've seen it stated (maybe in reaction video comment sections in particular, which i tend to get more frustrated by than the reactions themselves lmao) that you just have to watch out for the letter scene in the message and it explains everything and justifies his every action and i'm like... i do think it's important to his motivation and yeah, it frames him in an interesting way that we didn't have knowledge of before. what it Does Not do is change everything about him for me. and sometimes when it's talked about i feel like there's an implication that like, you know nothing about him if you don't see this moment which is just flagrantly not very true. of the mains, mal, simon, jayne, and inara get the most focus. and even of those, i'd say jayne gets more overall focus than river, who gets focus/things are About Her, but not often a lot of agency before objects and the film. yes, all of the characters could have stood to not have their arcs off and get more development, but i don't particularly think jayne was underserved as a character in what we did get. (and to show i can be unbiased lol: neither was simon! they loved writing for that guy!)

and also like... i have empathy for jayne's family struggling financially and having a sick sibling. those are genuinely very hard things to have going in your life. but i do sometimes feel that the arguments made that suggest this justifies, say, betraying the tams, fall pretty flat for me... when simon also has (albeit in a different way) a sick sibling who needs his help. like that's pretty relevant to the conversation, actually. point being: most of the people on this ship have Some hard or trauamtic thing going on right now or in their past (river, simon, mal, zoe, and book and inara implied) and you'll notice that they don't do that shit and no one ever acts like them having gone through hard shit justifies doing fucked up things. (in fact, sometimes people (even if they don't mean to) will outright villainize river for, say, shooting the men and saving kaylee at niska's, when A) her knowing to do that is in one way or another directly linked to her trauma (whether you think it's linked to super secret soldier training or just her psychic/prodigious abilities being 'enhanced' at the academy) B) that was an action literally in service of protecting someone.) like it may (and i emphasize may here bc he doesn't bring it up in ariel at all) be one reason, but it's not the only reason, nor is it an excuse.

also sometimes it seems like the common fandom rhetoric around jayne on this front sort of contradicts itself... people sometimes act like bc he has lived in this cutthroat mercenary world where he's had to be selfish to survive, that justifies it all, and i'm not saying that hasn't affected him... but he also grew up in what i think is commonly believed, based on the limited info we have, in a loving family that presumably taught or tried to teach him some of the values he's foregoing. (that may be a stretch but i think there's a case to be made that if the stuff in the message is going to be treated like it's integral to his character, then there is a pretty blatant contradiction in how he seems likely to have been raised vs how he's acting now.)

and now for perhaps the biggest elephant in the room: jayne is a misogynst. i'm sorry, but he is. (i would also not be particularly surprised for him to also be homophobic considering his line about simon being a "big city dandy' i the pilot bc while he's largely referring to style and presentation re: class, there are are undeniable connotations there. and he fetishizes inara and the councilor which is a form.)

he makes a point of trying to embarass kaylee for her sexuality, he touches saffron in a very gross way (wouldn't be okay even once they do know who she is, but there's an extra ick for the fact that he believes her to be a young woman just sold off against her will???) and tries to trade mal for her, he outright says "womenfolk aren't to be trusted" and only shows Any interest in helping the heart of gold when he realizes they're 'whores', so i guess their lives only have value when he realizes he can likely sleep with them. not to mention a gross comment about river in the pilot that i'm not really able to forget/write-off as early weirdness (even tho i'd like to!) when it's overall pretty consistent with the rest of the way he treats and talks about women.

and tbc i'm all for trying to make sense of that in fanworks (i really like moth's very interesting portrayal of exploring jayne as a trans man and the above mindsets being a strategy to try to reaffirm his masculinity to himself)!!

but when it comes to analyzing the actual show, his misoygny does leave a pretty bad taste in my mouth, and doubly so when some fans just... don't seem to see or care or address it. or worse, treat it like it's fine bc it's just jayne.

and there are conversations we can and should and do have about mal's use of the word 'whore' and the way he talks to/treats inara, and to a lesser extent (there's plenty worth criticizng here but most of the conflict between simon and kaylee is more class-based) simon fucking up with kaylee. but the difference is that, however well executed you do or don't think it is (my feelings on that are Also complicated) instances of mal treating inara poorly are supposed to be seen negatively, largely. you're not supposed to be thinking he's a great guy in the pilot when he does his old two-birds one stone deal to make book and inara uncomfortable. and with simon and kaylee ... he shows authentic remorse every time says anything to hurt her, and while they have multiple conflicts about sort of related things, they're about something a little different every time bc simon Learns. so i get (and yes my bitter simon fan is going to come out for a second, sorry) remarkably annoyed and just cannot take it seriously when people act like simon's flops are so unforgivable while either not addressing jayne's shit or justifying it or glorifying him. (tbc: this is not a vague at anyone here!! i've just seen some shit other areas.)

and it's not that jayne is treated like this great guy, but most of it is pretty hand-waved. like, just jayne being jayne! and i don't have any particular belief that that's something they would have heavily addressed in his character arc. i mean, in the film (which i know, debatably canon, but working with what we have) even when they're doing some work to show he's (somewhat) less selfish, there are still moments i don't find great in that regard. jayne skeezily saying "i could stand to hear a little more" while kaylee's talking about vibrators doesn't appear to particularly bother her, so like, whatever, but the fact of the matter is that if they wanted to show him no longer ever being skeezy they could have done that.

and ig the other thing on that front is that i think sometimes people give a little too much stock to what jayne's 'redemption arc' (which is sort of a loaded term) would have been. i am inclined to believe it would have been, 'jayne is a little bit less of an asshole and a little more loyal to the crew'. that's like. basically it. it would not have been 'jayne is this suddenly amazing guy you just had to wait for'. and i don't say this bc i believe he's irredeemable (i don't believe in that, and neither does the narrative) but because this was a story not very interested in seeing things from a purely black and white perspective where the protagonists win all the time and the good never comes with bad and people are Just One Thing. i do think he would have developed like all of the characters, but i also think it would have involved a lot of regression and back and forth. and it seems like some have an idea that jayne would have been fully Transformed by the end and to each their own, but that's not really how i see it.