wasuretakunaikoto Himari Tsukishiro

May

When you're truly in pain,

you just want to run away

from everything and disappear.

But that's precisely

why people exist around us.

We live together with other people,

and I think that's a very precious thing.

-

Opposing viewpoints are important,

and each side is necessary.

I hope I can enjoy life more tomorrow

than today, and I will not give up

on believing that future will come to pass.

-

I've been rewatching the JoJo series

and just finished watching

"Stardust Crusaders."

JoJo's line,

"I'm tired of hearing 'impossible' and 'useless'," really struck a chord with me,

and I want to keep that in mind.

They're truly cool guys…

-

I want to use this English.

"super duper"

-

I wondered why I felt couldn't accept idols

and artists using AI in their images

and art. But then I realized

that I want to see the paths

they travelled and the drama

that arises from their real lives.

I believe that is the strength and art

that we humans have given birth to.

-

Every year for Mother's Day,

I send my mom her favorite

mango pudding, & this year

I received a message from her that said,

"Don't work too hard and hurt

your throat."

A few years ago I never imagined

the day would come when my mom

would be cheering me on,

so I was really happy‥

-

Those of you who have known me

for a while may have noticed,

but I've been smiling much more naturally

in the last few years.

I was truly surprised

when I saw my expressions

in the video data we shot a few days ago.

It will be released soon. Stay tuned!

-

The new EP is up and we will deliver it

to you all very soon.

There were a lot of twists and turns

along the way, but when

I listened to the final version,

I felt so fulfilled I cried‥

I'm so happy

I can deliver something like this.

What's your favorite Isiliel song right now?

2026.0518

-

There was a time a while ago

I felt like my heart

might not be able to be moved anymore.

But lately through all the wonderful people

around me and the amazing things

I've experienced I can feel my it

moving again. It can be scary,

but I want to keep putting my heart

on the line.

-

It truly makes me happy to know

that the songs, melodies, videos,

and other things we've created together

will always exist no matter

how much time passes,

and that they will keep inspiring

hope again and again.

I want to keep creating things like that

皐月

辛くて苦しくて逃げ出したい時があって、

でも、

命の限り歌ってるよ。

「涙が零れてもstay by my side」

-

3年前の1stアルバムレコ中の私へ。

相変わらず人生は苦しみの連続だけど、

それでもmetal warriorとして

気持ちの抱き方。

ジェットコースターみたいに

走り出したらもう逃げ出せない。

恐い気持ちで不安に押し潰されながら

終えてしまうのではなく

少しだけ

楽しんでみる気持ちを掴んでみる。

乗り込んで

走り出し

「望みを捨てたら 全ては終わる

諦めなければ 希望は続く」

「分割されたものを統合できる絆は

自分を疑う

自分を信じる

自分に厳しく

April

I loved JoJo's "Steel Ball Run" so much

that I'm rewatching the JoJo series,

starting with "Phantom Blood."

By the way, my current favorite character

is Jolyne.

I want to be stronger and more beautiful

tomorrow than I am today.

-

I've been rewatching the JoJo series,

and I was deeply moved by Wamuu

in "Battle Tendency."

While I'm a big fan of Shu

from Fist of the North Star,

I feel a similar emotion towards him‥

a strong person

who values ​​the dignity of battle‥

-

I want to use this English.

"Good grief"

-

At Isiliel's start

there were many hardships.

There were many new meetings

and also many goodbyes.

Walking, running, falling & getting hurt along the way - "now" is

still my favorite time.

Will you keep adventuring with me?

This year too, let's make a pinky promise

& stay metal!

-

I watched the latest episode of The Boys

and then started rewatching it little by little

from the first season.

I feel like crying when I think about

how much Homelander needed

someone to truly love him…

-

Sometimes my own shortcomings bring

tears to my eyes.

Before I would have fallen into despair,

but now, even if I cry, I step back

and think "How interesting,

I'll definitely grow from this"

I'll become stronger for the sake

of what matters to me - will you

keep cheering me on?

-

It's so hard to keep going in everything

that it makes me want to cry.

