Balance.

Beyond The  Matrix

“Social conditioning has heavily shaped your thinking since the day you were born; it narrows the mind to see the world as everyone else. We must break free from the constricting social mold that was designed to keep you controlled, addicted, approval seeking, distracted, divided and asleep. If you choose to identify with the cultural norms and narratives that you were programmed into (artificial construct of the matrix), then you are obligated to defend and uphold it’s agenda (without question).   

We were sold all sorts of hand-me-down, illogical codes of conduct, language and belief-systems to decorate the façade of our inauthentic lives which, in turn begins to pacifies us. The real test is to remember who we really are beyond beyond the belief of separation, fear, conditioning, trauma and attachment. Difficult situations can burn away layers of ego identification if met with deeper, conscious presence rather than unconscious reactivities. It is imperative to reach our fullest potential in life by transcending the shared societal illusions and remembering that we are already whole, limitless and free.”  

-Anon I mus (Spiritually Anonymous)

In nature nothing and nobody is out of place.

"A marriage ending isn't a failure at all. I spent eleven years with her. We were so in love that we couldn't image life apart from each other. We got our own place, adopted a dog, and supported each other through school. I thought if tow people loved each other enough the rest would fall into place, except... love isn't everything.

And I didn't want to believe that, but we were sitting in counseling one day, talking about our future and I realized we were describing two completely different lives. Where we'd live, what kind of life we wanted, what made us happy. And it hit me that- I love this woman and this woman loved me. And after eleven years of loss, grief, career changes, we were so deeply in love... but we weren't aligned. And I kept thinking 'We just need to try harder. We can find some compromise to make this work,' because that's what you're supposed to do when you love someone, right?

But the reality was, we had just become different people. Her trade school took her in one direction, my graduate degree in another and trying to force us back into who we were five years ago wasn't coming from a place of love. It was coming from a place of fear. Fear that, if this ended, it meant we wasted eleven years. But sitting there across from her, I realized: That's not how love works.

Those eleven years happened. They were real. The dog, our home, showing up for each other through grad school and trade school. I wouldn't change a single thing because loving someone doesn't mean you're meant to stay with them forever. And letting go doesn't erase what you had. We measure marriage by whether it lasts forever or not, but what if we measured it by whether it mattered?

What if we measured it by the love we gave, the life we built, and the people we became? Because love's job isn't to last forever, it's to help you become fully completely yourself, and sometimes the most loving thing you can do is give each other permission to be yourselves, separately. But the dog doesn't know were' divorced. He just gets two Christmases now."

You retreated to heal and that was necessary.

Now it’s time to come out of your shell.

When your mind no longer chases “gold” or runs away from “dirt,” and sees both as expressions of the same empty awareness, that is a sign of genuine realization.

… a state of non-dual awareness or awakening, often found in Zen and Dzogchen traditions, where the mind ceases to divide experience into desirable ("gold") and undesirable ("dirt") categories.

Genuine realization, in this context, implies that all experiences—joyful or painful, pure or impure—are recognized as arising from the same, empty, and luminous awareness.

Chasing "Gold": Represents grasping, attachment, or the craving for pleasure and success.

Running from "Dirt": Represents aversion, fear, or the rejection of pain and discomfort.

Empty Awareness: A concept known as Shunyata (emptiness) or Rigpa (luminous awareness), which is not a blank void, but a vast, open space of awareness that is free from concepts, stories, and the need to categorize experiences.

The Sign of Realization: The shift from being lost in the drama of life to "resting" in the awareness of life. It is when the mind becomes "settled and imperturbable" in all situations, viewing both success and failure as "a dream or illusion," yet fully participating in life without being stained by it.

Intelligence just gives you more clever ways to keep avoiding them.

just so you know