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Louis, I’m so sorry for you my brother my heart aches for you, just know I love you the same from a million miles away as I do right next to you. I’m always here for you through everything as you have been for me. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this incredibly sad time I can’t begin to imagine what you’re all going through. Rip Johannah you are forever in our thoughts. // Our thoughts & prayers go out to the Tomlinson-Deakin family. Rest in peace, Johannah. ♡

This is not something I’ll be able to express clearly, but it’s just been too much of an emotional rollercoaster for me to stay silent about.

Anyone who is familiar with the inner working of One Direction is aware of how tumultuous Louis’ upbringing was. From the divorce of his parents at a young age to the tremendous stress Mrs. Deakin was under in order to raise her five children on her own and the fatherly role Louis was forced to play even after Troy was in the picture, this is a family that so richly deserved the payoff that Louis’ fame brought them.

But throughout the entirety of his career, Louis has never forgotten the individuals who got him to where he was, and at the very top of that list was (I cannot believe it’s ‘was’ now) his beloved mother.

Johannah was a mother and wife before there was ‘Louis Tomlinson of One Direction and she remained that way afterwards, keeping us entertained with her posts gushing about how much she loved her ‘little stars’ and always having a throwback picture of Louis to share with us. She enjoyed the stability Louis’ fame bought to the lives of her and her family, not the riches. Louis has expressed countless times the foundation she provided him with and the strength she gave him in order to become the man he is today.

Regardless of your opinion on Louis’ personal life, his relationships, his talent, his heart, or even his looks, please take the time to really think about what he has gone through over these past few hours. Losing the woman who raised and defended your every breath is one thing, but to have it happen so close to the holidays is nothing short of torture.

Louis will turn 25 in 15 days. This will be the first birthday, Christmas, and New Years celebration he will have to face without his mother.

Please, do not turn this into an opportunity for more babygate/Larry/Louinelle/Modest/Simon discourse. This isn’t something conjured up to get a reaction out of us, this is a tragedy that needs to be acknowledged and respected.

It doesn’t matter if Harry, Niall, Liam, or Zayn choose to post something or stay silent about it. The boys were so close, it’s bound to be hard for them to handle as well.

My thoughts and prayers are with the Tomlinson-Deakin family. I lost my grandfather to this disease earlier this year and know that it’s one of the most devastating on the planet.

Leukemia is a monster that forces you to watch your loved one waste away to nothing right before your eyes, but the saddest part of this situation to me is that you always know when you’re about to lose the one suffering.