But… even so, I want to get back up

小さい頃

金子みすゞや相田みつをがすきで

よく詩を読んでいたよ。

─── 私と小鳥と鈴と‥

─── 生きているうち

はたらけるうち

「朝が来るのがこわい」

そう思う毎朝に

「今日は贈り物」

と言ってみることにする

ちょっとづつ

ちょっとづつ

朝の珈琲

窓に揺らめく光

愛と憎しみは隣同士

陰と陽の様に

いつも一緒に存在している

だから、どちらが目になっているかを

思い出すよ

どちらも持っているのが人だから

取り返しが付くうちに

どちらを選択するのかが

大切なみんなへ

私が弱さを見せる時であっても

私に言葉を送ってくれて

信じてくれて

あたたかく包んでくれて

本当にありがとう。

あなたが送ってくれた言葉は

私の心に強く、優しく響いています。

今日よりも明日はもっと

タフになりたい。

大切なみんなの笑顔を守りたい。

様々なことに直面して

数年前よりは強くなりました。

けれど、些細なことで傷は開くのです。

心の傷は、そういうものだと思うのです。

でも、めげません。

もっと届けたい

創りたいものが待っています。

いつも、どこでも

ありがとうと愛を伝えたいのです。

私に居場所をくれて

笑顔になれる日々を与えてくれて

本当にありがとう。

立ち上がれない時があっても

弱いと感じる日があっても

大丈夫です。

それでも、大丈夫なのです。

どんなに辛い中にいても

大切なものを

大切にしようとしてくれるあなたは

本当は真に強いと

私は感じています。

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そして、

どんなにカタチにしても

こうなってしまった方へ

昨年も年始にも、あなたに伝えたことが

あなたに伝わっていることを知っています。

あなたへの投稿後

あなたは

「自分のせいで全てを台無しにしたのかもしれない‥ほんとうにごめんなさい。」と投稿したのち

一時期 投稿をやめ

その後フォローを外しまた同じ様なことを

繰り返しています。

心が通う瞬間があった数年前を

覚えているから

限界まで自分の中に飲み込んでいました。

一緒につくった記憶は

かけがえのない大切なものだと

信じていたから、そうしていました。

ここで出逢ったコミュニティを

自分のものだと錯覚し

私が出したコンテンツや言葉を

自分のものだと錯覚し

とても悲しい。

お互いに以前の様にリスペクトの心を

持っていたかった。

でも、今は違う。

昨年からずっと耐える日々だったけれど

私も行動を起こそうと思っています。

最後に伝わることを願って

March

I want to use this English.

"gotcha"

-

I learned that my relationship

with my parents, who always felt distant,

can become kind and warm.

I want to continue to cherish the things

that are important to me.

I never want to forget the love

I feel for my beloved ones.

-

I want to use this English.

"womp womp"

-

I want to use this English.

"HOLY COW"

-

When something sad happens

and I feel uneasy,

if something sad happens again right after

that I feel like somehow

everything will just work out on its own.

I wish I could always maintain

that mindset,

but humans are forgetful creatures‥

-

I was able to go out

for yakiniku (Japanese barbecue)

with my family for the first time

in about 10 years.

I've been feeling lately

that even as an adult,

弥生

日常を日常として過ごせること

-

あなたにとって、

心があたたかくなる香りは何ですか?

アンネの日記の中で出逢った一節。

Thank you for being born.

Thank you for keeping on living.

Thank you for going through life together

As people who create,

we are inspired and influenced

by the many kinds of art spread

all across the world.

And from that new ideas are born

which lead to new creations.

But in the midst of that we must have

respect and love.

Otherwise what we create will simply

be a counterfeit, a copy.

When I see things like that my heart fills

with sadness and emptiness,

but in most cases

that doesn’t reach the heart of the person

who caused it.

When I think that I might have to face

that sort of conflict in perpetuity

I can’t help feeling

that I want to simply give up on everything,

but losing out to that impulse

would be such an immeasurable waste.

And as for me,

I never want to betray everything

I hold important…

And so, today more than the day

that has come before,