If you only knew
If only you were old enough to understand the pain that I've been through,
You'd know what drives my every breath to fight so hard for you.
Things in my life have been rather rough, put subtly to say the least.
My mind and body ripped apart, just more fuel to feed the beast.
From outside in my smile is there, but there's no foundation beneath it's feet,
But joy I'll always bring to you, and within myself my secrets keep.
You shouldn't fear when night draws near, or need tiptoe while we sleep,
For nothing in the shadows compares to the darkness in which my heart steeps.
I was never much for hinting at vulnerabilities, alas I'd never dare,
For I feel that bringing others down would be more pain than I could share.
So at 3am I paint a wall that for years has sat still and bare,
Reaching out for help? Not after all the years the world's ignored it there.
... who the fuck is hammering outside of my house at 3 in the fucking morning?
