A small girl with a big imagination

when you grew up as a lonely uncool girl it will never stop haunting you by the way. you will meet a cool person at a bar or the train station or at a friend's party and you can wear your most stylish outfit and striking eye makeup and you will swear that they can see through all of the facade and see the lonely terribly insecure teenage girl you used to be who desperately wanted to connect and you will swear that they know that there is like an insurmountable gap between you. this will happen forever

i have no object permanence about myself. if i’m not in anyones eye sight i assume i have ceased to be. finding out people remember i exist, think about me, and even talk about me when i’m not actively in front of them is startling news every time it is brought to my attention

Not to be aromantic on main but I do not and have never understood the appeal of having one person be your entire emotional support. People are like "this is my boyfriend and he is my everything, we're always together and I tell him all my problems and he's my best friend and life partner all in one!" And I'm like "cool. Sounds terrible."