Father

He has died

Update on snow Wilson

I HAVE A 170 CENTIMETER WILSON IN MY GOD DAMN YARD

”Brows painted carefully

Lips tinted with red

Around my neck expensive pearls

I’ve received them long ago

From my home to the brightness

A sunny March

Has fallen to the side of the field

To a snowfall to the end of the woods

I can’t see the trail

When he turns around

Only an untouched tuft of snow remains

He disappears in its whiteness

As if he had never been here

he had never been here

The town’s noises drown out

It breaches the great trees

The reach out their branches

I can’t find my way after all

It’ll be dark soon

I must get to warmth

Only wearing formal attire

On my hands are old grooves”

Etc etc

(Song excerpt from ‘Hän Ei Ole Täällä’ by Stella)

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HIS ASS QUIET!!!!!

I will not disclose the reason for his anger

ughoaokwii i need to go to a fucking what is it called vocational college seminar and I DONT WANT TO IM NOT GOING TO VOCATIONAL COLLEGEE!!!!! Grrr!!!!!!..!!.!.!! I’m also so not getting into university theres just no way they’ll take me :P can a bro just chill 🍃 fr.,….,.,.,.i mean i got a bit over two years but come the fuck on I’m not making it and I don’t even need to. University only has one thing i want which is education but I can do without university to get education. Plus everyone’ll expect me to do something great after like jesus hermann christ mom I’m not gonna do groundbreaking discoveries in chemistry im sorry. I’ve pretty much abandoned all my plans by now because there’s nothing i can do except trying not to be a burden on society and do my part to make some people happy. I don’t want anything which is bad because i think you’re supposed to want something from life but it might be just cuz im ND and I don’t see myself in traditional work or work at all. I just want to frolic in the flower fields and be left alone until I am done baking but I’m afraid I’ll get burned to a crisp if i keep saying im not ready. I might go to italy for two weeks for a school thing which is great. I hope the weather is better than here.

Speaking of weather i was actually kinda counting on the fact that I wouldn’t even make it to spring but apparently life has a way of keeping me alive. I simply cannot fit a hospital stay nor death into my schedule. My schedule has plenty of empty space dont get me wrong but It’s because I’m a mentally exhausted little man and i need to ruminate in my sadness.